What kind of fate am I?

Sometimes, I really want to know what my destiny is. . Why are there always so many disappointments and so many successes? Last year was about 10. Grandma helped me calculate my life. "fortune teller" said; My life is too good to be boarded, so that our family can't get it. What if it has no defects? Then I don't exist. In fact, myself.

Knowing this fate, the fortune teller shook his head and said; My fate is not good. He didn't make it clear. Even if he didn't tell me, I knew my fate was nothing. Not being understood by my family, understanding my difficulties. This is my destiny. My family is ok, but they don't understand my difficulties. But there are three mistakes in my life. First, I attach too much importance to my feelings. Second, I am not cruel enough. Third, my heart is too heavy.

Soft. In the end, everything is my fault! But what should I do? Who is qualified to be cruel? If I had a little temper, I would say how strange and scheming I am, alas! It's really hard for me. ...