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San Mao, a maverick, finally ended her life with a thin silk stocking and started another kind of wandering after experiencing the confusion and sadness in the rainy season, the unrestrained and splendid desert and the troubles and loneliness in Taipei. The quiet beauty and brilliance of life, introversion and publicity, are like the strong and bright colors of western oil paintings, woven into a dream of flowers blooming and falling. San Mao, who is mixed with sorrow and joy, lingers between life and death all his life, conflicts between ideal and reality, and seeks the answer to the causal cycle of past lives.

The swing between life and death

Life and death are common events in life, and also important events in life. Hegel said that everyone will die, and natural death is an absolute law, but it is a law imposed by nature. Seneca said that life is death, death is life, and life and death are twins. From the moment we were born, death began. Philosophers' knowledge of life and death is based on their perception and understanding of existence. Mediocre people don't talk about life and death. They just muddle along, drift with the tide and know nothing about the flow of life. Philosophers talk about life and death, and they are sober about their own existence, like sleepless poets who wake up in the middle of the night and it is raining on the phoenix tree. That "one leaf, one sound, one drop at a time" is the flow of life.

Sanmao is precocious, sensitive and withdrawn. She was autistic for seven years in her girlhood. She chose philosophy instead of her favorite literature and art. In her short 45-year career, she committed suicide several times. Naturally, she has an extraordinary experience of confusion and pain in life and death, and she also has an extraordinary sobriety and consciousness. Some people say that the pendulum of Sanmao's life always swings between "life" and "death", "separation" and "return". In fact, who in the world has not been swinging between "life" and "death", "leaving" and "returning"? It's just that Sanmao is more sober and sober, so he is more enthusiastic and eye-catching. Looking at San Mao's vacillation between life and death, death and life and death, looking for the reasons behind the ups and downs of life and death, there is only one answer: family-family, love and friendship, in which love is the soul of San Mao's life. When she was young, the unsuccessful love made Sanmao give up her life and chose to commit suicide. However, the persistent and passionate love of the bearded Jose made Sanmao's life shine brightly, and Sanmao, who was fragile, pale and confused in the rainy season, became a mature Sanmao who was cheerful, open-minded, humorous and full of sunshine. In the harsh living environment of the Sahara desert, Sanmao leads a lively and interesting life: in a hotel in the desert, Sanmao runs a family life with great interest and cooks for Jose; In marriage, San Mao and Jose fish and sell fish together; In Amateur Fisherman, Sanmao is jealous because the hotel waitress took advantage of Jose. In the process of starting a family from scratch, Sanmao built his home into the most beautiful in the desert step by step. It is love that makes Sanmao reach the brilliant peak in life and creation. Because of love, "the girl who walked in the rainy season finally bid farewell to the years of stepping in the rain and walked into the desert." The sunshine and wind and rain in the desert firmly transformed her into' a copper-red San Mao with sand marks on the surface, which is not very delicate in appearance'. [1] Life thrives because of love; And the decline of life is also because of love. San Mao, who loves tragedy, played a cruel joke:1On the Mid-Autumn Festival night in 979, Jose died unexpectedly in a diving. San Mao is in pain, wishing he couldn't go with Jose. "How many nights, how many dreams, I hide in the dark, a little crazy to miss jose. "(The Immortal Bird) Nevertheless, for the sake of his elderly and sick parents, Sanmao once again died unsatisfied," I had to be a temporary immortal bird ",saying," Let me drink this farewell bar for love! " "I am willing to be the last person to die in the life circle of mom and dad's husband", "Because I know love, how deep my love is, how long my care and reluctance will last". Sanmao at this time is no longer a wayward and fragile girl in the rainy season. The baptism of love made her mature and made her more calm and sober about death. She had a heart-to-heart talk with her father late at night and said, "If you choose the way to end your life, you should also understand, because in my life, it will be a happy destination." "For life, there is obviously more understanding and commitment. Born in panic, brilliant, died in pain. San Mao speaks. San Mao, who returned to Taiwan with a broken wing, talked with his readers' relatives about life and death. San Mao lamented the stubbornness of the world. " When the baby is born, most people don't know the baby's future, but they all say-congratulations! Congratulations! When people die, most people don't understand the world after death, but say-what a pity! What a pity! "She asked," Birth is the most certain journey. Isn't death just another kind of departure? "The happiness and responsibility of life are among them. She believes that the deepest and most peaceful happiness in the world is to look at the world quietly, look at the world and slowly taste its beauty and harmony. This kind of happiness, at first glance, may be inconspicuous. In fact, it is far-reaching and long. For me, the enjoyment of life is among them. " ("I like to treat happiness as an infectious disease") I also believe that "what burns a person's soul is love for life, and that is death."

