I know a special girl named Amo.

I know an optimistic post-90s girl named Amo. Actually, I know Amo is not her real name.

Once, she asked me out shopping and said that she wanted to buy a mobile phone, so she asked me to bargain with her.

I promised, but only if I had dinner with you first.

When eating, Amo had a big heart and folded it with straws. I looked at her happy face and suddenly asked her, "Why did you name yourself Amo?" Isn't your real name nice? "She looked up at me, her bright eyes a little dim. She lowered her head and continued to fold straw.

I thought she wouldn't answer me, so I wanted to find another topic to discuss. Before I could speak, Tao spoke first.

"Strangeness is the release of the past, the acceptance of the present and the desire for the future." She paused, lowered her head and drank slowly. Tell me her story.

Like many stories, Amo was born in a small village. The first child in the family, parents still have a hard time. Amo was a little dull since he was a child, and he didn't have many memories when he was a child. There are only three or five things he can remember clearly before he was six years old.

Amo said that when she was a child, she was rather dull. Adults didn't like her very much and called her stupid. Once, there were many children setting off firecrackers in front of the neighbor's house. The older children lit firecrackers and threw them in front of Amao. The other children were far away, but Amao didn't move. The neighbor said she was stupid, and her mother heard it and quarreled with others. Say that the daughter is not stupid, not stupid at all.

Amo said she had a doll when she was a child. That was the first toy that Mom and Dad gave her. The doll has a pair of big round eyes, thick flying eyelashes, a playful little mouth rising, a blonde hair braided in two braids and left behind her head, and a petite figure wearing a beautiful little dress. It has magical functions. When it stands upright, its eyes are open. Once held sideways, it is like a doll lying in her mother's arms and falling asleep sweetly. This doll plays an important role in Amo's childhood.

There is also a dog, which is also very important to Amo. Now, after many years, Amo still has tears in his eyes when he recalls this incident.

It's a little yellow dog. Its name is Huang. It's a newborn puppy adopted by Amo's mother at a relative's house. Huang is obedient, not picky about food and does not bite. He is a domestic expert and Amo's best playmate. When Amo left it, he followed it quietly and far away.

I just know now that Amo has always liked apples, which is a luxury hobby she raised since childhood. Fruit was still very expensive at that time. Dad often buys fruit, but mom and dad can't bear to eat it. Amo eats alone from morning till night. At first, a family of three was not rich, but warm enough.

"Ah," Amo said with a wry smile, took a long sip of water, and then said, "It often doesn't last long. Happiness doesn't mean you can keep it. "

Everything, everything disappeared when Amo was 6 years old.

Amo remembers that age because it was the age when she shaved her head. There is a custom in their hometown. Six-year-old children shave their heads, and relatives and friends will come to give gifts.

That year was really lively!

Autumn is the harvest season, everyone happily harvests crops, but Amo's harvest is a turning point of fate.

Amo was very happy that day. He took his basket and his parents to pick wild strawberries in the field. A full blue wild strawberry, round and full, with an attractive red color, Amo skipped home with his parents happily.

Just walked to the river, 50 meters away from the village. Suddenly a group of people rushed in. The people Amo knows are his uncles, aunts and other relatives. Without saying anything, they rushed up and directly hit Tao's father. Mother was afraid Amo would be implicated, so she hid Amo behind the straw pile. Amo watched helplessly as several men pressed their father down and beat his father together, while several women beat their mother together. My mother was strong, so she pushed the woman away and ran to Amo's side, asking Amo to borrow a fork from someone else's house. This fork is big and heavy. It is used to pick haystacks in rural areas. Amo did, even though he didn't understand. Amo stumbled and dragged his fork to his mother.

At this time, those women were besieged by their mothers again. Mother gritted her teeth and rushed up with a fork. Those women are too scared to go near. Mother was so angry that she chased Aunt Amoy with a fork. A sharp fork pierced Aunt Amoy's stomach and pushed her into the river, which immediately turned blood red.

When people saw that things were not good, they hurried to the hospital. In this way, a blood shed temporarily subsided.

Many years later, I don't know. Because grandma prefers boys to girls, Amao's father and aunt are honest and can't please the old man. Grandparents prefer uncle's house and two little aunts. It happened that Amo was a girl, and even less lovable. Amo's mother is also a character and can't stand the injustice of others. In this way, the differences are growing.

Later, I heard from my grandmother that it was that day. Amao's mother saw my uncle's son cutting straw and scolded him. Why didn't she kill him? Uncle called a group of people together to teach Amo's parents a lesson.

At that time, Amo's family was very poor, and grandma and uncle were very embarrassed. Ambitious parents decided to go out and work hard. The first stop is the border of Myanmar-remote Yunnan. They quietly packed their bags and tricked Amo into grandma's house.

