Qianshan everywhere: I read Sanmao.

Compared with many people who have been infatuated with Sanmao since high school, I have heard this name and know that there is such a writer who knows something about her. That's all, that's all.

Until about half a month ago, I saw several people on a WeChat official account discussing what San Mao wrote in Wan Shui Qian Shan Travel Notes, about past lives.

Yes, as an easy-to-learn lover, or a person wandering on the edge of paranormal research, this kind of information has an irresistible attraction to me. So, almost immediately, I placed an order in Yidong without hesitation and bought a complete set of three hairs. Then, I chose Wan Shui Qian Shan as the first book to read.

So the impression of Sanmao began when she and her assistant Misa traveled around South America.

I want to read quickly, focusing on the paragraph she wrote about the past lives of Indians. I don't know how to read the first chapter, so I decided to calm down and read it slowly, because it would be a sin and regret to skip such wonderful words and souls.

In fact, when I first read this book, there were many things I didn't understand. However, after reading several other books, consulting relevant materials and understanding Sanmao's life experience, we can also get a general understanding of Sanmao's mentality by reading this book again.

1

In the first chapter, Michael saw Jorgen's passion for Sanmao, especially when facing a luxury apartment like an art gallery. He deeply felt that Jorgen's level matched Sanmao's preference and persuaded Sanmao to accept Jorgen.

But Sanmao pretended not to hear. "Is the person who woke up from a big dream. Don't they understand that any hero in the world is inevitably impermanent and prosperous like a spring dream? "

Sanmao, who had a dream of scavenging since childhood, never cared about worldly money and things outside her body. Especially after Jose left, San Mao became more desperate.

A few years later, she sold the home she and Jose built bit by bit to people who liked the layout of the house at less than half the market price. All the once cherished objects in the family are also given to their favorite neighbors.

A friend thought Sanmao was going to be sold. San Mao said, if you can't afford my things, just give them to me. Yes, in Sanmao's eyes, they are priceless, and only those who really cherish them deserve Sanmao's trust.

Now, in the world of these works of art, what is there to miss?

What's more, Jorgen doesn't understand San Mao at all. He put Sanmao's book on the coffee table and gave Sanmao the olive tree. I don't know. At the moment, Sanmao "hates to see them."

Jorgen invited his "very literate" compatriots to talk with San Mao about Mexican history, geography and art. But in Sanmao's mind, those are just "dead things".

San Mao doesn't like to talk to them about this, because "they don't talk about the living people, food, clothing, housing and transportation, streets and alleys in Mexico, but only about the historical materials and culture that books appeal to."

The purpose of Sanmao's trip is to "live". Sanmao is so far away from them. If you are trapped in such a high wall, it is not San Mao.

Therefore, for love, Sanmao only has knowledge. For Jorgen, San Mao can only apologize. After trying to "try and try, there is nothing to explain", she chose to stay away.

2

San Mao, who moved to the hotel, came back to life completely.

She went to see the faces of civilians in the underground car; I visited the museum, but I was only interested in the corn god and suicide. I also chased the tour guide to ask the location of the suicide god system, and even went to study the suicide god later.

Because no matter what religion in the world allows people to commit suicide, San Mao thinks that "this religion has given mankind the greatest respect and free will" is very interesting and meaningful.

It is said that Sanmao later committed suicide because of insanity, but in my opinion, maybe Sanmao wanted to leave after Jose left.

But for so many years, the heart was enslaved, and the soul was trapped in the body and could not be free. On the one hand, I am worried about my elderly parents. On the other hand, San Mao, who believes in metaphysics, may also worry that suicide is not allowed and accepted by heaven.

Her Yue Se went to heaven. If she can't go because of suicide, how can she fulfill her agreement with Jose?

But here and now, San Mao has been carefully hidden in her heart, and she wants to leave. After seeing the suicide god, she finally found the exit. Suicide is allowed and accepted. Suicide, no longer guilty.

After Sanmao committed suicide, it was reported that Sanmao died in the same posture as the statue of the suicide god.

This can be seen.

three

Wherever Sanmao goes, she likes to "do as the Romans do" best.

So, on a flower boat, she will run to make friends with the boatman, get the boat Artemisia and punt herself, and change her identity from a tourist to a boatman. Even if you have enough money to eat, don't go to the luxurious China hotel, but stick to the local food.

