May you shine on the day of 20 17.

What are you doing now? Are you busy reviewing in the library? Are you painting Weibo? Or hug your lover? Or read my article. No matter what you are doing, have a brilliant day on 20 17.

? Chen Nan Sang

Sitting at my desk, I flipped through the goals I set for myself more than two months ago. Years ago, I finished writing 30,000 words and read 7 books, but none of them seemed to come true. At least now I feel I don't know what to write when I start writing again. Sometimes I suddenly want to put down my pen, put down what I am doing and do nothing. I just want to be alone quietly and let time pass. I wonder if you are like me.

My friend Ziman asked me some time ago, "How come I haven't seen you write for a long time? Didn't you say you wanted to be a writer? "

I don't know how to answer her. I just said, "Writing may just be my hobby. Just like some people like to enjoy flowers and add poems, some people like to drink when flowers bloom, and some people like to drink after the wine smells. I only write when I am inspired by generate. That's all. "

Ziman said: "People who write by inspiration can't become writers."

I suddenly recalled my brave words, and my heart choked with laughter. Yes, didn't you say you wanted to be a writer?

I once read an article written by Jiang, and I was deeply impressed by this passage: "As for writing, you may be thinking while reading books every day, or you may be walking in the crowd to observe them. Even when you are eating, you are observing the person sitting opposite you and chatting with you. Treat everyone as the material and object of writing. So it's also a big change in my life. Especially afraid of getting married and having children in the future, life suddenly becomes a normal state. What should I do with it? Actually, it's still quite scary for me now. I think writing is more important than life. Or it covers life and even goes beyond instinct. "

There is a famous saying in Kafka Diary to the effect that if you can't cope with life when you are alive, you must block the attack of heavy objects with one hand and record everything you see in the ruins with the other. "

Perhaps this is why it is easy for everyone who writes to pop up something completely different from others' ideas and use their weak strength to resist the torrent of the world.

When I was most bored, I lay in bed and watched movies all day with my mobile phone, so that I always said to Lao Zhong with a line from a Chinese Odyssey, Come, I'll give you a deep confession.

"There was a sincere love before me, and I didn't cherish it. When I lost it, I regretted it The most painful thing in the world is this. If God can give me another chance, I will say three words to that girl: I love you. If I have to add a deadline to this love, I hope it is ... ten thousand years! "

Old Zhong vomits 10,000 rounds every time he hears this.

When watching this movie, I saw the moment when Xia Zixian was stabbed by a cow, the mobile phone showed that the battery was low, and 10,000 horses passed by in my heart. It's a good thing to see the last one close. After seeing reincarnation, the Supreme Treasure said to the Supreme Treasure who became the Monkey King, "Hey, that man is like a dog."

From beginning to end, I was laughing and laughing alone, but I couldn't feel hip-hop when I saw this.

I know you wanted to be someone's hero, but in the end you didn't become a hero.

You also have dreams that you want to realize, so you try to be excellent and stay away from home until one day you look back and find that things are gone and you are no longer yourself.

Many people say, in that case, why don't you go home? Perhaps only vagrants understand that from the moment you leave home, after you make a decision, you will never be the same again.

Maybe when you look back, you will laugh at yourself like this: "Hey, that man is like a dog."

Standing on the street of a strange city, but there is no familiar corner, you find that you can't find a foothold anymore.

It was winter when I wrote this article. I don't know where you are, what season you are in, and where your story is.

Maybe you are in a city you want to stay in, maybe you haven't found your own direction and are still hesitating. It's cold in winter, so there may be no heating. But winter goes and spring comes, and spring comes and winter goes. What you can do is get used to winter and enjoy it when spring comes. Next winter comes, you won't be afraid.

Tomorrow is New Year's Day. I'm glad to have more readers. I know I'm not alone anymore.

Who will you spend the Spring Festival with this year? Who do you want to leave on the first day of the new year? If you are alone, it doesn't matter. When you read this article, I will be with you.

About our age, everyone began to have their own stories, had hard days, and had those days when they stopped to think.

I don't know if you think you are different, but you can't tell me what I have become. If you ask me, I don't know. I'm probably heartless and old.

I only know that I am easily moved by other people's stories now. I like a song no longer just because it sounds good, and I will cry when I listen to it.

Used to silently sigh youth in my heart. It is like a thorn, penetrating hypocrisy, breaking stereotypes and changing the smoothness of the world with edges and corners.

Last weekend, I went to the library. It's raining outside and it's very cold. After sitting in the library for less than half an hour, I fell asleep in my seat unconsciously. When I woke up, I didn't know whether it was because of the air conditioner or because I was really tired. I shook my head for a while, decisively took my bag and went back to sleep.

When he went back, gay friends joked, "How did you come back? Don't you have to study hard? "

I said, "Who said I was going to study? I'm going to blow the air conditioner to see if there are any beautiful girls. "

Actually, I'm not lying. I really just want to blow the air conditioner. The books in the bag are not for exams, and the articles I read are all based on my hobbies.

Some people think that when you fail the class, you will know that the books you read, the articles you write and the so-called hobbies are useless.

It seems that many people like to do everything immediately, only do meaningful things, afraid of wasting time and energy, afraid of not catching up with others. Then let me ask you, why are you in such a hurry to succeed? What is meaningful?

It suddenly occurred to me that today is Lao Deng's birthday. Although several of our good friends are not with her, we can't help her celebrate her birthday. But I really miss her and thank her very much.

Lao Deng is a very optimistic person, beautiful and generous. When she is by your side, she always brings inexplicable power to people. Cheer you up, pick up the book in your hand again, shake your sleep, bite your teeth and tremble. Let the last straw that presses you drift away with the wind.

There was a time when I especially liked to stay up late in a daze. I have no motivation to insist on doing anything. I always search hard in the library every day, but no one knows your decadent appearance. I really hated myself at that time, but I knew it was hard to change.

Everyone thinks that you have a good life, love to drink and laugh, and are friends. But only you can understand what it's like to sleep slowly at home with the lights on. If you don't make any noise, there will really be no sound in the room.

It's like someone saw your brilliance, but who knows that your tears are hurting people?

However, Lao Deng can always let you know in a way that when things change, there will always be some time to waste, and there will always be helplessness and unhappiness, so that you can stay for a short time, let you accept yourself as you are, and thank these bad days when you shine in the future.

I am grateful to have such a person by my side when I am decadent, bringing me warmth and strength.

Finally, I wish Lao Deng a happy birthday. May she be happy and safe where I can't see her.

Yes, there will always be some time to waste.

No matter what you are going through now, how hard and painful it is, or you can't see hope, or you can't see the future, without the understanding of your relatives and the comfort of your friends, you will always be alone. It doesn't matter, you have gone through the days when Dai Yue was flying and drifting with the wind, and everything was light.

You have to believe that there is no unattainable tomorrow. May you shine on the day of 20 17.

? -BGM: 10:30 subway