What's the experience of being a handsome guy with poor parents?

I never asked for pocket money, never had a birthday party, drank milk tea for the first time in high school, watched movies for the first time after graduating from high school, and ate fruit for the first time at KFC University. In fact, there are many people like me in third-and fourth-tier cities. In high school, I never drank. I like playing basketball. Every time I come back, there are more chocolates and drinks on the table. When I sent it back, I felt like crying, but I had to share it with my deskmate. When I was in college, a sister took a taxi to our school for tens of dollars and gave me a cake specially. Cake without cream is particularly soft and melts in the mouth. It's hard to say what to call it. I used to eat only egg cakes with special dry steamed bread at home. At that time, I felt that there was such a delicious cake for the first time! I decisively shared it with the whole class and showed them the world. It was my sister who took me to eat steak for the first time. She had already paid the money (covering her face). I can't eat steak well, so I sit there fidgeting for fear of exposing my rustic features. It seems that I am tall, handsome and neatly dressed. I should have gone in and out there without feeling disobedient, but in fact I don't belong there. I prefer and am more used to squatting on the side of the road to eat barbecue. "Unworthy" and "Disappointment" are two key emotional problems. Therefore, even if I fall in love, I will be very tired and cautious. I am also afraid of being hurt, so I have developed a habit of "never take love too seriously". Someone in Zhihu once said, "People who feel inferior don't deserve love." So, find a boyfriend instead of me.