It's hard to imagine what it's like to wake up and find that the most important person has left you.

Amo woke up early that day and saw a doll at the bedside, which was given by my uncle. Amo seems to have a wonderful premonition that he will cry as soon as he opens his eyes. Beautiful dolls can't make her happy Amo may have a hunch that this separation may last a lifetime.

"I lived in my grandmother's house for two years, and my grandmother loved me very much. I prepared a cupboard for me, locked all the food in it, and put the keys directly in my place. Only I can eat. " Amo remembered the sweet past and smiled happily. "Later, when I went back to my grandmother's house, the cupboard was pried open by two greedy cousins."

Amo was 8 years old that year, and he was past the age of going to school. Maybe mom and dad called and forced grandma to take her home to school.

When Amo returned to grandma's house, she followed her to live on the bridge outside the village, which was the house where grandma used to open a small shop.

Amo seldom goes back to the village because her friends are unfamiliar and no one plays with her. The doll disappeared in the old house, and Huang stayed at grandma's house.

When Amo left, Huang reluctantly chased him for a long time, and he couldn't get rid of it. But Amo, a child who can't even take care of herself, how can she go to grandma's house with Huang? Since then, Tao has never seen Huang again. Later, I heard that Huang once went out to play and never went back to grandma's house.

O devoted to gently wipe the corner of my eye.

Amo said that from kindergarten to third grade, she only met her mother once, but her father never met her once. Mom came back to see Amo, sobbing and asking Amo's life. Amo knew that mom came back to bring back news from dad. They thought she didn't know, but in fact she knew everything. Seeing her illiterate aunt listening to others reading her father's letter, she burst into tears. She knew that her little aunt took her to take photos for the first time in order to let her father, who was suffering in Yunnan, go home early. She knows that grandma can't help crying when talking to others.

However, what she can do seems to be nothing. She seems to have changed.

About four or five years later, she followed her grandmother to a new city before meeting her parents who had gone elsewhere.

However, when she saw her parents again, she was sure that everything had changed. There is a puzzling child at home, that is her sister, who is said to be her mother's lucky star. Amo no longer feels warm about this home. For her, this home is just a way to change the patron.

Later, a boy was finally added to the family. They feel that they will be looked down upon when they are gone. They felt it was time to really stand up and finally stood up straight.

And Amo is still cold. Because she lost a sister. It is said that all the children in their family are born. Amo's life is gold, his mother is wood, and his second sister is earth. So Amo is mother's nemesis, which is what Amo's mother told Amo herself. Mom said that Amo cried when he was born, which brought bad luck to his family. Second sister smiled as soon as she was born. I don't know if it's a coincidence that the family is really getting better. Especially after the birth of the youngest brother, the family is even more flat and straight.

Just mentioned that Amo lost a younger sister, which is Amo's third sister. It is said that she gave it away because her birth fortune-telling was not good. Amo has always been bitter about this matter.

Amo studied in the place where mom and dad worked from grade four to grade one. During this time, Amo's relationship with his parents has been very bad. Until the second day, Amo went back to his hometown to go to school and was once again locked under the fence.

Amo's most annoying time every week is Friday, because every Friday when she comes back from vacation, there will be calls from afar.

Every semester, the holidays that other students like have become Amo's nightmare. She hates holidays. I had to struggle when she took a short vacation. Where do I live? Whose house are you going to? During the winter and summer vacations, Amo was struggling to find his parents.

It is an indisputable fact that every time a family is together, the distance is close, but the feelings are far away.

It may be mistakes and misunderstandings again and again, so that mom and dad gradually don't like Amo. They often scold her and beat her, and never listen to her explanation. Mo Ye has changed. She is not close to her parents and doesn't even want to call them. What happened? Tao never tells them. As long as there is misunderstanding, Tao will never explain it again. Because, no one believes her, how to explain it is wrong.

DOG stopped at this point.

Now I begin to understand Amo's way of self-protection. In fact, she just pretended to suffer silently, feeling that she was the only one in the world, keeping everything in her heart silently and not resisting. She chooses to ignore the things that hurt her, and she will choose to give up the people who hurt her.

Amo put the folded rose in my hand and said, "Once some people have a gap, it is difficult to heal. Some unintentional cuts can't be stitched up no matter how hard they are mended. However, it's all right now. "

DOG took a deep breath and looked up, his bright eyes full of light. She took my hand and said happily, "Go, buy a mobile phone. I want to change my mobile phone and change my bad mood! "

I just remembered that the purpose of her appointment with me today is that she is finally willing to change her mobile phone after five or six years of use!

I asked her strangely, "You don't just like your mobile phone. You don't even want your boyfriend's apple. Why open it today? "

She pulled me while walking and smiled: "Ha ha ha, Meizu PRO6? It is the mobile phone I want! "