Life experience of Mars

Mars was born in Jiangjuntun, Teng 'ao Town, Haicheng City, Anshan, 1975. She started to practice physical education at the age of 10, and left home to enter Haicheng Sports School at the age of10. No one expected that this chubby girl went further and further on the road of sports, and later joined the Anshan team until the Liaoning team, and never came back.

Mars' achievements in this field are not outstanding, but she is one of the first team members brought to Shenyang by Ma from Anshan and the first captain. She is very old, but Mars is born with bad conditions and is very fat, so she should spend more time on the runway. She even got up secretly in the middle of the night to practice, but even so, she didn't realize her wish to win the world championship.

Mars is a kind girl. When Feng Gang, an Anshan native, went to the provincial team, Mars treated her like a sister and even helped her wash clothes. She took care of Feng in her life, so they became good friends who talked about everything. Mars likes listening to music, but her taste never seems to keep up with the trend. The songs in the street are already boring, but Mars mythology bought the tape as a treasure, so her teammates often laugh at her: "This thing has long been out of fashion." And Mars giggled happily. But the greatest pleasure of Martians is still reading. Magazines "Family" and "Companion" are the favorites of Mars. These magazines have made Mars nearsighted. She even hid under the covers in the middle of the night and read with a flashlight. For a while, she was regarded as a laughing stock by her teammates.

It should be pointed out that Mars is the only person who keeps a diary to record the history of Ma Jiajun. During her seven years in Ma Jiajun, she wrote a dozen thick diaries. 1994 when she left the team, she wrote a graduation poem:

Seven years of suffering so far.

Tears, blood and sweat flow along the Yangtze River.

Family ties are hard to get together.

Now I get a sad face

Seven-year-old Lei Yun and Yan Yun

Look at today.

Full of regret

Regret at the beginning

Sigh at this time

Sad? Are you happy?

The writing is not wonderful, but it is already very valuable to an athlete. Mars, who can't tell his joys and sorrows, never thought that after leaving Ma Jiajun, he embarked on a road of no return. Qu once said that one sport in the world is the most boring, that is, middle and long distance running, running on the runway every day, I don't know when it will end. Mars felt the same way. At the back of a photo, she wrote the following sentence: "I don't know how many miles I ran on this runway, and I don't know how many pairs of shoes I broke."

The monotonous and arduous training makes these girls particularly eager for the care of the opposite sex. However, there are strict rules in Ma Jiajun. Players are not allowed to fall in love, and anyone who says anything is in danger of being fired. Although the rules are very strict, the reality is that three players have been in love under the nose of the horse. ) and sentimental Mars is no exception. She secretly loved a male teammate of Liaoning track and field team, but at that time, the male team member already had a girlfriend, and it was a famous garden flower in the compound at that time. 1993, when Ma Jiajun came back from training in Doba, Qinghai, Mars and his male teammates sat together talking and laughing. Careless boys think it's normal, but Mars can't restrain his joy after all, and it's a bit too much. After returning to the compound, gossip about Mars suddenly increased. There is a simple reason. A fool can tell from the performance of Mars on the train that she likes each other, but the other person already has a girlfriend-Mars is suspected of being in love.

Jeanmart was very upset by these rumors. One night, he finally couldn't help but confide in his friend Feng. Calm Feng suggested that Mars immediately end this unrequited love. Mars also knew that this relationship would not have a good result, but he still didn't give up. The next day, he went to the street to find a fortune teller, who approved a divination: you are not the main wife in this life, that is to say, Mars can only be a side room and a partial wife in this life. The nonsense of the fortune teller made the superstitious Li Ying hear like thunder. She didn't expect her emotional ending to be so tragic. At night, Mars wandered around the path in the yard. Feng, who didn't know at that time, thought that she was making the final choice, but Mars was at a loss for the divinatory words that affected her life.

Mars later lay in a hospital bed for a whole week. At this time, Ma came back from Stuttgart with Wang and Qu, but he didn't realize that his eldest disciple Mars had lost a circle, and Mars' bitter first love experience was over. The divination of "not being a wife in this life" became Mars' lingering nightmare. Mars 1994 and teammate Li Jianping retired, and both of them were assigned to work in Shenyang public security system. Mars' work unit is the Busy Road Police Station, which is responsible for handling resident ID cards. In fact, this job is envied by many people. A farmer's son really changed his fate by running. Mars is now a policewoman in Shenyang.

But Mars is not satisfied. Her real wish is to be a journalist and writer. What's more, when many people flocked to write about Ma Jiajun, she thought she was the most qualified person to write about Ma Jiajun. This thick diary records the seven-year history of Ma Jiajun. Who knows more about the history of Ma Jiajun than she does?

Mars began to study in the correspondence class of Shenyang Institute of Physical Education. During the Eighth National Games, she went to Shanghai for an interview at her own expense, because she wanted to prepare for writing Ma Jiajun's book in the future. But working in the police station involves a lot of time, so she hopes to be a sports reporter first. She went to the Sports Department of Liaoning Daily and volunteered to be a sports reporter, but she was politely refused: the reporter recruited by Liaoning Daily must have a bachelor's degree or above. Now she is only studying in correspondence college, and she must work hard!

This experience was a great blow to Mars. She suddenly felt that her professional desire to be a reporter before publishing a book suddenly became a castle in the air. After all, Mars is not a very open-minded person. In fact, this kind of setback is negligible to others. But Mars felt that the blow left her at a loss. Later, Mars burned all his diaries. It happened that I came to see her that day and saw a thick layer of ash. Qu exclaimed in surprise, "How did you burn all your treasures?" Mars said indifferently, "It's no use. What are you doing with them? " Qu was still sighing, and a scholar soldier ended like this. At the same time, Mars' love dream made her completely collapse. She fell in love with someone she shouldn't have loved (out of respect for the dead, I won't say the specific name and identity, so stop here). Mars once swallowed sleeping pills for this matter before, but was found by her roommate and sent to the hospital to save her life, but things have not changed since then.