When I was in Mexico, I ate all the way to the end and "brought a brother", which made my assistant Misa complain bitterly. Stay in a hotel and find a cheap place.

Even later, when I finally saw the village where the Indians lived in her dream, she went in alone in exchange for helping with farm work, eating and living with them, getting along with them and not disturbing them.

Perhaps in the eyes of others, Sanmao is a strange person. Even later, Michael said that he didn't want to cooperate with Sanmao any more. But how many people really know Sanmao?

For Michelle, Sanmao regards her as a strict teacher and hopes that he can grow up with her.

So don't take him to socialize or act with him, because "he must understand his identity and responsibility, and spoiling him too much will only make him get nothing along the way."

What he needs is personal experience and experience. He can't always take things with him and listen to me explain the form and age of each building. So Sanmao forced him to learn Spanish and learn to face and handle housework by himself.

At the same time, she kept setting an example for Michael.

In the inn where insects are falling like rain, Michael said that he couldn't sleep in his bed and didn't lift his head. "Yes, sleep under the sheets at night."

When Machu Picchu was flooded, Sanmao, who had always been careless, rushed out of her body like a beast. In her struggle with the guide, Micha and she were able to escape.

Most importantly, Sanmao understands that only by going deep into the bottom and contacting the real life of the people can we understand the true form of a country and even society. And these are exactly what photographers and writers need, not "sitting in a cafe and chatting"

So I always think that Michael is really lucky to follow Sanmao on this trip!

It's a pity that Michael doesn't understand, maybe he does, but his sense of superiority in the upper class makes him unable to put down his airs and admit it.

Facing people's livelihood, Sanmao is sensitive, kind and compassionate. In Honduras, she and Micha walked from village to town, filled with the faces and eyes of poor residents, which bluebirds could not reach.

Michael always said that San Mao was too bitter, and it was better to stay in a hotel with hot water to eat.

But in Sanmao's view, "the children outside the window are hungry, how can I bear to sit in the big glass and eat steak through them?"

Facing her heart, perhaps San Mao felt helpless because of Jose's departure, so wherever she went, she had to integrate into the local life.

Because only these fresh life and breath can make her feel alive. With them, Sanmao has the strength to live!

four

About the bank of Silver Lake, Sanmao said that he was an Indian in his previous life, and I always believed him.

Perhaps many people are questioning whether there is a soul in this world, and did previous lives really exist? Even San Mao himself said: "A dream is wrong because it is realized. Sometimes, I am puzzled and afraid of my premonition. "

But this world is so wonderful that some people come to this world with strange genes, regardless of race or belief. Just like everyone is born with a different mission.

From the perspective of Yi-ology and metaphysics, we will find that everything in this world, whether it is you personally, a certain region or even the whole world, is really doomed.

Everything is regular, as if there is a huge hand, manipulating it all. But, after all, we are all too young, take a look, this is the ultimate!

While in Peru, Sanmao met a girl named Annie. Annie said, "Do you believe in past lives and afterlife? I know you, not in this life. "

"Looking at it with a smile and three hairs. As soon as they met, the Dutch girl dressed up in fashion, talked politely, became very ill and even hid things. "

Why not believe it? If it weren't for predestination, how could we meet in this life? How can you trust a stranger without hesitation?

So when Anne was crying at the French window alone, Sanmao chose to sit in the corridor. When the mass was over, looking at Annie with tears in her eyes, San Mao didn't go up to say hello. Just because I know you.

Later, Anne left without saying goodbye, leaving only a letter, which said, "Although I forgot to ask your last name, for those of us who believe in immortality, we must have known each other before, and it is unknown whether we can meet again in the future." I'm leaving. I didn't leave you an address. "

Looking at Anne's letter, San Mao didn't feel a trace of sadness. "This letter was written by Anne's upbringing. In fact, people like us are natural and don't leave a word. Why doesn't Anne understand that mutual friend! "

Yes, I don't like to say goodbye Fate has arrived, so it's time to part. One more word, one more word, redundant.

Isn't Sanmao's death a way to say goodbye to her?

How to write the ending?

Sanmao, such a spiritual woman, has too many words at the end of her pen, but she always hesitates. What words should be used to summarize and evaluate?

But it seems that all the words are slightly pale.

The ending is goodbye, right? I seem to see San Mao's smile.

Yes, why don't you stop writing!