Alcohol girl

Everyone is an island, and no island can be connected.

Loneliness is eternal, and it is a kind of courage and state that continues to exist.

She got dressed and tied her ponytail. I smoked a cigarette and said that short hair would look better. She left without saying a word.

The weather is gloomy and there are traces of rain on the street. I closed the curtains and slept all day. She called me at night.

"Yin, come out and let me show you something."

"hmm? See what? "

"You will know when you see it."

She cut her hair short and looked beautiful, like a different person.

That day was the second day I met Ayi.

But I think I see the future. See you in ponytail.

Ayang loves drinking so much that all her friends call her an alcoholic girl.

This is obviously a malicious joke. But she doesn't care,

Every time I drink too much, I will show a perfect smile, which is the perfect kind.

During those years with her, I got drunk almost two or three times a week.

I asked her why she always drinks and is always drunk.

She said because she wanted to wake up.

This sentence touched me inexplicably and made people feel distressed.

A person who wants to sober up with alcohol must be lonely and missing inside.

She brushed her hair behind her ears with her fingers and squeezed out a wry smile.

A beautiful day is like a kite blown by the wind. No matter how far or how high you fly, there is always a time to close the line. If you continue to fly willfully, sooner or later you will break the line and fall into the world. The world is the best punishment. In her concept, the only difference between human and hell is that the evil of hell is sincere, while human is a gentle ghost, and human is a lonely and cold hell. There is bright loneliness everywhere. There is nowhere to hide. As soon as it got dark, the lights came on again.

"Let's get married." She stared at the moon.

"Good" I stared at the moon and looked at her.

"Now?"

"Tomorrow, it's closed now, I can't do it."

"Yes, people are like this. There are always things that are impossible. "

"Just open the door tomorrow." I said to her.

"Tomorrow is too far away." She said to the moon.

I sometimes feel that everything she says is drunk. With the child's willfulness and desperate stubbornness. But those drunken words are so beautiful and so powerless. Every time she gets drunk, she goes to the barber's to trim the split ends of her hair, and her head is crooked, leaving the barber helpless. She had short hair for three years, and I liked her for three years.

If time is to finish the wine sooner or later, when can we get drunk, or we have never been sober. But if one day the wine runs out and some people have never drunk it because they are born with too much alcohol, then this life is full of resentment.

She drank the right amount of wine, got drunk again and again, and smiled more beautifully again and again.

I took her to meet my family. She is not the kind of person who will please her parents and take the initiative to clean up the dishes. Her parents were lukewarm to her and didn't take the initiative to mention anything. But grandma likes her very much. Said she was a very nice girl.

I told her that grandma liked her very much. And she exposed the truth in one sentence. In fact, your parents don't like me very much.

I tried to make it up at once, but I gave up. I don't want to lie to her, and I never think she can't hear the truth.

"I want to lick your balls." Before her voice fell, the guests in the steakhouse gave a meaningful look. I buried my head, picked up the half-cooked yellow eggs in the set meal with a fork and sent them to her plate.

"Your eggs are just better than mine!" Say that finish can't wait to suck a mouthful of shaking egg yolk.

She looked at me with satisfaction and giggled.

The audience withdrew their eyes in disappointment and returned to the food in front of them.

"You did it on purpose!" I whispered.

"No way, don't drink, it's too boring." She fiddled with the straw in a glass full of juice.

"Do you want it? I'll order now. " I raised my hand in the direction of the waiter.

"Goodbye," she said, pressing my gesture. "Give up."

"What?" I asked.

"Quit drinking"

"Why?"

"Is it not good to give up drinking?"

"Good is good, but why did you suddenly give up drinking?"

"The fortune teller said that I would die on wine in my life, and I would give up drinking unless I met a noble person one day. I guess I may have met it. "

"Met? Noble? "

"Yes, I think you are a noble, my noble."

After that day, we began to live like lovers. Every day after work, she began to buy food and cook, and I collected clothes and read books on the balcony. She said, in fact, eating, drinking, making noise, life has passed, there is no absolute pain, but there is always some depression. As long as you have a companion, you are lucky.

"Small alcohol quit drinking?" Lin Tie said.

"Yes," I said.

"It can't be pregnant!"

"How is that possible? How could you not tell me you were pregnant? "

"Then why do you suddenly want to give up drinking? This is to be good! " Lin Tie said as he swept the kebab into his mouth.

I suddenly smashed all the beer left in the cup into Lin Tie's face, and the word "good" was extremely harsh. He panicked for a few seconds, glared at me and quieted down again. I know in my heart that in the eyes of many people, Al is not a good girl under secular standards.

