Have you calculated your fate?

I am a treacherous person myself. Although I can't say that I am a pure materialist whose fate is not determined by heaven, I still have a certain sense of awe in things like gods, but I still feel foggy and uncertain about my fate. I used to tell fortune everywhere out of curiosity, which was only a little spiritual comfort, but after some experience, I began to believe in fate.

In these decades, I have calculated my life and prayed to God for two things. One is learning, or fame, and the other is marriage. During the senior high school entrance examination, because of some personal and family reasons, the grades dropped all the way, and the learning state was very unstable. At that time, I even doubted whether I could be admitted to a key high school, and then I prayed. As a result, my final grade was unexpectedly excellent. When it came to the college entrance examination, I chose to pray again in order to take off again, but the final result was not as ideal as expected. I was depressed for a while, too. As a result, just a few days ago, when I was sorting out old papers, I accidentally found the results of various mock exams before the college entrance examination. Because it was reported directly to my parents, I was so confident that I never took the result seriously. I found that my score at that time was even two-tenths lower than the real score of the college entrance examination. Our year was the most difficult in the past three or four years. I made a lot of progress in the year when others' grades dropped sharply. Since then, I believe in this life more.

The other is marriage. When I was young, my blood was strong. I always fantasize about what my partner will be like. Later, fortune telling has always been getting married. I tried many algorithms and was told that I was very popular with women in my life, but it was difficult to find a real lover when I was young. At that time, I was noncommittal about it. After all, in terms of looks, I can say that there is no advantage. I have a flat nose, small eyes and thick lips. I'm not tall and I'm quite fat. My personality is more Buddhist. It is not an exaggeration to say that I am a chubby family. But strangely, for so many years, most of them are female friends. Every time they go to a new environment, they are always the easiest to get the favor of the opposite sex. Some friends even teased me that "you seem to have a passive skill, and girls will automatically like you." But after two failed relationships, I am no longer so eager for true love. Perhaps it is fate, and the important person is still in the future.

Life is a mysterious thing. No one can really grasp its trend. There are many fortune-telling methods, such as horoscope, astrolabe, five elements and so on, but it is very important that people's fate is not static, just like palm reading changes with age. What we have to do is to improve ourselves and enrich ourselves. Only when we are truly excellent will those good fates be with you.