Tarot card analysis, emotional choice.

Not from tarot cards, but from your narrative.

You set a trap for yourself to jump in, implying that you love him. Because no man has ever treated you like that, you usually think it is love, but it is not love. Love includes not only what he has done, but also responsibility, including always thinking of you, giving you a sense of security and making you trust each other. He didn't do all this ~ look down on your relationship, maybe he doesn't love you as much as you think.