Do you really know yourself?

The "self" is invisible. Only when you hit something else and bounce back, will you understand yourself. Therefore, it is self to collide with something very strong, terrible and high standard, and then know what you are.

? -yohji yamamoto

? 1. I used to be introverted and didn't want to say more. I feel embarrassed to appear in front of many people. I will feel uncomfortable all over, afraid to do something that makes others think I am stupid and ridiculous. I live in my own world and paint the ground as a prison. In the eyes of teachers, they are obedient good students, but in the eyes of parents, they are girls who do not show rebellion. Gradually, I also feel that "introversion" is my own label. Always a silent look.

I gradually get lost in such labels ... sometimes when people are discussing problems or holding activities, I have a natural sense of silence Well, because everyone thinks I'm introverted, I should also show this ...? I thought I knew myself well by this time, didn't I? I was wrong. ?

Now I can try my best to teach in front of many teachers, play games with many children, communicate with strangers without fear, etc ... It seems that I can change slowly with such efforts, maybe I am not introverted.

2. I, Pisces, vividly expressed the constellation characteristics of "love fantasy". I always fantasize that all kinds of beautiful things will happen, thinking that I will meet my knight like the heroine in the TV series in the next second. Thought everything would have a happy ending. So this habit gradually makes me pretend to be lofty, hate the world, and wish my life was only romantic. This also made me seem to have lost some friendships in my high school life. At this time, I really don't know what kind of person I am At that time, I kind of hated myself. I feel uncertain, unpredictable and inexplicable, and I don't know where I come from. I always regret my decision. I was hesitant and timid at that time.

? I can't be proud of my loneliness anymore.

? I finally stayed in college for a year and left home. No domestic harassment. A person's life, I also slowly feel the difficulty of life, in the process of part-time, I realized the hard work of making money. Always wondering what to eat next. When is the laundry scheduled? When everything is solved one by one. I suddenly found that life is so real, reality is reality, and I gradually got out of my fantasy world. Suddenly want to celebrate every ordinary day after work ...? When I came home after a year in college, I felt that I was strong enough to be independent ... When my family was sick and people close to me sometimes quarreled badly, I found myself at a loss and helpless. I blame myself for my blank mind. When I get excited, my heart beats faster and my whole body goes soft. I blame myself why my nose is sour and I want to cry every time I want to argue with others. This weakness makes me feel embarrassed. It turns out that I'm not as good as I thought.

? The word' self' seems really invisible. Kind and gentle people will also show their crazy side when they touch the bottom line. No matter how indifferent people are, there are moments when they are warmed by something, thus showing enthusiasm. I found that I couldn't define myself at all. People also grow and change through various experiences. When you encounter something, you may show your true self. However, as long as I have the heart, I believe I can improve myself step by step. Maybe next time? What happens, my heart will still be pounding and nervous, but I will try to calm down? There is a firm voice inside. Yes, I can. Always gentle, always know how to advance and retreat.