Why does the germination of love always happen after the breakdown of love?

There are only a few people sitting in McDonald's, scattered around. I sit near the road, from where I can see people walking in different postures. I sometimes stop, take a sip of coke, and then look out a few times. Through an almost transparent glass, I watch people outside rush like flies in the hot sun and feel as cool as water.

They say that men gradually mature in love again and again, while women quietly practice a hard shell in love again and again, and then put all kinds of inexplicable fantasies that have multiplied into branches into the shell and hide them from fermentation.

This is not true.

2.

His name is Gezi, and he is my classmate.

I didn't think highly of him at that time. He is neither tall nor handsome. He is very diligent. He likes to pester the English teacher with questions. He is so enthusiastic that he greets everyone. He is as simple as his name, that's all.

When I was a senior, I went to the following school as an intern and was in my class. Occasionally, some communication is just work communication. Besides, we went out to eat together.

A pool of spring water is calm.

3.

1When I came back from my internship at the end of October, I was freed from a hopeless love. There were few classes and a lot of time at that time. I spend most of my time in the dormitory reading, surfing the Internet or staring blankly.

When I am alone, I use playing cards to tell my fortune. Fate changes on a pile of colored cards. I'm not sure about my future. I thought it was a fruit hanging high on the branch, just out of reach. Maybe it's like the tail light of a firefly, which can only illuminate the back, but it can't illuminate its own front.

I'm waiting for my birth year.

I believe that all unhappy things will get a turn for the better in my birth year, and I will gradually mature and tend to be stable in the constant waiting. In the two cycles of the zodiac, I long for a sunny spring. I look forward to giving myself a good explanation for that turning point. After getting rid of impetuosity and boredom, I walked naked with my head held high in the street, like a depilated roast duck.

4.

In the next semester of senior year, the unit has also been implemented, and the rest is to kill time with a group of sisters and play one last game on the eve of parting.

I always feel that there is a big blank in my heart, and the ruins of my feelings are quietly waiting for someone to fill it. There is a person living in the house in my heart, even if I know it is temporarily rented, it can make me feel less empty.