Red dust, dark eyes, broken strings; Years are long, half drunk and half drunk, and the water is weak. what's the meaning

Beyond prosperity, I am at peace with the world. I drank a glass of sake, and the light in my eyes gradually faded. My worry made me accidentally pull a string. In the long river of years, half dream and half awake, half drunk and half awake, with a trance, the stream flows slowly.

According to my understanding, I think what I love is a feeling of missing him (her).