What was Xu Zhimo's childhood like?

A boat full of bright moon rises from Xu Zhimo's fragrant nest.

Tall and far

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Haining, Zhejiang and Shi Xia ancient towns are the hometown of poet Xu Zhimo.

There are two former residences of Xu Zhimo in Haining. One is Xu's old house, and the other is Xu Zhimo's new home. Xu Zhimo's old house was demolished two years ago because of disrepair. Friends say it's a deep house compound with four entrances and two floors, which is located in Baoning Square, Shixia. Xu Zhimo once attended a private school, attended classes, studied ancient Chinese literature and calligraphy here, and spent his childhood and adolescence.

What we are going to visit now is a small building with a combination of Chinese and western styles built by Xu Zhimo's father, Xu Shenru, when he married Lu Xiaoman, and it is called "Qingyuan Pavilion". Xu Zhimo loved this house deeply and gave it a romantic name called "Xiangchao".

Qingyuan Pavilion was built at 1926. The exterior of the building is piled with blue bricks and covered with gray tiles. The main entrance imitates the style of European architecture. There are two high walls above the door. There is a red brick line around Qingyuan Pavilion. At the gate, Mr. Jin Yong wrote the words "Former Residence of Poet Xu Zhimo" in calligraphy. At the bottom of the plaque, there was an inscription "Uncle Jin Yong".

Jin Yong and Xu Zhimo are cousins. A few years ago, Mr. Jin went back to his hometown to visit relatives, and specially wrote this banner for Xu Zhimo's former residence, which revealed the secrets of two relatives for the first time.

Opposite the gate of Qingyuan Pavilion, there is a banner of "Former Residence of Xu Zhimo" written by the famous red scientist Mr. Feng Qiyong. Because it is hidden among the red flowers and green grass, few people notice it. The decoration and layout in Qingyuan Pavilion were purchased and designed by the poet himself. There are red western-style furniture, western-style fireplace, copper bed, rattan chair, desk and dressing table in the room, which reveals the romantic atmosphere of the poet everywhere.

The hall inside has now been changed into a place to introduce the poet's life and literary activities. In the middle of the room, there is a book by Mr. Qi Gong, An Ya Tang, and a plaque by Mo Bao in Cang Kejia. The information in the museum tells people about Xu Zhimo's life from childhood to middle age when he was unfortunately killed by a plane near Dangjiazhuang, Jinan.

There are two most striking exhibits in the exhibition hall: one is Xu Zhimo's report on the death of Dangjiazhuang in Jinan, which shocked the literary and art circles in China. The other is a marriage witness written by Liang Qichao for Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman when they got married.

It reads between the lines: "Shima Xiaoman has been there, and I hope I won't be a porter again. Xu Zhimo, you are impetuous, so you have no achievements in your studies. You are a man who is not devoted to feelings, even divorced and remarried ... Lu Xiaoman, you should be serious, you should do your duty as a woman, and you can't interfere with Xu Zhimo's future career ... You are all experienced people and remarried after divorce. You are all devoted to your feelings, so you should repent and turn over a new leaf in the future. May this be your last marriage! "

Great changes have taken place. Looking at this wedding witness now, I feel that in addition to the majestic shadow of the old teacher's road, it seems that I can also touch the difficulties and hardships of Xu Helu breaking through layers of resistance and finally "all shall be well, jack shall have Jill".

On the second floor of Qingyuan Pavilion, there are Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman's new house and bathroom, as well as the bedroom of Xu Zhimo's parents and Xu Zhimo's ex-wife Zhang Youyi (who has been adopted as stepdaughter by Xu Zhimo's parents). In the middle of the building hangs the words "Qingyuan Pavilion" inscribed by Xu Zhimo's friend Liu Haisu and specially invited by Kang Youwei.

There is also a large terrace on the roof of the second floor, which was designed and built by the poet himself and named "Moon Watching Platform". Xu Zhimo often comes here to comment on the stars and the moon and write poems. Standing on the second floor and looking down, you can see a small well behind the building. Xu Zhimo once left a well-known poem here: "Mei, who will not wash this clear spring?" If you don't quench your thirst, who will quench it; Who will come if you don't come! This bubbling well water once reflected the poet's "strong passion" and witnessed the "quiet and happy" beautiful years of Xu and Lu.

