Meditation on Addiction Treatment —— Subconscious Addiction

Last night, I meditated on detoxification. The thumb is pressed on the temple, and every time the posterior alveolar bone is squeezed, the muscles under the temple are pulled. At first, I just bit it and didn't feel it. Later, I felt a dull pain and my thumb didn't dare to push too hard. I usually bring out the feeling of migraine, which seems to be in the same position, and it is all on the right.

I reviewed the word "addiction" this morning. I thought I had no chance with myself. When I think about it, I'm scared. It turns out that I am a heavy addict.

"Even if we are not addicted to smoking, gluttony, alcoholism or drugs, we are subconsciously addicted to acceptance, enterprising, rejection and love. And all this has led to our insecurity and neurotic behavior patterns. "

Since I started online classes, my sleep has started to rise and fall again, and most of my sleep is related to classes. At first, I felt that the workload was too heavy for my body to bear, so I invited teacher Xingyuan to take it with me. Later, I learned that it was not the workload, but the subconscious "addiction" that made me go up and down:

Attacking sex addiction-an addiction that blends into the bone marrow. As long as everything starts, we must do it better and better, fearing that there will be stagnation and decline in the middle, so it is like a full bow. Every time I approach the course cycle, I feel a little anxious: I am worried that I will not renew my application and that the number of students will decrease in the next period; I always feel that I have to do something, do more. My brain keeps spinning and I can't stop. The advantage is that there will be new ideas, new ideas, and the disadvantage is that you always think positively. When it is not as expected, you will start to fall into the trap of self-doubt, which will hinder sustainability, just like a tight rubber band is easy to break and lose its elasticity.

Is that courageous? I think the key lies in the focus and evaluation. If we take external factors as the standard, such as the number of students, students' preferences, etc., it is inevitable that we will be anxious and even please. If the class, inner awareness and students' experience are the standards, there will be a little progress every day, which is extremely subtle and even unknown to outsiders. For example, our breathing will be smoother and students will go deeper.

Love addiction-the biggest lesson in my life. Recently, Mr Wang told two dreams. First we were hunted together, and then I was cut. He hugged me and ran like hell. One is that he fled with his son, and as a result, his son was caught and he went to save him. Asked how to interpret dreams, he said he was worried about me, afraid of being hurt by others, worried about his son, and felt that he was still not strong enough. I jokingly asked if I wanted to listen to the gossip version of Interpretation of Dreams. "The essence of the two dreams is the same, that is, the unfinished affection for the family, or obsession. This is the source of happiness for my son and me, and it may also be the source of your pain, because there will always be separation and loss. Either I change my mind or I leave early, there will always be a moment; And persistent insecurity and fear. Do you want to meditate together to get rid of nightmares? " He glanced at me and probably said, "What a crow's mouth, so inhuman."

I'm not emotional. I'm used to my mother's love for her children, and I can't stand drifting away. I told my children a long time ago that I would help you take care of your children and live with you. I am very disdainful and used to love and hate in marriage. It seems that it has nothing to do with me. But I am also greedy for others' kindness to me and the good feelings in the relationship. I know that relationships are always the bubble of dreams, but I still can't let go. I want to continue, and I have to tell my fortune. It's funny to think about yourself, but I just can't help it.

What else is recognized, accepted and recognized ... is a subconscious addiction, not knowing it because of internal friction and imbalance. How much marketing is virtually addictive? ...

This is a subconscious addiction, but also a force addiction. If I can get rid of it, I am willing to uproot it.

Abstinence meditation, more violent!