Alas, my life is over. I don't know how much longer I can bear it. I'm afraid my divorced parents will be sad.

You should learn to look at the world coldly, or you will be cheated. You should learn to shape things, not be at their mercy. Tarot Moon

I have no freedom. I will take awakening as my freedom. Warrior creed

You feel that the other party is inappropriate, unfriendly, malicious and cheated by the other party. You have taken a big step, at least you are not kept in the dark. Of course, you have to make changes in your life, not just wake up, which requires exercise.