The marriage between Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman is full of twists and turns. Their marriage was "at odds with their father and offended the society" and they were not happy after marriage. Lu Xiaoman came to Shanghai from Beijing and caused a sensation in the society. Lu Xiaoman is good at pursuing enjoyment, such as boating, driving, growing flowers, gambling and playing with tickets ... all of which are exquisite. Xu Zhimo writes books and teaches, with a monthly income of nearly 1,000 yuan, which can't meet all aspects of consumption in Lu Xiaoman. Lu Xiaoman later smoked opium. She originally wanted to treat neurasthenia with marijuana, but her smoking intensified and she became a prisoner of opium.

Xu Zhimo is kind by nature, so he works harder. Lu Xiaoman loves the ticket theater, and so does Xu Zhimo. He often makes guest appearances on the stage, playing Lu Xiaoman in Beijing dialect with Shi Xia local accent. It is said that there was a performance in the Beijing Opera "Third Trial", in which Lu Xiaoman played Su San and Xu Zhimo played the blue-robed jury. It was Weng who became Lu Xiaoman's later husband and played Du Tian's adult.

Xu Zhimo ran around to make a living, and Lu Xiaoman also sneaked into Chencang with "Saburo" Weng Wurui. Lu Xiaoman's empathy made Xu Zhimo very sad. In life, in order to increase his income, Xu Zhimo accepted a part-time job at Peking University and traveled between Beijing and Shanghai, which laid the groundwork for his death. Spiritually, Xu Zhimo gradually felt the disillusionment of his love dream, but he also said to others: "Wu Rui is not a good person, I want to protect her well."

Under the double pressure of life and spirit, Xu Zhimo gradually fell into an extremely painful situation. For this reason, he once expressed the resentment that "it is difficult for a poet to be down and out" and once said, "I have tasted lotus plumule, and my heart is more bitter than lotus plumule; Heart palpitations at night, lingering nightmares. Who knows my pain? You hurt me, love, how can I live this life? " The heart should sigh.

However, Xu Zhimo still thinks that his love is "just a soft heart, not mine!" I still hold you tight. Unless it is the sky-but who can imagine that day? "This seems to answer the philosophical saying that" character determines fate ". "Who can imagine" that day, the poet Xu Zhimo died in a plane crash in Dangjiazhuang, Jinan.

It is said that when people found Xu Zhimo's residual body, his head was punched with a big hole and his hands and feet were burned as black as coke. Xu Zhimo, a gifted scholar, met with an accident and died so miserably.

Walking out of Xu Zhimo's former residence, looking back, people die tall, and the small building has gone through more than 70 spring and autumn periods. The poet's romantic feelings and gentle sentiments are fixed in this fragrant nest that combines Chinese and western. For the afterlife, the poet once said, "Follow my finger ... and go to the ideal heaven-love, joy, freedom, farewell to the world forever!"

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Xu Zhimo's cemetery is located in Xishan, Haining.

Leaving Xu Zhimo's former residence to go to Xishan Tomb, winding all the way, the cemetery is very close to Shanghai-Hangzhou Railway. It is said that the earliest railway in Shi Xia was built by Xu Zhimo's father. Xu Zhimo's cemetery was originally located in Wanshiwo, Agate Valley, Dongshan, and Hu Shizhi wrote the inscription "The Tomb of the Poet Xu Zhimo". Xu Shen, Xu Zhimo's old father, always thinks that these seven words are too concise and lack the things of the poet's son.

The old man has experienced many twists and turns. Please go to Ling Shuhua, Xu Zhimo's confidante, who was known as a talented woman of a noble family, and ask her to write an inscription for Xu Zhimo again. Ling Shuhua readily agreed that her inscription was taken from Cao Xueqin's meaning of "Leng Yue buried the soul of flowers" and transformed into "Leng Yue reflected the soul of poetry".

The inscription is the poet's bosom friend, full of poetry and painting, and the old gentleman finally wholeheartedly. After the tombstone is carved, it is slightly smaller than the old tombstone mentioned by Mr. Hu Shizhi. Ling Shuhua's tablet and Hu Shi's tablet are undoubtedly the treasures of the literary world. It's a pity that all these have disappeared now.

In the early years, there was a rumor in rural Shi Xia that "Xu Zhimo's head was made of gold", so someone dug up the cemetery to find Xu Zhimo's "golden head" and abandoned his bones in the wilderness. As a result, the gold was nowhere to be found, and the tombstone was moved to build a pigsty. Maybe it's God's will. There is such a sentence in Xu Zhimo's famous sentence "I have a love": "I have a broken soul, like a pile of broken crystals, scattered in the grass in the wilderness." The poet's occasional sentence turned into a one-sentence prophecy. Reading these poems now will make people feel bleak and cold.