Although she has changed careers, everything on the night we met is still vivid and vivid.

That night in Tiandu, it was the biggest night show in the city center.

"Yin about 24 years old birthday tonight, be sure to let him evolve into an adult! He has been in single dog for 24 years! It can't go on like this, everyone says no! " Li Yunxiang squeezed out a show-off expression and wiped her lower lip with the tip of her ring finger.

Meiji was sitting in the corner of the sofa with Fei Da drinking wine. He smiled at me and said it was difficult to end the scene. Lin Tie crossed the fat bean leaning on the sofa and shaking WeChat, and suddenly hooked me and said, "Yin Yue and Li Yunxiang are so active, don't be prude. If you're straight, go straight to the sky tonight. If you bend, you are not allowed to sleep with your buddies in the future! "

Fat bean came back and said, "Yes, yes!" " Still shaking happily in his hand.

Fei Da also said, "Yes, yes!"

Li Yunxiang is a famous butcher in this department. On the one hand, she never accepts the pursuit of boys. On the other hand, she always talks about girls and tells us dirty jokes. So in the first three years of college, everyone thought she was a T. Until the Mid-Autumn Festival, we got together to have a drink and play truth or dare. I was drunk and swept the world and asked a question, "Yun Xiang, are you T? To tell the truth, we are all friends and don't laugh at you! "

She lowered her eyes, froze for five seconds, looked up and asked, "What is T?"

This time it was our turn to be shocked, so we spent another five seconds giving her science. What's a t?

She shook her head at once.

"Then why don't you always accept boys who chase you?" Lin Tie asked.

"I don't like any of them," she said with innocent eyes.

"So what do you like? We will introduce you! " Meiji said.

"Like my father!" Li Yunxiang's eyes are still naive.

"Love your father, it is helpless. Everyone in the school is in their twenties. Who can be like your father! " Lin Tie shrugged.

"Yes, Yin is quite like, he looks old! Ha ha, "Li Yunxiang said with a smile covering his face.

This time, everyone's mouth was full of smiles. Actually, it was a joke, but that's what I like about this thing. Can't stand a few words, can't stand three transgressions and five times. Li Yunxiang is getting serious. With long hair and a long skirt, she changed the role of a man-woman and a girl punk.

Li Yunxiang sang Cai Minyou's I Can, and Fat Dou Lin Tiedafei began to hiss. Meiji pushed me away and whispered a few words in my ear, saying that it was his. He had an idea. Li Yunxiang once again showed an innocent expression and slowly walked towards me. At this time, someone pushed the door and came in a row of women with short skirts and low chests, all posing first and then putting on professional smiles. Meiji stood up, pushed his glasses and said, "Yin Yue, I got all your instructions. The tip is on me. Pick a birthday present! "

Li Yunxiang paused for five seconds. "Yin Yue, you rogue bastard!"

Meiji and I smiled at each other and made a disgusting face. Li Yunxiang ran away, Meiji stood up, took out two tickets, gave them to Mother Sang, and told the girls to leave. Mother sang hung a trademark smile on her face and waved her hand to call it a day. There is only one girl who won't leave, and that is Ayang.

"Why don't you go!" Meiji asked.

"I'm here to sell wine, not to show off." Another said.

That night, she wore a ponytail and almost no makeup except lipstick. She looked carefully and found that she was not wearing a short skirt, but denim shorts.

"Punch holes, spin bottles, roll dice and count to seven." Another speaker, Chang, leaned down and opened all the wine.

To tell the truth, as a newcomer, no one has ever seen such a battle. That night, we were completely wiped out. Later, Zhiming said that if I had known that I would spend so much money and drink so much wine, I might as well call a backup singer and have fun!

It was Ayi who carried me home that night. I still don't know how she did it herself or how she got the address from me.

"Don't do this in the future!" I woke up in bed and rubbed my temples.

"I hate you for persuading people to be good afterwards!" The other half said with his eyes open.

"What happened later? I didn't do anything! " I said.

"Yes, otherwise you think you can still live to talk to me!" Another said.

"Why did you go to the night show to accompany the wine!" I asked.

"I'm selling, not accompanying," she said disapprovingly.

I froze for five seconds.

"I'm going to sell wine, not a hostess, what are you thinking! She added.

"Is there a difference?"

"The difference is big, I just work part-time there every night, sell enough wine and get off work. Just like last night, after you bought the wine in my hand, I got off work! "

I took a crumpled cigarette out of my pocket and lit it, ready to change the topic that might make her uncomfortable. "Your short hair will look better!"

