Life is determined by heaven, and luck is made by heart.

? In fact, staying in hospital for rest due to illness in the old year changed everything.

Xianxian was pregnant and dreamed that I was bitten by a big snake. She told me that I would be pregnant soon. At first, I wanted to have a baby to comfort me, my husband and in-laws. They were very busy. I was afraid that my recovering body could not bear this sweet burden.

My in-laws are also worried that my illness will affect my fertility, so I made a divination with the old man. After all, they only have one son. I can understand that. According to my in-laws, the old man calculated that there would be happiness in July, August and September of the lunar calendar. Unfortunately, the old year has passed and there is no happiness.

In the winter of the old year, my mother-in-law was idle at home. On the way, she heard the bell, saying that the most accurate old man had come, so she asked him to make a divination for her husband. After calculating, the old man said that in principle, there are children in July, August and September. Turned to ask her mother-in-law, isn't her daughter-in-law pregnant? My mother-in-law was embarrassed and said, not yet. The old man wants to know. The old man added that if there are children in the past two years, I am afraid I can't raise them. I seem to know something when I hear this.

? Not long ago, my sister-in-law found herself pregnant. She was overjoyed and somewhat helpless. Yesterday, I overheard that Beibei, who always wanted a baby, was pregnant. Although I am happy for her, I am always disappointed.

If there is only one sign that I will give birth at the old age, I don't think I will care so much. It is only after all the signs are shocked that everyone will inevitably have a knot in one's heart. I can understand that behind the greater hope, disappointment is really uncomfortable.

If destiny takes a hand's flesh and blood does not appear, it is a change of fate. According to under the temptation, life is predestined, but fate can be changed. I didn't believe it before, but now it's happening in front of my eyes, and I have some faith.

A long time ago, I read a text in which three children and their mother were walking on the road. An old fortune teller looked at four beautiful women and kept sighing. What a good family! Unfortunately, life will soon be over! The children were kind-hearted and begged their mother to give some money to the poor fortune teller, but her mother couldn't help giving them some money to take them home. The article said that many ants appeared in their house later, and the children were afraid to trample them to death, so they made a large space for them. One day, their building caught fire and my mother was not at home. After receiving the notice, I came back to find that everything was fine at home and the ants were gone. Neighbors and firefighters didn't even see their houses when they put out the fire. What a ridiculous and magical thing it is! Mother and son sighed to their fortune teller before seeing them on the roadside again. Fortune tellers were surprised, but they were happy to change them. After all, they are a rare group of kind children.

I have also read the book "Fortune-teller can't calculate the life span of a man of practice". Perhaps those children are practitioners, and kindness is the foundation and deep-rooted practice, so they are so blessed.

When I returned to myself, my destiny takes a hand's baby didn't appear. If you really appear as it is and die as it is, is it auspicious or disaster? I can't imagine. But life didn't let it happen at all. I really appreciate life's care and love for me, because I haven't done anything good that I or the public will never forget. Where is it worth taking care of? Only a little kindness is better than a little evil.

Although the baby didn't arrive as scheduled, I know that it doesn't want to change from a lovely angel in the sky to a child who died young and lost his training. Although there are some regrets, it is not a bad thing.

I know my family and relatives will talk about it. After all, there is no harm without comparison. But I sincerely wish my sister-in-law a healthy baby. And I balance these little things, waiting for everything arranged by fate.

I don't know whether I am practicing or not, and I don't know whether my life is really up to me. But I only promise that there must be life sometimes, and there is no need to insist all the time. Not very kind, only sincere forever!