Resigned at the age of 30 and decided to be a freelancer.

After graduating from college, I worked formally and never skipped the slot. I thought I was a person who liked the new and hated the old, but I didn't expect to persist for so long unintentionally. According to the news, the epidemic is still raging around the world, and the domestic economy has not fully recovered. Under such circumstances, I resigned because I was tired of the workplace.

After resigning, I always wanted to write something to commemorate my first half life, so this article came into being.

I spent the rest of my life -30 years. I didn't say much, and I didn't say much.

In the first 24 years and 5 years, I probably lived carefree, but I have no memory at all. It's too bad. I can't even miss that feeling.

In the next 19 years, from kindergarten to university graduation, I was studying and reading for the whole 19 years. Looking back now, that time was really long. Such a long time was actually many years ago. I remember my mother likes fortune telling very much, and every time she starts an important stage, she will count as a divination. I remember very clearly that the fortune teller said (probably when I was in primary school) that I loved reading very much (reading in our place refers to school study), and I probably loved reading until I was eighteen or nineteen. My mother probably didn't think about the meaning of the second half sentence, so she was happy. I was buried in my heart.

When I was in junior high school, it was always easy to get ahead of the grade. At that time, every time there was an exam, the Academic Affairs Office would post a red list of results. Anyway, most of them are in the first few lines of the red list, and they will not envy those schoolmasters who have occupied the top five of the grade for a long time. During this period, I also joined the school basketball team. I played for two years in Grade One and Grade Two and trained every day. In this way, junior high school had a smooth journey and finally reached one of the best high schools in the county, becoming the object of appreciation in the village.

After entering high school, it may be that the school gathered half of the outstanding students in the county (almost half of them walked, and another high school) and began to feel less comfortable studying. Not to mention the age ranking, the class ranking has been hovering in the middle and upper reaches. At that time, I remember I was a sophomore. It suddenly occurred to me that the fortune teller said that I liked reading until I was eighteen or nineteen. I seem to find it hard to work hard and I don't like studying hard. Maybe I will fall into mediocrity. I also imitated the first classmate in my class and learned that everyone didn't go out until after lunch at noon, which could save some queuing time. I also learned that other colleagues made a wrong set of questions, but they stopped within a few months ... I was so confused that I was admitted to the university (in our class, it was really the middle and lower reaches) only after taking a test of more than 30 points.

People often say that high school is the most unforgettable time. Every time I hear these words, there are 10 thousand question marks every time. Is it that memorable? I only miss the ten minutes of playing basketball with my classmates during recess, the chance meeting with a boy who secretly loves another class at lunch time, and the little happiness of going to the supermarket with my best friend when I can't go home at school on weekends ... These fragments may only take ten minutes to complete. Where have I been these three years? I don't know, either.

Universities are also chaotic. There is nothing to plan ahead. I remember when I first entered freshman year, a senior in junior year said that she started internship, and she was busy until midnight every day. When she got up in the morning, her face was swollen, saying that the pressure of workplace life was too great. I listened and went over. I didn't care at all.

My first formal job after graduation was to find a company that didn't set up a stall in the talent market until the end of the job fair, submit my resume, and finally inexplicably went in.

? During the six years from the age of 24 to the age of 30, although I have been in a company, I actually mentioned several resignations in the process. The first time was when I worked for three years. I really wanted to go to a big company at that time. I mentioned it and was retained. I didn't make up my mind and didn't think about it. The leader advised me for two hours and stayed. The second time was when I worked for 4 years. In March, I came back from the Spring Festival, as confused as usual. I left my job with the leader, but I didn't make up my mind. Somehow it passed. In July of that year, I resigned for the third time. I solemnly wrote a letter of resignation and printed it out in the leadership office. The core reason is that the company airborne an HRD, which I feel very disrespectful. As a result, HRD was fired and I got attention. The leader didn't tell the boss about my resignation.

In fact, these three resignations have no future development direction, either because of the temptation of the outside world or simply because of dissatisfaction with someone or something. In fact, in my heart, I don't quite agree with this way of leaving. I always tell myself to be satisfied with myself and leave when I feel there is no room for growth. So from the second half of 18 to 19, I also tried several things that I needed to break through myself to do well, and I was also praised by my leaders and colleagues. I only need to convince me that I have this ability through one thing. I don't need to do the same thing many times-although I have done it many times, I may do better, but I will evaluate this platform. Whether it is worthwhile for me to do these things again and again, whether there is room for my promotion, and whether there are excellent partners around me to go forward together ... With this idea, I went to class outside and studied by myself, and I didn't ask the company to reimburse me for the training fee, because I felt that this was what I paid for my own growth, and I didn't want to owe it to the company. After giving a wonderful speech at the mid-term meeting of 19, I decided to leave in early 2020 when things were done. I have a future direction. At this time, I chose to leave, no longer confused or escaping, but chasing another dream, and I was very comfortable, although I was reluctant emotionally.

It happened to be my birthday two days before I left. I ended my last friend's birthday party in the company (there were other colleagues in the same month), and received flowers, gifts and an elaborate photo album, which recorded my dribs and drabs in the past six years-I really want to thank my sister here. This is really an photo album that I can remember for a lifetime. A birthday party brought a satisfactory end to my six years and opened a new chapter in my life after I was 30 years old!

I just started at the age of 30, opened an official WeChat account (name: this weekend off), and started to run Zhihu well (same name). Learn coaching skills and career planning to get out of the workplace, but I can't stop exploring myself and my work, and I want to share my staged experience and achievements with more friends.

I wonder what will happen in the future. I only know that I am one step closer to my dream of college-freelancer. Freedom means more self-discipline; How self-disciplined, how hard we can work and how determined we are about our dreams, let's live an ordinary but not mediocre life from now on.