Is your first love with you now?

He's not with me anymore. It's been three and a half years. I don't know how to mention him, but I feel calm and even want to eat a handful of dog food. I think we are probably the kind of people who are not separated, but I still hope he can live well. Before, I was not so generous. I've always wanted to stab a little man to death and curse him for not finding a girlfriend, which is much worse than me. Nonsense, I don't want to lose face. Fortunately, I haven't been in love for three and a half years. How can I put it? People pay no attention to him. Didn't my curse come true So I can set up a stall, tell people's fortune and realize my wish. Don't miss it when passing by. I'm the only one without a chain store.

In fact, if he were by my side, my life might not be like this, let alone any regrets. There are many regrets, but none of them are because of him. It doesn't matter whether he will be sad or not if I say so. I wrote it this way, but I'm not afraid of him seeing it. He can't see it. If I knew, I didn't know I was talking about him. I didn't mention my last name by name. Well, don't let him see it, or my image will be. He is a very pessimistic person, and so am I. When two people are together, they are all in tears. We will think the worst of a small matter. It's contagious anyway.

Just like Qu Xiaoyu and Miss Zhao, a little like me and him. When they are together, there will be some sweet times, and of course there will be days when there are thunderstorms. Fortunately, we gritted our teeth and survived. We didn't get through it because we liked each other, but because we wanted to get through it. It's funny to say. Even when we break up, we all want to break up with ourselves. Up to now, we all said we broke up. Of course, I said I did. It's like a life-and-death relationship. It's a bit like a pair of bad friends, a bit divorced from our lover relationship. We are very happy together, but something seems to be missing.

Qu Xiaoyu said: With you, you are not handsome and I am not cool. Let's stop here. They were in love, weren't they? So were we. But then I used my willfulness to exhaust his love for me, so I deserved it. I'm not as handsome as Qu Xiaoyu, and I love Dr. Zhao so much. Actually, I still love myself I haven't changed myself. I always wanted him to change himself and obey me. I didn't realize his fatigue and difficulties. On the contrary, it was he who made efforts for our relationship, and I exhausted his patience. I have always been selfish. Suddenly, I said it easily, but I didn't tell him myself. What a pity.

But if I really tell him this to his face, he will definitely think that I am inexplicable and narcissistic, and that I still have him in my heart. How could I possibly do that? At that time, we were actually in pain, and we didn't know if we could make it. It's very melodramatic. Every day is like Daiyu burying flowers, crying and saying that she will forget him, while still chanting his goodness. I am an awkward person, but fortunately, his sexual orientation has not changed, and even his view of love is correct, otherwise I will blame myself. I'm more afraid that I'm responsible for him. I don't want to see him now because I feel sorry for him unconsciously. I'm sorry I didn't take your book last time, so you should have a better life.