What is the experience of a girl with a boy's name?

She is five years older than me. She has been at home for illness and has been unemployed for two years. I just entered junior year. There is not much difference between the two families. We are really predestined friends, and we met through games. From the moment when two strangers came together and almost paid attention to her for a few days, I felt that she was different, and she felt that I was different. A lot has happened since she agreed to me 14 days ago. She got a job, thought about it all night when hyperthyroidism recurred, and broke up with me yesterday. The idea of getting married is between two families. In order to stay, I talked to my parents and they didn't agree. My mother always felt that there would be consequences in the future and that she was not good enough. Her mother also wants her to find an old man with a local hukou. Two people who have no economic foundation are very family-oriented. I don't know what to do. Feelings are short, but deep. It was the first love, 13 days, and I devoted all my love to her. Now I really feel heartbroken, all kinds of discomfort, her shadow everywhere, and I'm not interested in doing anything. Suddenly, tears poured down and stopped this state. It's not that we don't love each other very hard. Some things are useless even if we try harder. So helpless, so helpless, I don't feel anything can be detached from reality. Perhaps nothing can be detached from reality, and there will be real freedom after death.

hey

I am the past.

I am waiting for you.