Xu Zhimo's cemetery in Dongshan, because the tomb has long been damaged, his hometown people moved Xu Zhimo's cemetery to Baishui Spring at the northern foot of Xishan with government funds to commemorate it. Xu Zhimo's cousin, a famous architect, and Professor Chen Congzhou of Tongji University designed and wrote The Moving Tomb.

The Xishan cemetery is classical and elegant, with white stones on the floor, bluestone as the steps, and a semi-circular tomb platform like a crescent moon, which means "crescent moon school" in the poem. Tombstone vicissitudes of life, Haining calligrapher and former president of Xiling Printing Society, Mr. Zhang Zongxiang added an inscription according to the original text of Hu Shizhi. On both sides of the tombstone is a book-shaped sculpture made of white stone, engraved with famous sentences such as Xu Zhimo's Farewell to Cambridge.

When Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman were newly married, they visited the Western Hills, boarded the Wei Ziting, made love and entertained themselves. So the poet intends to live in seclusion in Shi Xia. He said, "Shi Xia has at least crabs and red leaves, which is enough to help poetry flourish and not envy the world."

I stood in front of Xu Zhimo's tomb, with fallen leaves drifting far away, a first-class secluded stream, and the poet buried in the white water of his hometown. The poet's soul sang "the most beautiful poem" together with the spring breeze in his hometown, which is the prelude to "The Sound of Spring".

Poets like spring, perhaps because spring is like a girl. Xu Zhimo has a delicate feeling for spring. His subtle and humorous poem "Spring" said: "The grasshopper crawled on Hua Qian's chest, and Hua Qian kept shaking his head in shame. Suddenly, a tender hand stretched out from the grass and hugged Meng Lang's jumping bug. " Cleverly blending the girl's feelings in spring is the poet's most emotional confession of ideal love.

People say that Xu Zhimo is a master of love poems, while others say that his poems are too "sweet". In fact, Xu Zhimo's poems also describe the indignation and helplessness of the people at the bottom of society. Look at the dialogue between "I" and the driver in his poem "Who knows": "Driver, why is this road so dark?" "Not Sir? This road is really-really dark! " The simple and ingenious dialogue between the characters in the poem tells the rough road of people's lives and the darkness of the world at that time.

For life, Xu Zhimo has another explanation, that is, "like a mournful wind, like a sad rain, like a fallen flower." For the ultimate ideal of emotional pursuit, Xu Zhimo wrote: "Blow out your light, she is waiting on the other side of the grave, waiting for you to kiss, waiting for you to kiss, waiting for you to kiss!" Lonely and tragic, it is sad and beautiful, and even has a cold taste.

Xu Zhimo grew up in a rich family, which is exactly the old saying that "love can only grow in a rich family". Xu Zhimo is a natural beauty lover. He was lucky enough to be born in a rich family, and he could be "infinitely gentle" in his "small courtyard". Let's imagine that if Xu Zhimo was born in a poor family, then no matter how romantic and affectionate he is, the poor family can't afford it.

Xu Zhimo fell to the ground like a meteor in the sky. He created eternal literary works with his short life. China's poetry circles can thank the childlike innocence bred in the warm greenhouse; Fortunately, in that turbulent era, there is still a clear spring of sincere feelings flowing in the world.

In Xu Zhimo's poems, there are talents, love, true feelings, worldly feelings, infinite affection and romantic feelings. Xu Zhimo's style of "light writing" (Lu Xun's language) always contains the romantic feelings he pursued all his life. Xu Zhimo's love with Lin, Ling Shuhua's acquaintance and Xu Xiaoman's love are all revealed by calligraphy and true feelings. This is not easy in the old days when the old is alternating with the new.

Xu Zhimo praised the true feelings of the world, the true love of the world. He is an anomaly in China's literary world and a wonderful flower in China's poetic world. Xu Zhimo melts and casts the connotation of poetry in the form of poetry.

The soul of poetry revolves around Shuang Shan, while Leng Yue is empty. More than 70 years later, Xu Zhimo's romantic fluorescence still shines on the land of Europe. The translation of the poet Champs Elysé es, Fontainebleau is still popular among Chinese in Europe. Xu Zhimo's romantic and legendary life reflects a rainbow on earth.

"I left quietly, just as I came quietly; I waved my sleeves without taking away a cloud. "

Xu Zhimo, a 35-year-old poet, left a long poem to the world.