I once deeply fed the dog, drank a glass of wine to respect the past, and never looked back.

The girl's name is Shirley, and she is 22 years old. She once had a love affair.

The boy Shirley likes is tall and thin, and has dimples when he smiles. The poor boy who came out of the ravine, a 22-year-old boy, is no different from other young people, full of ideals and full of hormones. The boy hugged Shirley and swore affectionately that he would try his best to make money and make Shirley live a good life.

Shirley likes this boy very much, fantasizing about their future every day, even thinking about the names of their future children and how to decorate the house.

Shirley certainly knew that he was poor, so she patted his chest every time and said, "Nothing, let's make money together." .

Shirley knows that the boy likes to eat pizza with toast on the roadside. 10 yuan. Every time after class, she would hold his hand to buy him one and watch him gobble it up. "Don't you like it?" The boy asked her.

"I don't like eating." Shirley said happily. Touching the tight purse in her pocket with her hand is less than 100 yuan, but it is already her living expenses for half a month. So is Shirley's family. She seldom asks for money at home and buys a bag of discounted slices of bread to put in the dormitory. When she was hungry, she chewed a few pieces and swallowed them with boiling water. When the roommate asked, she faltered and said that she was losing weight.

During the three years from my freshman year to my junior year, my feelings with that boy became deeper and deeper, but like other couples, we would quarrel, have a cold war, make up, and our feelings gradually broke down. Shirley still firmly believes in some bitterness of life and some ideals doomed to embarrassment. Because of him, friends around her asked her why and how she thought this boy was not particularly good to her, and sometimes he was very lofty. Shirley said:

Later, they broke up. In that bakery, the boy bought a strawberry cake and a cup of yogurt. It was the most generous time for boys. The boy fell in love with another girl in the finance department. The girl's family is very good and can give the boy a bright future. The boy said guiltily, I'm sorry, Shirley, I let you down, but I have no choice. .....

Shirley still smiled and said, don't explain too much, I understand. I hope you will be happy in the future. ......

2:

Falling in love again is the second year after graduation. Shirley met a boy from another department of the company.

The boy is one year older than Shirley. When he first met Shirley in the elevator, he fell in love with her. If something happens, he likes to go to Shirley's department. Everybody knows that Shirley is not Woodenhead, and that the other person likes him, but she doesn't seem to be touched, and she is hot and cold to that boy.

Later, because of one thing, Shirley accepted him seriously. Once, Shirley had a bad cold. In order not to delay her work, she struggled to get to work. At noon, after a busy morning, Shirley fainted in the office, and her colleagues in the office were in chaos. Only the boy pushed aside the noisy crowd, picked her up and rushed downstairs. On the way to the hospital, Shirley vaguely felt his urgent distress and kept calling her name.

That day, he held Shirley's hand and stayed with her in the ward all night. When Shirley woke up, she saw his tight and tired face at a glance. At that moment, Shirley felt warm. At that moment, she decided to accept him.

The boy loves her very much. Every morning, he goes to the downstairs of her residence on time to buy breakfast. It's hot and the temperature is just right. Then he took her hand and protected her on the right when he walked. That kind of love made Shirley feel safe, but she felt a little guilty. She knows very well that she still can't forget her first love. She might be grateful to be with him. It seems that she owes money and can't pay it back, so she can only stay with him.

Once shopping, Shirley went back to the street and stood in the bakery, looking at the sign that had not changed. The freshly baked bread pizza was still in the window.

"I'm hungry." Shirley said thoughtfully to the boy.

The boy took her in, bought a whole piece of toast pizza and yogurt, handed it to Shirley and covered her with a straw. Shirley's heart is inexplicably sour, and her eyes are a little moist. She knows that if she really loves someone, every detail will be completely revealed. She couldn't help crying at the thought of the boy she first fell in love with sitting opposite and wolfing down. The boy lovingly wiped the tears from her face with a tissue and watched carefully.

Shirley cried even more sadly.

The boy came over and hugged her. "I allow you to still have him in your heart, as long as I can be by your side, no matter what time."

Shirley hugged him tightly. Shook his head. "No, not from now on."

Without his first love, but with a loving and tolerant person like him, his affection gradually became desolate, calming the panic in Shirley's heart.

3:

That boy is so devoted to Shirley that all his colleagues around him envy her. Shirley's broken heart slowly healed, and she also felt that she should go on with this boy. But it is easy to fall in love, but difficult to get along with. After two years of stumbling, each other's advantages gradually faded. Slowly, the boy lost patience with Shirley and his life became more and more shaky.

When we couldn't support each other, we finally broke up. No noise, no tearing, we parted quietly. After a lot of walking, everyone is tired. After the separation, Shirley moved to another city, changed her mobile phone and started living alone again. Later, he asked his old colleague to bring her a bracelet, a crystal clear jade bracelet with Shirley's name engraved on it. Shirley remembered that she had been to the ancient city of Lijiang, Yunnan. She took a fancy to this bracelet, read it over and over again, and put it on her wrist for a long time without taking it off. At that time, the boy didn't say anything, but his old colleague said it took him some time to save enough money to buy this bracelet.

Wearing it on her wrist, Shirley walked against the sun, the bracelet flashed, and she cried. She knows very well that if she doesn't love, she really doesn't love. The other party heard that a girl was introduced at home and got married at the end of the year.

Send away an old colleague and ask him to bring a big red envelope to the boy. On the back, it says: I wish you happiness.

4:

In Lijiang, Yunnan, Shirley saw a message wall. She firmly remembered a sentence inside, which said: In your life, you will always meet three people: the first one you love, the second one who loves you, and the last one who is right.

At the age of 28, she gradually faded away from the innocence of a girl, gradually learned to be indifferent, cut her hair, liked dark clothes, drank a lot of coffee, occasionally drank some wine and smiled at the flowers, which were full of relief.

She met her later husband and her story was similar. Shirley has never asked him anything about the past, and he has never been curious about Shirley's past. They get along quietly, leaning on his arm in the warm sunny afternoon, reading books and listening to music. They used to roll in their own mud, causing dust scars, crying and growing up in their own world, and finally relying on each other in such a stable sunshine.

Looking at the gentleman beside her, Shirley smiled with relief. She knows that this moment is the happiness she has been pursuing.

There is no need to accommodate each other, compromise for anyone, tolerate each other, don't ask the past, and promise the future. They just want to go on. The happiness they pursue is nothing more than the stability of the world, a place to live, and avoiding ups and downs.

Later, she met her first boy in the street. The boy looked at Shirley abstractedly. Shirley is carrying a bag of vegetables, and there is a packaged toasted pizza in it.

"I thought you didn't like toast pizza?" He said.

"My husband likes it."

"I broke up with that girl. After breaking up, I talked about a few unsatisfactory things. I'm sorry for you before. " The boy said.

"Nothing, it's over." Shirley said happily.

"How do you go back? Otherwise, I'll give you a ride ... "The boy asked.

"No, my husband will pick it up."

"So ... goodbye."

"Well, goodbye."

Time has killed everything in the past, and we don't need to miss it again.

On the way home, Shirley looked at the driver with a resolute face and gentle eyes looking at the co-pilot from time to time.

It snowed this winter, and she subconsciously pulled her husband's clothes. In the heated carriage, songs are flowing, Anita Mui's "It seems like an old friend is coming".

"Is it cold outside for so long?" He asked.

"Not cold, warm." Shirley looked at him tenderly.

He smiled.

"When I am 80 years old, I don't remember what you will do?" Shirley asked suddenly.

"Never mind, I just remember you." He said seriously.