Remember to watch the documentary "Stumbling Life"

This film records the story of the poet Yu Xiuhua. Her hometown is Zhongxiang, Hubei, and it is also my hometown. She lives in Shipai town, and she can get a general understanding by listening to her accent when talking with her family.

Many years ago, before her shocking poem-Sleeping You Across Half of China-became popular on 20 15, my second brother had introduced Yu Xiuhua to me. I was in college at that time, because I didn't pay attention to my second brother's recommendation. I thought it was normal for my brother to know writers in his hometown for professional needs.

Later, I saw that Yu Xiuhua was called "the poet of cerebral palsy" by the public in the forwarding of Weibo, magazines and friends. I only know a little about Yu Xiuhua, her poems and her family through these fragments.

Until I opened the documentary today, I saw her, her poor material life and rich spiritual life, her stubbornness and compromise, her loveliness and rejection.

At her seminar, experts said that she said Emily from China? Dickinson. Yu said: I don't agree. Anyone who is imitated as another person is a loser. Dickinson is unique, and so am I, Yu Xiuhua.

After the seminar, Mr. Fan Jian, a film director, photographer and editor I trusted very much, said to me, Let's take a photo on stage. Yu said: I'll go if you take pictures. Fan said: You are the protagonist. You should sit in the middle and say with a smile, I am honored to sit with the protagonist today. I immediately replied: I am very happy to sit with you today. By this time, Fan had packed up the information, got up and said, Stop flirting and let's go. I'm already smiling. I can't close my mouth properly.

After winning the 20 15 female media award-female role model of the year, I found it in people organized by disabled people and expressed my hope that teachers would pay attention to the field of disabled people. I didn't express vague verbal support, just said that if you want to pay attention, you must pay attention effectively. She won't make a sound when she has no ability. She wants to do it and will do it when she has the ability. So far, this opportunity has not come.

After gaining recognition, attention and love from the outside world, she returned to the small yard in the village, still facing life alone, facing the crops in the field, facing the chickens, rabbits, cats and dogs in the yard, facing her aging mother due to illness, and facing her ex-husband who quarrels every year and refuses to divorce.

She said: the impact of disability on people is not only in life, but also in spirit. The fortune teller said that she was disabled because she did something bad in her last life. So in childhood, she tortured herself why she did bad things in her last life, which was a heavy mental burden.

With Yu Xiuhua's insistence and a sum of money for her ex-husband, they finally divorced. On the night of getting the license, they took a bus and had drinks together. I said like a child, "Great, I can still get a divorce after 20 years of marriage. Money talks, you old ghost. I give you money and you push me. " At this time, the old ghost around her also smiled from ear to ear.

After the divorce, her ex-husband moved out of her house and her mother died of cancer. She still lives in her small yard, mowing grass, feeding chickens, killing fish and writing poems. ...