I deserve to die. Nobody loves me. Everyone who sees me hides from my parents and treats me like a fool. There's nothing.

Don't think like that. There are all parents in the world, and there are no parents who don't care about their children. There may be some misunderstanding. It's a good thing to clear up misunderstandings. Correct your attitude first, and then communicate with your parents. In addition, when everyone thinks you have a problem, you really should look at yourself more and cultivate yourself more, and you will get better and better one day.