Growing old begins with liking pink thinking.

Since childhood, I like dark blue, deep to black, and a little demon purple, which is my favorite color. This color has always been my favorite until I graduated from high school. So at that time, I hated pink, big red, all colors related to pink and tender red. At that time, I hated big red roses and could only send blue enchantress flowers. At that time, I thought I was cool and hated girls' dressing. I never had a skirt, a pair of high heels, only pants? Sympathize with deep blue? Black, all kinds of men's crosses, necklaces and rings, is also the time when I began to like collecting jewelry, so many that I can't fit in several drawers.

At that time, all my good friends called me brother and looked like a man. I always wanted to cut my hair short and dye it as cool as dark blue, but these ideas could only exist in my mind because of the strict family education. At that time, I liked being a big brother and taking it out on my friends. On one occasion, my girlfriend and boyfriend were in conflict. In order to make her boyfriend jealous, she bought a hat and stuffed her hair in it. She wore sunglasses and hugged her girlfriend for dinner, thinking that she pretended to be very good. She didn't want her boyfriend to tell me later that I was a girl, but she was embarrassed to expose us at the moment. Later it was called embarrassment. Now that I think about it, so many young people really disappeared in the blink of an eye in the hot summer after the college entrance examination.

Later, I went to college, and the only requirement was that I must be from other places. I really don't want to stay in Shanghai, I don't want to be under the jurisdiction of my parents, or I feel that I have really entered the world of adults. I just wanted to say goodbye to my naive self, so I gradually began to change my dress, skirt and high heels. That's when I fell in love with high heels. It seems that the title of high cold was also obtained at that time. At that time, I liked the feeling of overlooking the world, and it was also at that time that I learned the ability of 13 cm high heels to run wildly in the student union. Oh, I forgot to mention that I am quite tall, and with 13 cm high heels, it is probably 185, but people in Wuhan are really not tall, which will give me a feeling of overlooking all beings.

And that big red, it must be positive, and I was in love at that time. At that time, I fell in love with red roses with thorns, so the colors of all kinds of clothes began to turn red, just like roses. I loved red then? It's getting dark, and all the walls in the dormitory are covered with big red wallpaper. At that time, I still liked the cross as always. Oh, by the way, I also liked Goth, all kinds of ghosts and gods, and Tarot divination, so I went my own way, so I cut out all kinds of crosses with black wallpaper and stuck them on the big red wall. At that time, other students came to our dormitory and thought I was a little abnormal. It's true that this arrangement looks a little scary and gloomy, but I just like it. When I was a child, my parents didn't use the computer to watch movies, but only read ghost stories, suspense, thrillers and reasoning books. When I was in college, I began to watch all kinds of ghost films without my parents' jurisdiction, and at that time, I watched all kinds of ghost films in Japan, South Korea, Thailand, Europe, America, Britain, France and Germany at one time. I even close the curtains in my bedroom, deliberately creating that atmosphere, and occasionally pulling my roommates to exercise together. . .

At that time, what remained unchanged was my indifferent attitude towards people close to acquaintances and my attitude of being a big brother (well, I admit, it hasn't changed yet), so my roommates also learned to call me brother from my high school friends. Although the dress at that time has become a woman, it seems that such a name can keep me away from the cleanliness of the past. Oh, I forgot to mention that I am a nostalgic person, so it's far away, even if it's inconvenient. I went there, too, and they have been calling me that until now. When I went back to Shanghai to meet my high school classmates after graduating from college, the sudden daughter costume really scared them several times, so that I still tease me about it and spit out my tomboy costume in junior and senior high schools. By the way, there are photos, and we will slowly dig into the black history in the future.

That's why I like big red, and I like the spring of 20 16. It may be that the warmth of spring suddenly woke me up, or it may be that I suddenly feel old as the title says. In short, when the green leaves revived that year, I began to like pink and white crazily. The colors I hated since I was a child, even the dolls began to like them. What I hated most when I was a child was that other children clamored for their parents' dolls. I really hated these things since I was a child, so there was nothing in the crib when I was a child, so I didn't get into the habit of sleeping with my doll in my arms. In fact, I always slept by myself until I grew up. Others say it's probably because I'm afraid of loneliness.