She didn't speak, picked up my mobile phone and entered a series of numbers.

Then her phone rang. She packed her things and left soon.

I was so drunk that I closed the curtains and slept all day.

She called me at night.

"Yin, come out and let me show you something."

"hmm? See what? "

"You will know when you see it."

She cut her hair short and looked beautiful, like a different person.

That day was the second day I met Ayi.

But I think I see the future. See you in ponytail.

I didn't know until a long time later that the reason why she dared to sell wine at the night show so arrogantly was because this ktv was opened by Yang Fengchi, a famous boss in this city. It is said that most ktv and electronic entertainment centers in the city center have his shares. This Yang Fengchi is Ayang's stepfather. She said that her biological father committed suicide when she was very young because she owed a huge loan shark. Later, her mother remarried to Yang Fengchi. Eight years ago, her mother had an accident on the highway because of drunk driving, and the rescue was ineffective. At the age of 65,438+06, Ayi refused to take another penny from Yang Fengchi and secretly went to the night market as a beer girl. It didn't take long for Yang Fengchi's friends to find out, but Yang Fengchi had to let her sell wine on her own turf to make money. Yang Fengchi is not bad. He often arranges friends to pretend to be guests, and buys the wine in Grandpa's hand at once, which is nothing more than giving her living expenses. Later, Ayang came of age, and Yang Fengchi followed her. But that's how the name of another alcoholic girl got planted.

Thought of here, I feel a little too sensitive, I handed a paper towel to Lin Tie.

I went home with inexplicable suspense.

"Let's get married." She suddenly said.

"Are you pregnant?"

"You won't marry me if I'm not pregnant?"

"No, then why did you suddenly give up drinking?"

"Because I want to get married."

"Why do you suddenly want to get married?"

"Because I met you, a noble man."

She always makes every sentence as light as a joke, but she can't ignore it.

We agreed to register the day after tomorrow and go home separately to get the household registration book tomorrow.

Before going to bed, she lay in bed and put out the cigarette I just lit.

"Do you like children?" She leaned down and supported her head with her right hand.

"Well, with children, you won't be too lonely when you are old." I looked at the ceiling.

"Loneliness is forever." She buried her head in the pillow.

"Go to sleep." I noticed that she looked sleepy.

"The day after tomorrow ..."

"Will the Civil Affairs Bureau go or not?"

The day after tomorrow, I never came again.

She never came again. She disappeared the day after tomorrow.

Took away my tomorrow.

She changed all her contact information.

At first I thought it was just a little prank,

Two days later, I started to get angry,

Then I was anxious, and she just disappeared.

Not long after, Yunxiang came to tell me that she had left the city and had a new lover. She lied to me from beginning to end. Yang Fengchi is not her stepfather at all. She has been a late drinking girl from beginning to end. I froze for a long time, Yunxiang didn't say anything, and I didn't dare to ask again.

After half a month, I began to move. I can't live in this place with too many memories.

I'm like an old dress covered with ink and grease. I can't clean it in the drum washing machine in my memory.

I saw a medical report when I was cleaning the room.

Long-term excessive drinking leads to ovarian atrophy and infertility'

The conversation that night suddenly appeared in my mind.

"Do you like children?"

"Well, with children, you won't be too lonely when you are old."

"Loneliness is forever"

"Go to sleep."

I lit a cigarette and spit it out in this empty room.

How much I want to answer her in front of her, I don't want to be your noble, I just want to be your reward. Waiting for your return, waiting for someone to tell me that this story is not just a game. Later, Zhiming said that he had seen her in Qingdao and was following a group of grotesque men and women in the bar. Lin Tie explained that treating myopia so deeply must be his mistake.

On Yunxiang's birthday the next year, she cut her hair short and put on pants.

She raised her glass and said that she had been an alcoholic girl ever since.

Fat bean teases, don't be ridiculous, you can have a few drinks, and the wine girl will kill you.

Lin Tie is still outspoken, that is! I'm a professional drinker!

Meiji pushed his glasses and then pushed me, indicating that he was not too serious about Lin Tie. That is his virtue.

I just smiled and didn't speak.

Yunxiang stood up and said:

My mother said that when I was born, I weighed nine pounds and two ounces.

That's why I'm a veritable nine-pound girl!

I don't know why I remembered what Ayan said at that moment.

Everyone is an island, and no island can be connected.

Loneliness is eternal, and it is a kind of courage and state that continues to exist.

I may be a little drunk, shouting "auld lang syne."