Ma Zhu tells: What's it like to grow up with childhood?

What is a golden couple? Xu Yuyu and I are made for each other.

Xu Yuyu is a child of Aunt Liu's family. Aunt Liu and my mother are hardcore sisters. They are so nice that they wear skirts. This relationship will continue to the next generation. I was born with a half-brother. The fortune teller in the square said that Aunt Liu was pregnant with a boy, but it turned out to be a girl. Later, my brother was changed to my sister.

As long as I can remember, the little girl Xu Yuyu has been following me, just like a light on the firefly's ass.

Xu Yuyu is two years younger than me. As soon as she learns to walk, I can run.

At that time, my legs ran so fast that she couldn't keep up, which made the baby cry. I looked at her from a distance and felt very happy. Then the next second, I got a slap on the back of my head, saying that I was not sensible and bullied my sister.

I can't help it I can only go back and coax her honestly, and she can coax her. After a while, she stopped crying and leaned her head against my chest, rubbing her nose all over my collar.

When I named her, Aunt Liu and my mother discussed whether to call her "Jade Girl" or "Golden Boy" to make me lucky. Uncle Xu thought that "Xu Yunv" sounded awkward, so he changed it to "Xu Yuyu".

However, the names of the golden couple have been decided. Since then, relatives, big and small, have got married, and friends have received wedding banquets. Xu Yuyu and I are indispensable. We have seen many "big scenes" at an early age.

At school, we didn't often play together. She is young, one grade lower than me. Seriously, the first grade of primary school may be one of the few happy and free days in my life.

Although you all think it's good to have a childhood playmate, the fact is not that simple. She is still young, and I must lead and teach her everything.

Besides, she is a girl, which is not discrimination. I mean, boys prefer to play with boys. After all, I can't take her everywhere to tease cats and dogs, climb walls and turn over yards, and my mother won't pull my ears out if she knows.

Unfortunately, the good times did not last long. Xu Yuyu came to school in grade two. She is in grade one, and she goes upstairs and downstairs with me. There was only a ten-minute recess, so she had to come to see me once.

No, I'm surprised that dozens of boys and girls in your class are not enough to play with you. When I get used to it, she won't come much. I guess she had a good time with her classmates and forgot my brother.

Hey, you don't come, you don't come. I'm still happy to be at leisure.

When I was in junior high school, it was the time when boys and girls fell in love. There are some ambiguous factors between boys and girls, and a slightly intimate relationship will cause turmoil in the class.

Girls are fine, but subtle. These boys are not. They all have dog noses. I get excited at the smell of hormones, as if I had beaten chicken blood.

Every time Xu Yuyu comes to see me, there are always people around me booing. I get bored and dry when I listen to it. When I caught two, I kicked their asses. Later, I learned my lessons one by one, and then I stayed away from me when I was heckling.

Although I have no wild desires for Xu Yuyu, I am always happy when she comes over. I feel a little proud, but I still have strength on my face, pretending to be indifferent, and even a little impatient.

There is a word to describe this state, arrogance, hey, what is arrogance, and that is meanness. No adolescent boy is mean. The little girl gave a good face and her tail could fly to the sky.

Although my tail is inevitably cocked, I never think that Xu Yuyu likes me. She is like a tomboy, with short hair, her skin is tanned by the sun every morning exercise, and her manners are casual and informal. When she greeted me, she patted her back so that I could hear chest resonance. She felt like she was beaten in bed by my mother when she was a child, so I once suspected that Xu Yuyu inherited my mother's iron sand palm.

Not only that, only half a semester, she got acquainted with my buddy, and she got acquainted with me to a higher degree than me. She talks and laughs all day. What a shame! I told her not to come again. What a bad influence you have as a little girl. If Aunt Liu knows, she will definitely suspect you of puppy love.

She listened for the first three days, but didn't come. The fourth day, she came again. This time she not only came by herself, but also brought two female classmates. She told me that more people are not afraid of being misunderstood.

Is that what I said? What does this have to do with the number of people! The two little girls who came with her look smart. They didn't talk much, but their eyes were a little vivid and they looked at me for a while.

Xu Yuyu also encouraged students to communicate more and winked at me. If I can't see it again, I'll be silly. Besides, this girl is here to help me!

I was so angry that I ignored her for several days and ordered my buddies to ignore her. I haven't studied hard since I was a child, thinking about something all day.

As a brother, I take the initiative to lead by example and devote myself to my study. At the same time, I also supervised her and prohibited her from puppy love.

So I think she can keep good grades for so many years, half of which is due to me.

02

I went to college in other places in the year of her college entrance examination, and my life was very moist. Every day, except for classes, I enjoy my life with my roommates. After playing games for more than half a semester, I got a cramp in my finger when I took the pen.