It is love that makes Sanmao swing between life and death, feel life and death, realize life and death, and glow the courage and wisdom of a strange girl in an extraordinary life.

The Conflict between Ideal Sanmao and Realistic Sanmao

The famous philosopher E Baker once said: The motivation to deepen the world in human beings is our greatest desire in life. We have been pursuing our own feeling of helplessness all our lives, immersed in a real and reliable power of self-transcendence. For San Mao: "My pain is that I have been pursuing my own sublimation." This sublimation is a kind of self-realization and transcendence. San Mao has been pursuing an ideal and harmonious life realm all his life, that is, the perfection and eternity of love, the perfection and perfection of human nature, and the perfection and freedom of individual self. This ideal state of life is San Mao's eternal dream since he was a child. Sanmao's primary school, like the dark church in medieval Europe, ignored all kinds of rules and regulations and corporal punishment for children's physical and mental development, deprived Sanmao of many joys in his childhood, leaving a deep shadow, especially when he was humiliated by a math teacher with incomplete human nature in middle school, which dealt a fatal blow to Sanmao's sensitive and fragile self-esteem, leading to Sanmao's seven-year autism, and at the same time pushed Sanmao up. From beginning to end, Sanmao pursued the other extreme. This pursuit is a memory, a rebellion and a transcendence of that unforgettable juvenile experience. Love is the center of Sanmao's life, and true, pure, perfect and eternal love is an indispensable pillar of Sanmao's ideal of life. In the consistent concept, women represent sensibility and unconsciousness, while men represent rationality and consciousness. As Byron said, love is a part of men, but it is all for women. This is undoubtedly correct for San Mao. The precocious Sanmao began a mysterious and hazy unrequited love from the fourth grade of primary school. Life and death are love. In the article "When I was Twenty", San Mao said frankly: "At that age, if there was no love, even if I got a hundred points, I would feel that my life was in vain." Only love can support Sanmao's dream and life. In the Sahara desert, Sanmao was intoxicated, intoxicated with Jose's love, intoxicated with free and real desert life, intoxicated with her freedom and heroism. She lives confidently and writes enthusiastically, and integrates herself into the writing of her works, presenting a radiant "three hairs" to her relatives, friends and readers. As some critics have pointed out, "Sanmao, as the narrator, the narrative object and the original Sanmao in Sanmao's works, has a trinity of flamboyant personality, romantic feelings and loving heart, with strong temptation, and plunged into the readers' expectation field of vision." [2] This Sanmao-style creative way, under the joint action of art and modern media, makes Sanmao fall into a trap of his own design-the gap between ideal and reality. "In most cases, she disappears the distance between the author and the role of the work. The life described in the works is actually the author's real life, which also obliterates the boundary between life truth and artistic truth, forming the impression that both life and art are equally important. [3] This unique creative way "makes Sanmao have a strong legend. She is no longer San Mao, but also San Mao who is suffering and weak and needs comfort and help. She became the reader's three hairs, an all-powerful three hairs: strong, chivalrous and kind. "

