Most people are competing with themselves.

On the subway to Maigao Bridge, I noticed about 40 men staring at me for a while. Because he was wearing a Lily T-shirt made by the school, I thought he was an alumnus and paid attention to my dress.

Generally, when I go out, I will take a look at people wearing similar T-shirts. But I don't like being stared at for a long time, especially the opposite sex. At this time, in order not to show weakness, I will stare back at him, and most people will divert their attention. He is no exception.

Out of the subway station, I couldn't find the place I was looking for, and suddenly I found the man next to me. I think since I'm staring at each other, I'm an "acquaintance". I might as well ask him for directions.

I said the place, and he said, "I'm going to that place, too." I think it's a coincidence. But a few seconds later, he changed his mind again. "Actually, I'm going to Xiaozhuang Square."

I don't think it matters. It doesn't matter anyway.

As he approached his destination, he suddenly said, "Why don't you take an umbrella on such a hot day?"

I haven't played a parasol for a long time in summer. I thought everyone was like me. Time is speed. When running, holding an umbrella in your hand will become a burden. Until one day, my male colleague stared at my black nylon messenger bag and asked, "Why don't you buy a fashionable bag?"

Why? It never occurred to me that when they rushed to the scene, I thought everyone was as burdensome as me. But no, many girls here love beauty, and boys are cool. It seems that I am the only one who is as nervous as desperate Saburo and has not enjoyed life well.

"In fact, you are quite beautiful, but you are a little unhappy." The man went on to say, "Life is only a few decades, so it's better to be happy." I also looked at him and said, "You are mistaken. I have achieved my goal."

Who does he think he is, a fortune teller? Psychologist? Or crazy? I quickly disappeared from his sight for fear that people would spy on my heart again. Sometimes I pretend to be cool, just to hide my fragile heart.

In fact, I went to a scene of jumping off a building, and my mind was still thinking about how to write what I interviewed in the morning. When I first entered the newspaper office, Mr. Zhao told me that I couldn't be idle on the way back to the office after the scene. I had to think about my thoughts and think about the title, introduction and text.

So what men should see is a silent thinking face. Maybe in his opinion, girls my age shouldn't be like that. Maybe I should get a flamboyant haircut, take out my mobile phone and twist my body with headphones and hum to the music.

I want to do that, too, but at any age, I have never been able to live openly. Always so stiff and timid. I really don't like myself like that.

In fact, before I met him, I just "watched" a middle-aged man climb a tower crane nearby to ask for his salary. I just looked at him with a white eye and robbed him.

On the way back by subway, I received news from the leader about jumping off a building. On the phone, I just said I didn't want to go. The leader said, recently, go and have a look.

After all, I got off the subway and took the subway in the opposite direction to Maigao Bridge. I tried to adjust my mentality, trying to look calm, but I still couldn't hide my face. A 40-year-old man saw through it at once. At that time, I was still young and couldn't take care of things. Everything big seemed to weigh a thousand pounds. Up to now, there may be more ways to comfort yourself.

At that time, many colleagues and I were complacent about traveling around the world, but we became vultures in many people's eyes. The fact is, we are all good children, and we don't like watching when we are young. When we see someone quarreling, we will hide. But work urges you to join in the fun. You should be talkative and pretend to "play soy sauce" to join in the fun.

People's adaptability is still very strong. No matter how introverted people are, they will immediately become bitches when they need to work. Is this a major?

Today, a little friend asked me what I need to do if I want to switch from design to journalism. Are you sure? Many people want to switch to design. How interesting. Maybe it's something inside or outside the fence. I feel that switching from other industries to journalism is actually very popular. It would be better if I were more enthusiastic, sincere, tenacious and better at writing.