Reading "Body"

She sat on the peony flower of linoleum, crying and laughing, like a real Buddha.

At the beginning of this article, it is doomed that "she" and "he" will never meet again. Only by reading the full text can we deeply and thoroughly feel the decadent desire of "he" to touch "her", even without caring about the withering of the skin.

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When Chang Ying was just born to one year old, she lost her sight because of a sudden high fever. The tragic fate of a lifetime has also come. The ruthless abandonment of parents and the selfless adoption of "grandpa" only increased Chang Ying's breathing time in the hellish world. I wanted to protect Chang Ying before and after her "grandpa" died, and decided her fate with one hand. She was transformed into a man. A year and a half later, all female characteristics were obliterated from Chang Ying. Her hair is short, her chest is flat, she can't dry her menstrual belt, and she even urinates standing up. From then on, she was no longer called "Chang Ying", but completely renamed "Chang Yong"; Change the gender to "male". But a woman's voice and figure make her a hermaphrodite in people's eyes, showing a very strange difference.

Grandpa taught Chang Yong how to live in this dark and vicious world as a blind man, taught him the divination skills of divination and judgment, and then he died silently. Left a deformed "Chang Yong" frozen by life.

Without grandpa's protection, Chang Yong can hardly survive in this cold and dangerous world. No one asked him to tell a fortune, only ruthless eyes, doubts and banter. His lonely and miserable life, dark terror and rampant hunger once again aroused the accumulated desires in his body. Chang Yong once resisted grandpa raising her as a boy. This time, he once again longed for "Chang Ying" in the depths of his soul, because she was a young woman of 18 years old.

In this paper, another Yang Deqing, who is also not recognized by the world and regarded as a human being, met Chang Yong. Two people who are so tortured by fate mistakenly comfort and support each other, quietly enjoying the rejection of the world and enjoying the pure moonlight that can only be obtained at night.

Chang Yong and Yang Deqing are both disabled people, Chang Yong is a deformity of human nature, and Yang Deqing is a psychological disability. The two people in the same boat finally made up their minds not to linger. They want people's attention and respect, and they want to get out of this cold hell.

In the following, the performance of horse nose needs the representatives of unclean and lowest-level people, and the ghosts and gods who are hated but feared by ordinary people. On the day they met the gods, Yang Deqing and Chang Yong completed the transformation of their lives in an extremely cruel and self-destructive way amid the panic and noise of onlookers. They finally seem to be out of hell and become demigods in people's eyes.

From this time on, the fate of the two people has changed even more. Yang Deqing, eager to prove itself to the world, is becoming more and more unscrupulous and self-destructive. He offered sacrifices not only to the gods, but also to himself. You are not exhausted until you are crazy to the extreme. When he returned to Chang Yong's side, he used his last strength to complete everything a man needs to give a woman, and then he was quietly relieved in Chang Yong's arms.

Chang Yong also became a demigod in people's eyes after meeting the gods. But he always lived on the stage built by everyone and himself, performing heartily, exaggeratedly and tragically. Even Yang Deqing's death can't change Chang Yong's prison life, and his psychology has been completely distorted. This kind of pain is both physical and mental. He knew that he was performing for everyone, but he still smiled and shed tears, as if life were like death without end.

The bulldozer in the last part of the article has crushed all the truth, and all the performances will come to an end. The end of Chang Yong and Yang Deqing's life is also a climax. Chang Yong, with people's sighs, Yang Deqing's hopes and his own dignity, offered sacrifices to the gods in his heart in front of everyone. Is it a moth to the fire or a phoenix nirvana?