Be a firm materialist.

The weather in Xiangyun is surprisingly good. /kloc-at 0/3: 39, the sun finally climbed up my desk through the window. I turned on the computer and wanted to record it.

When I brushed my mobile phone this morning, big data gave me a composite fortune of shooter and Scorpio. I opened it and looked at the comments. I am a firm materialist. Don't believe it anymore. I can't help but think of a video I saw before. Constellations and tarot cards all need love. You spend your time paying attention to these things, and it is difficult to go to heaven if you want someone who doesn't love you to love you. I seem to be getting over it, but I will think of him when I dream back at midnight. How can anyone say that if you don't love, you don't love? As if those days were like a dream. I don't know what he went through when he gave up on me, and I don't want to know what he looked like in front of a third person. What I see is his disloyalty, timidity and cowardice in front of our relationship. I realized this problem more than once, but I thought he would change and we could. After all, I can't. What I think is just my personal opinion. I neglected that people can change, and people's desires are endless.

I have no regrets. I am braver and more honest than him. Just sad. In the past ten years, I once trusted him immensely. He made me wonder if I had ever been loved or taken seriously. All his actions seem to tell me that it is wrong to treat people sincerely and take a relationship seriously, as if there are only pros and cons to weigh in a relationship.

A long time ago, I read a saying that the human heart and the sun can't look directly at each other.

In fact, sometimes, I will be like an ostrich. When you encounter a problem, you want to escape and hide, thinking that the problem will be solved. Just put the problem there, will someone really solve it? Maybe I have long realized that he doesn't love me, but I think it's a pity to give up. Maybe the difference between him and me lies in the different ways of treating feelings and different views. Maybe it's the so-called no two-way trip.

Tonight is New Year's Eve. My single has spread the Seven Fragrances of Jay Chou. I hope to play with you next time. Come on, a new year has come, a new goal, and be a firm materialist.