Fortune-telling in naked resignation _ Is naked resignation wise?

In a reading group, a group friend said that he thought he could save his family, so he studied hard. After my master's degree, I found that no one could save me, even I needed to save myself.

From then on, I was very disappointed in myself and never wanted to study again. Moreover, I lost my original enthusiasm for life and motivation to move forward.

Coincidentally.

Another group friend said that when I was a child, my family was poor and my parents were bullied by neighbors. He vowed to study hard, become an official when he grew up and avenge himself.

After graduating from college and entering the society, it seems that it is not so easy to be an official. So, I'm disappointed in myself.

This kind of children who study hard because they want to change the fate of their families is more common in rural areas.

My brother and I were among them.

When I was a child, because my father was an only child, he was honest and dull, and he often sighed because of the uneven division of homestead and field.

Mom is a strong person. Kind-hearted, but never let others kill you. Therefore, whenever there are contradictions and disputes, such as the captain's lack of land, the fault of three neighbors, the uncle's drunkenness and swearing, and the loafer stealing my food, it is the mother who comes forward. Father is sighing.

Mother is a woman after all. When the opponent is an unreasonable big family man, she pretends to be calm and argues. When I get home, I often hang my hands and stamp my feet and cry. Often cry until my brother and I are heartbroken and heartbroken.

We only have two eyes facing each other, and there are endless tears. Nothing can help.

My brother and I grew up slowly, and our academic performance was among the best. There were fewer and fewer people at home telling us what to do and bullying others.

I remember one year, a fortune teller came to the village. It is said that the calculation is very accurate. He turned a circle in the south of the village, his eyes fixed on the south of the village. He stroked his beard and said meaningfully, you will make great achievements in the future.

I don't know where my mother got her confidence. She insisted that this man was my brother. Although he is only in the second grade.

Slowly, the whole village knows that my brother will be a great genius in the future.

Once again, because of the homestead problem, the captain rowed less for us and more for our neighbors. There are three brothers in his family. Mother disagreed and quarreled. When the quarrel didn't win, my mother was so angry that she said a groundbreaking sentence: "In the future, all the land in the village will be planted for you, and you will live here for generations. My child is going to college and will not live here in the future! " There was a burst of laughter. You said something to me: "If you don't farm, you will drink the wind." "That is to take an examination of the university? Joke, no one in our village has ever been admitted to a university. "

My brother and I were standing next to each other. After the quarrel, I watched my mother go home and lie in bed crying.

Whenever I think of this passage, I also think of Wu Zhihong's childhood.

He said that because he was bullied by his grandparents and uncles for a long time, he was also called the Dalai Lama by village cadres. His parents are unfilial, and they often fall into a state of severe depression, especially his mother, who is so angry that she can't move in the pit when there is a slight conflict.

Without experience, it is difficult to understand the sadness of riffraff.

I don't know if my brother is clever, or inspired by his inner fighting spirit, or strongly psychologically hinted, or destined.

His grades have been very good, from primary school in the village to middle school in the town, from middle school in the town to high school in the county, from high school in the county to university in the provincial capital, and then to master's degree. I studied for a doctorate ten years ago, and my living expenses were higher than my salary.

After work, earn money to buy a house and a car. Growing up, I never let my parents worry.

Although, I also thought about changing the fate of my family through hard work. But because a brother was too "strong", he was ruthlessly crushed.

Now through some people and things, I gradually understand that no one can save me.

In other words, in the 30 years from Hexi to Hedong, great changes have taken place in the village.

Three brothers who bullied others, one died in his fifties, one was seriously ill and the other was down and out. Their children, after graduating from high school, work in different factories, and their income is only enough to make ends meet.

My uncle, when drunk, swore, robbed a taxi, killed someone by mistake and was sentenced to death. He died before he was thirty.

Last year, his only son was sentenced to three years for theft and is still in prison.

Every time I listen to my mother talk about this, or go home to see those bossy neighbors, like frost-beaten eggplant, lose their former style and feel very heavy.

Mothers often sigh and say that they are so pitiful. I said, don't you hate them for bullying us like this? Mother said, good people don't cheat the sky. Every time the villagers came to beg, I would invite them to drink a bowl of soup or eat a steamed bread, and then give them some to take away after they left. No matter how hard the days are, they have never been driven away. For nothing but poverty, it is not easy for everyone.

When reading Lu Yao's Ordinary World, I had a strong sense of substitution, and it was the Ordinary World that accompanied our brother and sister through that difficult time. Enriched our barren spiritual world.

Since then, no book has caused such a big wave in my life. I have read a book four times in two years, and in the end, I can almost recite it. Yes, recite it.

In those days, studying well depended entirely on memory.

It should be said that Ordinary World laid my initial outlook on life and values. Otherwise, I wouldn't have the courage to leave the system and walk out of that town after work. A silly clay with nothing, regardless of naked resignation, has only one cavity of blood.

When I was young, I didn't understand the word ideal. I have never thought about what I want to do and what kind of person I will become in the future. Studying hard is to repay my mother. Now, the task is completed, and suddenly, life has lost its enthusiasm and motivation. Finally, I found that there was nothing to be saved.

Therefore, reading still needs internal driving force. For example, what kind of goal do you want to achieve and what kind of person do you want to be. Where do you want to make a difference? Only in this way can we really develop.

And reading is to repay my mother. Driven by pure external force, it can't go far. Without external force, you can't walk.

Philosophy holds that the motive force of the development of things lies in the internal contradictions of things. That's right.

I later thought that if our family life was normal, my mother wouldn't be so competitive. Are our brothers and sisters like other people in the village, dropping out of junior high school or primary school, and then finding a factory to work, or learning some skills by themselves, and then getting married and having children after earning two years?

I don't know.

In fact, what really changed our later life was our love for reading extracurricular books. One by one, I finished reading my brother, or he finished reading me. Recommend and influence each other. The only fight when I was a child was because of a book. He wants to see it first, so do I.

In a village where most villages are illiterate, my brother and I were the only people who had a common language at that time. Up to now, we can talk on the phone for an hour. All things that can't be said to outsiders, and things that outsiders are inconvenient to say, can be said to each other. Because, in addition to blood ties, we also witnessed each other's growth process and spiritual world together.

Of course, there is also a common feature, that is, studying hard to repay my mother.