Later, when no one was around, I quietly ran out to fall in love.

Falling in love in college is a compulsory course. There used to be a family to prevent puppy love. After graduation, I have no chance to go by myself. Only on the university campus, the last stop of the student era, is a good time to fall in love.

I wasn't interested at first, but watching my roommates in pairs every day and going to the library can also disturb the mandarin ducks in the Woods.

My family also urged me to find a girlfriend, talk for a few years, and try to decide the important events in my life as soon as possible-I can't figure out why my elders are always in such a hurry. However, in the long run, I also moved my heart.

There was a girl in the next class at that time, which was quite suitable. Her name is Xiaoyu, sweet and lovely, and she sings very well. She always appears at club parties. And I think she is a little interested in me, so I asked several buddies for her contact information and decided to take the initiative.

I don't have much love experience, and I'm not good at getting along with girls. The only one who has a good relationship is Xu Yuyu, but it won't work for other girls to take my relationship with her.

I am outspoken. At first, I always made Xiaoyu angry. Only through the teaching of our brothers did our relationship stabilize.

That was May, wasn't it? I suddenly thought of Xu Yuyu.

The college entrance examination is coming, and adults at home are more strict with such an important exam than usual, not to mention computer chat, cell phones and phone calls. We haven't contacted each other for half a year, and I don't know how her review is going.

As soon as this idea came out, Xu Yuyu seemed to have telepathy with me and gave me a call.

She deliberately lowered her voice, and her tone was urgent. When she heard it, she secretly took the mobile phone.

I asked her if her review was good and if she had confidence. Her tone was relaxed. She told me not to worry and wait for her at school.

She wants to report to my school? I'm a little surprised to hear that. With her academic performance, she can go to a better place if she performs normally. It's not worth hanging out with me here.

I advised her to reconsider. After all, it's no small matter. It is different from eating the same set meal, buying the same style of clothes and reading the same books ... It is related to her later life, so she must choose carefully.

She was silent for a long time, only hearing hissing breathing. I thought she was angry. I was about to speak when she suddenly said, I like you.

I didn't react and paused.

She said, I like you, I want to be your girlfriend, you wait, I will come to you soon.

There hung up the phone, I haven't recovered, Xu Yuyu likes me, or that kind of love.

I hadn't thought about this at all before, and I didn't realize that we grew up together, and the two families were close, at best, a brotherhood. It's not that you can't hide if you like someone. Why don't I feel anything?

When I talk about Xu Yuyu, my mind is still full of the little girl who wiped her tears and nose on me.

Besides, when I was in high school, she helped me catch up with the class flower in her class. If she likes me, how can she help me? I wonder if she is making fun of me.

Xiaoyu pulled my sleeve to remind me that it was time for class. She looked at me in the clouds and asked me if there was anything wrong.

I told her a lot about Xu Yuyu. After all, she was more or less involved in all the stupid things I did when I was a child. But Xiaoyu doesn't seem willing to listen. Every time I just say a few words, she looks unhappy.

I told her that was my sister, my half-sister. Xiaoyu looked contemptuous and said that you boys recognize your sister, and you are not sensible when you are young, so you put it in your pocket.

I had a clear conscience when I heard this before, but now I can't help feeling guilty.

03

On the day of my freshman report, I greeted her as a senior and looked around anxiously. Sure enough, I saw Xu Yuyu in the crowd. She stood downstairs in the dormitory with a pile of luggage. Uncle Xu and Aunt Liu were busy packing things for her from the car.

I went up to say hello and help her with her luggage. I gave her a reproachful look and said that she wouldn't listen to advice. Then why on earth did she come here?

Xu Yuyu is in a good mood. Sad Mimi told me that what she said on the phone before was true. Let me think about it. Everyone is familiar with it. If you have an idea, say it. Don't be shy.

At that time, I didn't know how to speak, so I passed in a fog and deliberately pulled Xiaoyu at lunch. I told Xu Yuyu that I had a girlfriend, but I didn't. I don't think that way about her, and we can't do it.

Xu Yuyu didn't speak, low head to eat. She didn't come to see me much after that. She just said hello when she met me on the road. It looks the same as before, but we all know it is different. Those embarrassments and embarrassment have become a thorn in our side.

I feel very lost. After all, I grew up playing with a big friendship, and once I was alienated, I was embarrassed.

When I am alone, I always fantasize that if I didn't fall in love with Xiaoyu, I would really be with Xu Yuyu.

Xu Yuyu is not beautiful, but she has regular facial features and well-proportioned features, which makes her look more comfortable. My personality hasn't changed, but I have converged a little, and I'm not as careless as before.