If Jose's love makes Sanmao have enough courage and reason to fill the gap between the ideal Sanmao and the real Sanmao, then Jose's death makes Sanmao unable to bear the weight of "the ideal Sanmao" both physically and mentally. But Sanmao, who is stubborn by nature and pursues perfection, can't abandon her dream of painstaking management. Without Jose, she still insists on maintaining the "ideal San Mao" in the reader's mind-a San Mao that has been transformed from many angles. Her stubbornness made her deviate from the pursuit of natural comfort in life, which made her unable to break through the predicament of survival. Sanmao returned to Taipei with his parents. On the surface, Sanmao, who "experienced great impact, great turning point and great glory" in life, changed from "gorgeous to plain" [5] but in fact, since then Sanmao has been doomed to struggle and conflict between ideal and reality. She tried to cheer up and return to the readers and the public with a strong, full and devoted three hairs, but the heavy schoolwork, writing and speeches not only failed to fill her empty mind, but almost crushed her flesh and blood and made her fragile nerves almost collapse; She tried to restore her "flying personality, romantic feelings and broad mind" in the past, so she dragged her sick body around Qian Shan and made fun of the school as freely as a child. However, in the story of Wan Shui Qian Shan's trip to Central and South America and his amusement, what readers read is an artificial San Mao that is anemic, pale and even dull. In San Mao's later works, what really touched readers' hearts was Du Fu's sincere works of weeping blood, which expressed his grief and thoughts after his death. With the love drifting away, Sanmao's creation seems to have come to an end. From 65438 to 0990, at the invitation of a friend, San Mao wrote the only movie script in his life, The World of Red Dust. However, this painstaking work did not get the expected recognition and evaluation: Rolling Red Dust won eight of the nine Golden Horse Awards, but only the best screenplay award, which was undoubtedly a heavy blow to San Mao, who was physically and mentally fragile at that time. The conflict between ideal and reality makes Sanmao's sense of exhaustion and powerlessness reach the extreme. Life is a futile struggle, and death is particularly amiable and beautiful. San Mao said, "... I think I'm going to die early, because I overdraw too many lives, but a person's life, as long as he likes it, has nothing to do with the length." "[6]" I'm not afraid of death. Death is the beginning of a new stage, which may be beautiful. " [7] Sanmao finally ended his struggle in an extreme way, perfected his lifelong dream and completed his ideal "Sanmao". San Mao once said: "I never feel like a member of all sentient beings in this world." I often have to run out of the track of ordinary people's lives and do things that cannot explain why. " (Story of Sahara) San Mao, a maverick, hanged himself in Taipei Veterans General Hospital on 1 4/morning, 199 1 and never woke up. She chose to end her life by predicting her own death. The romantic Sanmao "hopes that her life will always be full of drama and climax, and the way she chose to die created the last climax in her life history". [8] Deng Yankun, a famous stage artist, hit the nail on the head and pointed out: "You let yourself fall into your own time and space, so in the eyes of ordinary people, you are not real. You are a person who is dragged away by yourself and the readers. You will end yourself heroically and romantically at any time, and you may think that you will be resurrected and eternal. " [9]

Third, questioning the causal cycle of past lives.

Sanmao was born in a Christian family, and his parents are devout Christians. The western humanitarianism and fraternity spirit have been fully reflected in Sanmao and his works: in the desolate and backward Sahara desert, Sanmao lives with Saharans who are hardly human in the eyes of proud white wives, making friends with them, convening women to run classes, teaching them simple arithmetic, and letting them at least know how to count money and settle accounts. With a little wisdom and courage, he cured the local patients and went to the court to protest against the Sahrawi nobles' slave-keeping and fund dumb slaves ... If Sanmao's belief in Christ is the result of family edification and indoctrination, then Sanmao accepts Buddhism independently. Feeling frustrated several times, life and death wavered, "Awakening in emotion, Wukong in color", and profound Buddhism is more in line with the needs of Sanmao's soul. "Believing in Buddha is not worshipping the Buddha, but the wisdom and compassion of worshipping Buddha, and the thoughts left by worshipping Buddha to the world." "Believe in the Buddha, because the Buddha is a perfect person with great personality, compassion and wisdom." [10] Buddha's compassion soothes Sanmao's bleeding heart and teaches Sanmao to appear with compassion; The wisdom of the Buddha extradited San Mao who was lost in the suffering of life.

