Where is Hou Yanyan?

I asked this question and finally got in touch with her through a friend. Now I'll answer. I have a lot to tell her about the topic, in fact, it is easy to guess what I want to say.

When asking questions: 20 12-04-09. When answering questions: 20 19-05-23.

She is someone I have cherished for more than ten years. I liked her very much at that time. Because of the separation of schools, this matter has not been solved. Since then, I have kept this secret in my heart, with some sacred meaning, trying to make myself worthy of her. In my mind, I have been playing the last few pictures in decades, talking pictures, frolicking pictures, smiling pictures when she came back from the water in summer, and I can vaguely recall how fast her heart beat at that time, and how nervous she was at the sight of her.

One day when I was reading a book, I found an adjective: laughter like a bell. Every time I see this word, I think of how beautiful and brittle her smile is, which is really perfect compared with a silver bell.

There is also a word called "red lips and white teeth", which is also in line with my memory.

She is pure. I have always believed that there is no more beautiful woman in my life experience of more than ten years. Seeing any beautiful woman will feel a little inadequate, which may be due to excessive beautification caused by memory deviation. However, in my mind, she is still that person. I know nothing about her present situation, and I always think that with her intelligence, she will definitely go to a good university, have a handsome boyfriend and live a winner's life. Actually, I was wrong.

I hesitated before asking someone to ask her for WeChat. I am afraid that contact means the destruction of two lives, but I easily crossed the moral barrier because of desire.

The result was a bit unexpected.

First, she dropped out of junior high school.

Then you don't remember me.

Then I thought I was the one who brushed my sense of existence more than ten years ago.

Then chatting is a bit rude, rude and wary of strangers.

Then it was deleted. . .

One of my favorite movies is The Great Gatsby. Gatsby regards love for Daisy as the most important thing in the world and the ultimate goal of life. I saw my shadow in Gatsby, which is the driving force above all else, but the reality lacks romance after all.

In the eyes of any third party, I may be a self-defeating, overreaching and even a little disgusting guy. I am a worthless person, and I will only come back to eat grass. Maybe it's right, but let's simply explain my identity:

I am an emotional person. I already have a girlfriend who is going to get married soon, and the relationship has always been very good (the girlfriend is also very cute). Just graduated for two years, with a salary of 20k+ and a fairly comfortable life. I won't be too busy because of life. The reason why I wrote this experience means that I have ended this relationship from junior high school to now for more than ten years, and some things that have troubled me will gradually be resolved and I will become more mature. There is also: women are big pig's hooves.

Afraid of being seen by his girlfriend, he disappeared.