This character is quite good, but it is easy to get along with each other for a long time, which I have a deep understanding of. Xu Yuyu is simple and doesn't understand the complicated ways of the world. He feels that there is always warmth and goodwill in this world, and everyone has their own difficulties. It is not easy for anyone to live, so he embraces everyone.

Having eaten more than her for two years, I think she is still too young. After staying in college for a few years, running away from the student union and dealing with roommates, I knew how difficult life was. Everyone has difficulties, but not everyone is as kind as her.

I just didn't expect her to fall in love.

That day, I came out of the library and crossed a path. As soon as I looked up, I saw that she was pressed against a tree by a boy and they were kissing. Somehow, I was so angry that I pulled the boy away and gave him a hard push. Only then did I realize that he was actually my roommate, Li Kai.

Shit, Zhao Jintong, you're fucking sick!

Li Kai saw it was me, tore open his throat angrily and scolded me, and rushed to fight with me. I certainly can't be a coward. I will wrestle with him soon, and the war will come to an impasse. Nobody will give up first. Later, the farce was stopped in time by the passing dean, and ended with a written examination and a school notice.

Li Kai and I both hung up the flowers, and no one took advantage of anyone. After that, Xu Yuyu and Li Kai broke up. I am very happy and feel that this plane is not wasted.

I went to the infirmary to change my dressing, and Xu Yuyu was with me. I told her that I didn't mean to mess with her and not let her fall in love, but I absolutely can't talk to Li Kai. The girls around him changed one crop after another, broke up with others every time after sleeping, and showed off with us in the dormitory. What scum.

Really in love, we can't talk to such people.

Xu Yuyu bit her lip and looked at me, her eyes sparkling. I smiled and comforted her. You didn't lose or get beaten, so why are you crying?

She opened her mouth and hesitated several times as if to say something.

Xiaoyu took the medicine back and stepped on the marble floor of the corridor with her heel. Mao Mao got closer and closer. Xu Yuyu glanced at the door, but didn't speak again after all, just let me have a good rest and recovery, and she will come to see me again in a few days.

She said so, but she never came again. I sent her a text message, and she only wrote a few words at a time, which didn't hurt or itch.

According to her roommate, she spends every day in the library or dormitory except classes. In short, she has no extracurricular activities and has little contact with people.

Now, we have less chance to meet each other.

04

University life passes quickly. In the first year after leaving school, I worked as an intern in a state-owned enterprise. Only then did I realize how good school life was. I don't have to rent a house, worry about my livelihood and be careful. I work hard every day.

People always go out of campus to learn well. The ancients were honest and didn't bully me.

Two months later, I became a full-time employee. Even if my job was temporarily stable, the old-fashioned life events were put on the table again.

My relationship with Xiaoyu in these years can't be said to be bad, but it can't be said to be too good. Talking about love for a long time will become a habit, and the sense of existence will decrease.

I don't usually feel anything. When it comes to marriage, I'm actually a little hesitant. I think we are still young and our work has just improved. It's a little too urgent to talk about marriage now.

I talked to Xiaoyu about this matter, and she also thinks that now is not a good time. We haven't got any savings, enough social experience and a firm foothold. Getting married is really too hasty.

I think it's good that Xiaoyu can think so. Although some people around her say that she is realistic, there is nothing wrong with reality. After all, no one is a child, can't daydream all day and live a life full of love and water.

Life is realistic and rational.

As for Xu Yuyu, she went abroad to study after graduation and got a full scholarship, so she didn't spend a penny at home. It seems that the library has not been abandoned in recent years. I am a little proud, and I have made some achievements in urging her to study.

For the next few years, I lived like this and was still busy running around. I also contact Xu Yuyu occasionally. Slowly, the contact between me and her became less and less. In the past, we discussed everything together, either you or me. We really got along like brothers and sisters, and no one could live without anyone.

Over the years, for various reasons, we have gradually separated from the role of brother and sister.

05

I was really surprised to see her again after three years. I also went to pick her up the day she returned to China. I saw her coming with a suitcase. She still has crisp short hair. She seems to have grown taller, her skin is much whiter than before, and her face is lightly made up. It is very clean and beautiful.

She has grown up. She's an adult.

A few days later, our two families got together for a meal. I look at her from time to time. In the warm yellow light, my face is still the same, but I feel that she is completely different from the little girl I remember.

When I mentioned that I was getting married, she looked up at me with complicated eyes. Yes, Xiaoyu and I are getting married. When we got home, we were in a hurry and had some savings, so we wanted to get it done quickly.

More importantly, Xiaoyu is pregnant. I didn't know about it until recently. I am going to be a father.