When I was a child, I didn't like the children's playground, the carousel. I may want to be an adult. I think it's childish, so I only like to play the exciting roller coaster. Now, although I still like exciting events, I am beginning to like riding the merry-go-round. I miss my childhood, because I know its sad story and chase each other, but I am always separated by sad distance. For example, the distance between you and me is an adult's farewell to childhood and an irreversible fate. However, the Ferris wheel has always been my favorite thing since I was a child. Some things, like it, will last a lifetime. Some of them are very painful, but they will corrode a little like ants eating until they run out of breath. So I like high, high, high, high, high, high since I was a child, as if I could touch your sky like that, as if I were still in your arms like that, as if I were not such a person, as if you were still there.

In fact, I grew up in a very happy family. Up to now, all my friends around me envy my father for loving me more than my mother. Although the family is not particularly rich, life is very comfortable and there is no need to worry about money. I also live up to expectations, and my work, social and personal abilities are all good. It's just that my boyfriend talked and couldn't get married. When I said I didn't want to settle, I was actually waiting for that person, the person who was a child. My best friend said that I am crazy about perfume. You like it so much because you want to get its taste back, but you actually know that its taste is just what you remember, and you can't get it back.

Yes, so even though I grew up in such an enviable family, I still seem to be born lonely. Although my careless and heartless personality has made me many friends, even in the ocean of friends, when everyone is fighting with me, I will suddenly calm down as Jing M. Guo said, and the noise around me will suddenly become far away, as if the world is quiet and I am the only one left, and even my breathing seems to be stagnant. Such inexplicable moments occasionally make me flustered. Because I know what he said too well. My favorite author when I was a child was Jing M.Guo. Even though he had so many negative news, I liked his words.

Holding your hand and growing old with your son, my favorite movie "Notebook" has been watched intermittently for five times in recent years. My favorite feeling is that I secretly took it myself. The figure of white-haired old people snuggling up to each other is the most touching. There's nothing better. What I want in this life is helplessness.

Now I like pink and white, as if I wanted to feel something I didn't experience in my childhood, to find myself who should have been a little girl when I was a child, and to like all the little princesses again, so I asked my father to make a princess room for me at my age.

When I was a child, I hated lace pink bubble sleeves, and all the things related to princesses seemed to be special if I liked myself. If you don't like yourself, you will get lost in the crowd and can't get it back. That's why I run counter to it. It seems that I will be different from other children, so that I can find myself in the crowd and I won't be lonely. In fact, when you grow up, you realize that these inexplicable persistence in childhood will not make you different from others when you grow up. What's different is your heart. Loneliness is due to insecurity.

So I want to catch something from the tail of youth. Maybe when I grow up, I won't even have the chance to be so willful. Growing old starts with liking pink. This sentence does have some truth.

Once the chatterbox is opened, it cannot be closed.

Memories are like turning on the tap and then turning it off.

You can't stop when you step on this road suddenly.

Thoughts on seeing this article forwarded by Xiao Linger/

Dmxt/20 1709 12 am

To youth (be sure to add this background music, in fact, there is a cheerful song: I was in Sarah at that time, which is also very suitable)

Growing old begins with liking (this is the original)

All the pictures in the above text were found on the internet temporarily, and I am not very satisfied. Virgo's obsessive-compulsive disorder ... actually, I took these pictures myself, so I can send them again next time I have time. The funny girl in black and white in the photo below is herself.

I mainly saw this article forwarded by a friend this morning. After reading it, memories came one after another, so I wrote this short article in the WeChat circle of friends, and then a friend recommended me to use this software, so I added some pictures here while I was still interested, and then published it. It feels good, but I'm a little disappointed that I can't add background music.

I am a wordy person, and I especially like to write casually. Someone used to take a fancy to my writing and asked me to write a manuscript. After being constantly urged to contribute, I gave up decisively. I find that I prefer to be casual. If I am framed, it will be complicated and I won't like it, so I'd better write it myself.

Besides ... I'm here to introduce my legitimate career. I am a female engineer in automobile design and engineering development, a pure engineering woman, and I have also studied mechanical design and automation in university. But I just love literature and art. When I was in college, I joined the student union and organized various recreational activities. He often presided over dancing, singing and rehearsing plays, and later served as the vice chairman of the student union. I persisted in these hobbies when I arrived at the company. Therefore, my colleagues always joked that I would rather not do the company entertainment project. I take part in so many activities every year, and the project is in the company 24 hours a day. No wonder I don't have a boyfriend and have no time to fall in love. I just came back from Chongqing Tournament some time ago, and the result was not satisfactory. Forget it, I won't mention it here. Unfamiliar people can't believe that I am a real engineering woman and engineer, and I have always insisted on my own automobile engineering design.

Later, I want to publish many essays and articles I wrote in the past, which is really great for me, who loves writing.

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