If there is an afterlife, what do you want your role to be?

If there is an afterlife, how I wish I were a boy and how I wish I could be my brother. So grandma won't hate me so much.

There has always been a preference for boys over girls in our countryside. My mother gave birth to me just in time for strict family planning. My grandmother saw that I was a girl after I was born, and her face suddenly changed, so she had to send me to her grandmother's house to raise me. I have lived in my grandmother's house for six years, and my grandmother has never visited me once. When I reached school age, my mother took me home. The moment I saw grandma, I called out sweetly "grandma."

I remember once, my mother went to my grandmother's house and couldn't come home to cook for us at noon, so I had to let my brother and I eat with my grandmother. At noon, my grandmother cooked two eggs. I thought my brother and I were alone! But at dinner, grandma peeled both eggs and put them in my brother's bowl. I looked at grandma and then at the eggs. When my brother saw I wanted to eat eggs, he put one in my bowl. At this time, grandma was particularly angry and said, "bitch, what eggs do you eat?" Put the eggs in my brother's bowl quickly, and my brother will grow taller! " It doesn't matter whether girls eat eggs or not. "So I returned the eggs to my brother.

Sometimes I say to myself, why am I not a boy and why am I not my brother? If I were my brother, my grandmother wouldn't hate me so much since I was a child, and she would also give me food, which would make me feel the warmth of home. My grandmother will also bring me everything, instead of treating me like a jinx. If there is an afterlife, I should not be a girl, but a boy like my brother, that is, a kind and painful boy.