Dear baby, welcome to my world!

Dear baby, today is the day when you came into this world. Your mother, that is, I, will soon enter the operating room. I thought of writing you a letter a long time ago to commemorate this special day.

I've been thinking about what title to use for a long time. If it is too sensational, it will inevitably become a title party. If it is easier to think like this, I sincerely welcome you and welcome you to my world!

Of course, you couldn't see my letter when you were born, but maybe you will see it later. Before you were born, you should know everything about you.

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Want you? Don't want you.

Knowing that you existed was during the National Day holiday last year. I suddenly feel sick and want to throw up. I vomited all my food and drink, and I kept burping from morning till night. At first I thought it was indigestion. I bought Jianwei Xiaoshi tablets, which is useless. Later I thought it was gastritis. I went to the drugstore to buy some stomach medicine. After eating for a week, it still didn't work.

In fact, I also thought about whether I was pregnant, so I tested it with early pregnancy test paper, and the parallel bars were not obvious. Later, your grandmother dragged me to the hospital for examination, only to find that you had been in my stomach for almost two months and could already hear your own heartbeat. After knowing the news, my mood is very complicated. To be honest, I didn't expect you to come so soon. Your father and I are still going to get married first, and then rest for a year before having children.

Because your mother, that is, I, has been smoking and drinking since I graduated from college, and has been eating mafulong for almost seven or eight years. During the premarital check-up, the doctor said that my uterus development was a little slow because I had been eating Marvelon for a long time, so I planned to stop using Marvelon and use a condom. I traveled to Tibet with your father for a month in the summer vacation and bought a box of condoms. None of them are useful.

When I came back, I bought another box of Marvelon and ate it for a month. So, you see, in the first two months of my pregnancy, I not only smoked and drank, but also drank saffron (used for abortion in ancient times). I took a lot of birth control pills and stomach medicine. I also ate melatonin because of insomnia. Not only did I go swimming in the reservoir, but I also did a lot of strenuous exercise that might cause your miscarriage.

In a word, I ate everything a pregnant woman shouldn't eat, and I did everything I shouldn't do, so everyone is worried about your health. Relatives and friends around me advised me to abort you before getting pregnant, because if you have any problems, it's not just you who will suffer, and maybe I will blame you for raising you in the future.

But your father and I can't bear to be apart. Your father said that you were given to us by Tibet. Tibet is a sacred place, and you are a sacred existence. We decided to keep you until the pregnancy test found something wrong with you. Facts have proved that you are indeed a sacred child. You have passed all the tests, big and small. I know you are healthy and strong. In this way, you have been in my stomach until today, and you will be born soon.

To tell the truth, I didn't give up smoking and drinking during the ten months when you were in your mother's belly. I can eat whatever I want and do whatever I want, which worries your father and grandparents, but I have always been full of confidence in you. You will be very healthy, just like me. You must be lucky, just like me.

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Have a natural birth? Caesarean section?

One question that every pregnant mother needs to face is whether to give birth naturally or by caesarean section. Which is better, natural delivery or caesarean section? This problem is as unsolved as chicken and egg.

I looked up a lot of information, watched a lot of videos, and learned all the advantages and disadvantages of the two and the experiences and experiences of many people who have been there. Bottom line: it is better to suit yourself and your baby.

I hesitated throughout my pregnancy. But in the end, I chose caesarean section. Since I chose caesarean section, I will only talk about its advantages, because it is precisely because of these advantages that I chose it. This is the same as choosing the other half. Since I chose your father, I only considered his merits. It is because of these advantages that I chose your father. If I always think about his shortcomings and compare him with others, I will be unhappy.

The advantages of active caesarean section are as follows:

In a word, compared with these advantages, it doesn't matter what scar you leave on your stomach, it's harmful to your health and your recovery is slow.

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When were you born?

Well, since we have decided to have a caesarean section, we should consider when to do it. According to the due date, you should be born around May 20th, which is a good day. I had hoped to get a marriage certificate with your father on this day, but this hope was dashed because of your early arrival, so I especially hope to give birth to you on this day as a gift for your father.

But your grandmother took your father's and me's horoscope to tell fortune, saying that you were not suitable to be born on this day and chose several other so-called good days for you. I was not superstitious about these things. If it's just me, I'll stick to my idea and be not afraid of anything, but this time I'm a little scared, because it has something to do with you, and I don't want anything to happen to you.

I even wrote these days on a piece of paper for you to choose by throwing paper balls. After all, this is your business. I didn't expect you to choose 520 like me, and finally made an appointment with a doctor to cut it out for you one day in advance. This is a good day for you to choose by counting eight characters. I don't expect you to be rich or expensive in the future. I just hope you will be safe, healthy and happy.

So, please remember this date, 20 19 May 19, 5 19, and I want wine. I hope you like drinking as much as I do, so that you can drink with me when you grow up. Hum, your father doesn't even drink with me.

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Milk powder? Breast milk?

Well, we have solved the problem of how to have you, and then we have to solve the problem of how to raise you. Breastfeeding or milk powder, like caesarean section or natural delivery, has its own advantages and disadvantages, so I won't go into details here, just look it up online. Of course, almost everyone around me advised me to breastfeed, but I never wavered in my determination not to breastfeed.

Maybe someone will scold me from a moral point of view why I don't breastfeed my children, but I don't care, because I know myself very well. I am a very selfish person, which will not change because I am a mother. In my opinion, not breastfeeding is good for both of us.

First of all, I like drinking and eating spicy food. Maybe one day I can't hold it, and you will get wine milk or spicy milk, which is not delicious.

Secondly, I don't have to be a feeder, I'm always ready. You can eat and drink as much as you like, lose weight at will, come and go freely, and be extremely happy. Maybe being a happy mother is more beneficial to you than being a perfect mother.

Thirdly, if you don't drink my milk, you won't be so dependent on me, whether physically or psychologically; I won't breast-feed you, and I won't be so dependent on you. I always feel that you can't live without me. This is conducive to our independence. I don't want to be a possessive or controlling mother, because I gave birth to you and raised you. You are mine, so you have to listen to me, or you will be rebellious. This is moral kidnapping, this is not love.

So, dear baby, I don't want to endure long and painful torture in order to give birth to you, nor do I want to sacrifice my freedom and happiness in order to breastfeed. I don't want my love for you to be based on sacrificing myself. I hope that I will be happy no matter the process of pregnancy, the process of giving birth to you or the process of raising you, so that I can love you without asking for anything in return.

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Write it at the end

Well, I wrote so much unconsciously. I won't write your gender and give you a name today. No matter you are a boy or a girl, no matter what your last name is, you are my beloved baby.

I'm going into the operating room. You know, having a baby is a risky thing, and no one can guarantee that nothing will happen, so can I.

Dear baby, I love you, and I want to have you, but I also prepared for the worst. If you are unfortunately a child without a mother, please don't be sad, because there will be many people who love you in this world. Your father, your grandparents and grandparents all love you very much. Their love will not be less than your mother's, and her mother will continue to love you where you can't see it.

Of course, this is the worst case. And I always believe that we are lucky, my father and I and you, our family of three, will live a happy life from now on. We will grow up with you and feel the world together!

Welcome, my baby! !

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