My first time was that he deliberately broke the hymen with his hands and part of the vulva, but there was no sexual relationship in the strict sense. What if you regret it?

In any case, since it has caused such a result, as an adult, we must have the courage to bear it. Everyone has a past, and I believe that those who really love you will forgive and tolerate you. After all, there are too many virgins in society now. Be sure to adjust your mentality and look back at yourself after 5 years. 10 years. Maybe nothing.