What does the fortune teller mean by keeping the five ghosts married?

Du Xiaoyu is not a good man. I am an affectionate and heartless person. I'm not that simple anymore. I often tell you at night that I love you and will never leave you, but I leave you at dawn. I am an affectionate and heartless person. I'm not that simple anymore. I often tell you at night that I love you and will never leave you, but at dawn. When I left you cruelly, I felt inferior. I suppress my emptiness. I want to escape. I have no money and I am not romantic enough. Sometimes I lose my temper when I'm unreasonable. I am not a good person, and I will not be a good father. I'm afraid I can't afford the burden of society and family. I often ask myself why I love you and why I left you. I am afraid of loneliness. What I am afraid of is that I can't find self-hope and adoption after repeated promises.