Mars began to despair, and she may have remembered what the fortune teller gave her. According to teammate May (a pseudonym), Mars suddenly pulled her up one night: "Do you think I look like an unmarried man?" Mei was at a loss: "What do you mean, not a wife?" Mars explained it to her, and Mei shook her head: "I see you are chubby and happy, and your work is good now. Are you thinking about this thing? " After the silence, Mars turned around and said simply, "In those days, Daxian gave me such a batch." Mei is annoyed to talk about it now: if I had known this, I would have taken Mars to the streets and calculated it again, which might change the fate of Mars. After all, heart disease still needs medication.

The unsatisfactory career love, coupled with the estrangement from Ma Jiajun's former teammates after work, made Mars unable to find a particularly good person to talk to. Sentimental Mars did not get out of the trap she dug for herself in the end. She will stay away from this world. 1April 7, 998, Mars made up its mind to return to its home in Haicheng for the last time. Father Li told her a good news: "Old Ruth, you can live in the building when you come back." Mars just gave a gentle sigh, which was different from Li's previous enthusiasm for the new house. Although she felt strange, she still thought her little daughter was in a bad mood.

When she left her hometown for Anshan's sister's house, Li Ying's eight-year-old niece Yuanyuan ran out with the doll Li Yinggang gave her: "Goodbye, Grandma, come back early next time." And Mars' mother kept repeating: "You should call home often so as not to remind your mother."

On the morning of April 18, Mars left the home of Anshan sister Li Yan and returned to Shenyang. Li Yan sent Li Ying to the car: "Old Ruth, call my sister to work." Mars said, "Sister, I won't let you worry. I will definitely call you. " But until three o'clock in the afternoon, Li Yan still didn't get a call from her sister. According to the truth, Anshan is only an hour's drive from Shenyang, and Mars has arrived in Shenyang anyway. Lillian called the unit on Mars, and the director replied. Mars didn't come back. The next day, Mars still didn't go back to work. Anxious Li Yan knew that something must have happened to Mars. At 6 pm, Li Yan's husband Fang Xi received a phone call from Mars at home. Fangxi lied to Mars and said, "Your sister is ill. Come back and have a look." Mars' words are simple: "Brother-in-law, I tell you, whether my sister is really in hospital or not, I will call my sister for the last time tomorrow night. If she doesn't answer the phone, she will regret it all her life. " Say that finish this sentence, Mars put down the phone.

The next day, 19 April, Mars didn't call Li Yan; On the third day, April 20, there was still no phone call.

One day on April 2 1, Mars still didn't call. Li Yan has not eaten for three days in a row. She still holds good hopes. This time, old Eiko may still be joking with me. Because after the last attempted suicide, Mars played the same trick with her in Anshan Mars, but that time she only lost for half an hour, and then smiled and said to Li Yan, "Sister, I just want to see if you are really good to me."

At half past eight in the evening, Li Yan finally received a phone call from Mars. Li Yan shouted wildly, "Old Ruth, don't be hard. Where are you? " I'm looking for you now? "I heard Mars' calm voice:" Sister, I am now in a particularly beautiful place with mountains and water. You can't find me. I have to go. You should take good care of my parents and tell them that there is no unfilial daughter like me. " Li Yan kowtowed into the microphone and said, "Old Eiko, my parents and sisters can't live without you. We love you! If you want to get over it-"Li Yan hoped that kowtowing loudly would make Mars change of heart, but the last sentence came from her ear:" Sister, I can't think so much. " Then there was no sound on the phone.

"Sister, I can't think so much" is the last sentence left by Mars to this world.

On the morning of April 27th, while feeding fish, the staff of Qipanshan Reservoir in Shenyang found a corpse in police uniform floating more than 30 meters away from the shore. Confirmed by the public security department, the deceased was Simars, a third-class policeman at Huole Road Police Station in Shenhe District, Shenyang City who had been missing for a week.

The talented woman in Ma Jiajun ended her young life in this way, which also marked the greatest tragedy in Ma Jiajun. The bad news that Mars committed suicide by drowning reached Jiangjuntun, and her mother immediately went into shock. After waking up, she kept saying, "Old Ruth, why are you so heartless? Why did you just leave? " ? The money I gave you piled higher than the mountain-"The later story was that Mother Li was crazy and cried and shouted all day:" Where are you, Lao? Old Ruth, where are you? "This shrill cry makes people shudder at night. Mars' teammates and Feng Ben called to visit Mars' parents. Li said to him, "Don't come. I miss her even more when I see you. If I don't see you, I'll think she hasn't come back from the foreign competition ... "

What puzzled the two old people was why their daughter chose to commit suicide. A month after Mars died, the small bag containing her suicide note was salvaged. Ma, who was hospitalized in Dalian, quietly arrived in Shenyang by bus. With the help of the public security organs, Ma and Ma saw Mars' suicide note. But this suicide note was not seen by Mars' family for unknown reasons. So only the horse knows the content. Later, Ma Renjun said, "Her death has nothing to do with me."

1At 8: 00 am on April 29th, 998, the body of Mars was in funeral home cremation, Shenyang, and her teammates Wang Qu saw her off. At this time, all her Anshan teammates still don't know about it. Martians' favorite magazines, such as bosom friend and girlfriend, were also burned together.

Shredded paper flies like a butterfly, hovering in mid-air. This is the last memory of Mars on Earth.