After dinner, Xu Yuyu and I strolled back and walked from Jianshe Road where I used to go to school to Hongshan Road in front of my house. The shops in this street have been transformed, only a few old shops are still there, and the traces of the past are faintly discernible.

I teased her. You see, time flies. I'm going to be a father in a blink of an eye. When will you bring your boyfriend back?

She went straight ahead without picking on me, and the atmosphere was awkward for a while.

Walking to the door of the community, I suddenly saw a familiar figure, Xiaoyu, getting off a private car and hurrying. I subconsciously called her and she suddenly turned around. Although she is a little far away, I still obviously feel her panic and tension.

Xiaoyu was a little excited to know that I was going to Xu Yuyu for dinner tonight. Now when she sees us walking together, her face is even worse and her tone of voice is a bit stiff.

She said, Golden Boy and I are getting married soon. You should come to the wedding next month.

Xu Yuyu nodded and said that she would definitely go. Then she left.

I looked at Xiaoyu and thought she was a little strange tonight. The whole person is in a panic. See Xu Yuyu's reaction is surprisingly large. Although they have not been dealt with before, they just ignore each other at best. It's really rare to have a needle in your eye like today.

Xu Yuyu, these two women are not normal today.

When I got home, Xiaoyu hugged me and said that she was just looking after the house. I walked with Xu Yuyu, and I felt panic for no reason. I didn't control my emotions at that time.

I know pregnant women are sensitive, so I comfort her not to take it to heart and not to be afraid, because we will get married soon.

I'm actually comforting myself by saying this. The coming rain, at that time, I vaguely had something to happen. It was not until a week later that Xu Yuyu pushed a pile of photos in front of me that I realized that those premonitions were well-founded.

In the photo, Xiao Yu has a close relationship with another man, kissing in the car and going in and out of the same hotel. Xu Yuyu said that she happened to meet Xiaoyu for dinner with that man. I heard that I was getting married, so I didn't trust her, so I secretly checked it.

I know you are getting married, she said, but I think it is necessary for you to know about it.

It suddenly occurred to me that when I was in college, I fought with Li Kai for her. At that time, I seemed to have said the same thing, except that she was a teenager and I was infatuated.

I asked about the photo of Xiaoyu, about the man, and then I got worried and asked about the child.

Xiaoyu said that the man's name is Xu Gang, whom she met at work. We were fighting during that time, and she was in a bad mood. In addition, Xu Gang expressed his love for her, pursued her affectionately, and tied a tie, so they rolled on the bed.

She knew it was wrong, and she wanted to break up with me, and it was justified to be with Xu Gang. But she didn't expect that Xu Gang was married.

Xu Gang has a family and a career. He's definitely not getting divorced. He said that he really loves Xiaoyu, but he can't marry her and give her a birthright.

He also said that people are like this now, they want stability and excitement, and so do young people. She can get married, become a lawful wife and pursue happiness with the person she loves.

Xiaoyu said with a smile, of course she doesn't believe Xu Gang's bullshit, but she really loves him.

As for the children, Xiaoyu himself doesn't know who his father is. She just wanted to give her children a complete family, so she said she would marry me.

When she came back in Xu Gang's car that day and saw Xu Yuyu, she suddenly felt that she was caught between Scylla and Charybdis. Xiaoyu said that she always felt that there was something special and tenacious between Xu Yuyu and me. She couldn't understand it, and kept cutting it, only to let it develop secretly.

She said, after all these years, the golden boy Xu Yuyu, she is no longer a child. You can't always dwell on the past. You have to look carefully.

I know what she means. The authorities are fascinated, and so is she. No one can choose himself cleanly on emotional issues.

I broke up with Xiaoyu, and the wedding plan fell through. I told her that I would do an appraisal when the baby was born, and if it was mine, I would definitely raise it. She smiled and said nothing.

Xu Yuyu knew this and patted me on the shoulder consolingly. There are plenty of fish in the sea, and there must be really suitable people.

I asked her, is that you?

It makes no sense for me to say these things. Xiaoyu said that there is some special emotion between us, but I don't know what it is.

She was silent for a moment and said that Freud believed that people spent their whole lives making up for their childhood deficiencies. I did like you before, the kind of love between men and women. But now, I don't know whether I love you simply or to make up for my regret.

She smiled and shrugged. Anyway, we have nothing, so you don't have to be too serious.

I was suddenly relieved to hear her say this. She doesn't understand what I don't understand. I said to Xu Yuyu, we still have time and opportunity, and we can consider it slowly.

We are a natural couple, and we are destined to be together from birth. No one can say what will happen in the future, but whether it is family friendship or love, we will definitely continue to struggle.

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