You have to work hard in silence and then climb to the top quietly.

? Recently, I saw this sentence in Tik Tok:

? You should work hard silently, and then climb to the top silently.

? This sentence touched my heart very much. Everyone has to go through a period of silence, which is called taking root. I have also been rooted, but also constantly wandering and hesitating, tangled and painful. Looking back at this road, although I didn't give up my original intention, it seems that every step is a bit slow and sloppy. Although it has taken root, it is always not strong enough or deep enough. After having children, I realized more deeply the lack and singleness of my knowledge structure, the shallowness of my cultural accomplishment and the limitations of knowing the world. It seems hard, but it seems that these efforts are not enough to change their current situation and support themselves to a new level. Of course, every effort you make will not be in vain, which is commendable. )

? So, learn from the bitter experience, start a new journey and embark on a new road. I started reading the postgraduate entrance examination book and prepared to take the non-LLM exam. To fill the gap in my college career and make up for my inner regrets. This is probably the tenth day of my study. Today, I finished reading the History of Chinese Legal System for the first time. Although I haven't memorized any knowledge points, I seem to have a general outline of the development and formation of laws in the history of China, and have more new understandings. This is probably progress. Today, I began to study constitutional law, and I was in a daze, because everything with the word "study" is theoretical knowledge, which is not easy to understand, so I can only work hard slowly. Now I feel that it is better to pay than to be eliminated by society in the same place, and I always have to force myself.

? I chose to write this decision online because I wanted to have a platform to monitor myself, but I didn't want to post it on WeChat or Tik Tok. I want to work hard silently, find a corner to enjoy silently and record my efforts.

? Up to now, I don't know whether it makes sense to make this decision or whether I can change anything. I can only "do good deeds and the future of Mo Wen". I don't know how to go in the future, whether it is realistic to take my children to take the postgraduate entrance examination, whether it is possible to balance the relationship between the two while working, and whether I can change my current situation after the postgraduate entrance examination. These are all unknowns, but I think reading and studying is not as good as playing games and playing Tik Tok to keep people awake.

? Anyway, it's the worst, so there must be surprises at every step. I hope you can be top notch and don't be intimidated by difficulties.

? Let's go