Before going to the mainland for the second time, Sanmao "went home, cleaned up all the dust up and down at home, touched the books on the bookshelf, loosened all the colored cushions and put all the music tapes back in the box." Fertilize the roof garden? What's the matter with you? Poke your heart? What's left of the head? Hey? Deer scar? Hey? What is the law? Hey? Mock? ァビビビビビビ? Give a new sentence? Duguan station? Punishment? What about planting Huai? Forgive me! News? Give a new two guarantees? How bad is squid? Hey? What's worse than a rough cover? Slack off? The first edition? What is the punishment? What happened to the sacrum? Are you dizzy? Not a beta view! Promise? Renqiao is playing? Hit the dice? What is the best way to stop? Fat? Kaori? SPAN lang=EN-US>。

The Buddha said that karma, the girl Sanmao was willful and importuned, pestering and beating young lovers, and reading Sanmao's vicissitudes at will. Buddha talks about the immortality of the soul and guides the world to avoid evil by industry. Sanmao worships the wisdom and compassion of the Buddha and accepts the theory of causality, but he just wants to ask the implied friendship in the causal cycle. What makes Sanmao and Jose achieve a lifelong marriage after thousands of times, and make a pair of immortal couples; And what is the reason for this caring couple to be separated from each other in just six years? What is the reason and the result? What is the fate of a person's life? What's more, life is rugged and rich as three hairs. He believes that life "is often accompanied by thousands of causes and effects." What about the afterlife? Sanmao doesn't daydream too much, just wants to be different from this life. What reminds San Mao of past lives is his persistent pursuit of past lives in the depths of his soul memory-the answer to this life. Sanmao accidentally turned to a National Geographic magazine published in the United States. "I only read it once, but I can't explain the nostalgia of my previous life, so I gave it to that strange land without reservation." "Sahara desert, in my heart, is my dream lover for many years!" (From scratch) In the desert where the sun is like fire and the wind is cold, Sanmao made Jose's sweet My Sahara Heart and spent the most complete and joyful period of his life. Sanmao also believes that she is reincarnated in India. She always loves to prick a pair of braided hair, and even made up a story about her former life, an Indian Kanaky girl. The girl's name is "Waha". In Indian dialect, "Waha" means "heart". Waha is an orphan, living alone and safely with her old grandfather. Grandfather is a pharmacist. He can treat his people with all kinds of unknown herbs. After his grandfather died, Waha married a handsome hunter, and the young couple sympathized with each other. Life is lonely and peaceful. At dusk, they sat quietly in front of their house, looking at the snow-capped mountains and the Silver Lake. People's hearts were thrown into the Silver Lake. They were killed by the Inca conquerors. The jumping fish in the Silver Lake is people's hearts. Waha was pregnant and malnourished, and ate fish from Silver Lake. People say Waha will be punished. On a cold night, the sun god came and Waha died in childbirth. [1 1] Sanmao said that she was the reincarnation of Waha. The spotless and quiet baby died and began the life journey of a woman who claimed to be Sanmao. In the world of mortals, it was a noisy, tortuous, bitter and tired trip. What kind of cause and effect is this? We don't know if Sanmao has the answer to the question of past lives causality. We only know that Sanmao's pursuit of life is only for an ideal and perfect realm of life, a perfect humanity and a complete and pure love.

Flowers bloom like spring flowers, and fall like autumn leaves; In the dream, it seems vaguely that the heart is broken outside the dream. Sanmao, a literary woman, is not a master of literature and art, but her creation is full of the sincerity of a virgin and the extraordinary pursuit of an ideal life realm by an ordinary woman. This is the unique significance of Sanmao's world.