Life has changed a lot. Do it and cherish it.

August 3, 20 18? Friday? rain

Last night, I saw my brother raising money easily in the circle at home, followed by a screenshot of my sister's donation, and my heart was inexplicably nervous.

Only when I opened it did I know that my cousin's son was diagnosed with uremia in the middle and late stage, and the doctor said that he wanted to change his kidney. The child is only 22 years old, as beautiful as flowers and jade. Cousin how to bear this blow.

As early as more than a decade ago, the child got leukemia, and it took more than 400,000 yuan to save his life. The debt he owed has never been paid off. Look at you growing up, this is happening again. God, why do you love this family so much!

I quickly made a phone call with my mother and sent it to my cousin with my brother and sister. Mother mentioned that Grandpa had met his cousin when he was in hospital earlier this year. Grandpa is over eighty years old, and he can pinch and calculate, which is famous in his hometown of Fiona Fang for dozens of miles.

Mom said that grandpa told her privately that the child would never be my cousin's son and would leave her. I feel sad after listening to it. It's a taste.

Before, after my husband was seriously ill, my mother asked my husband's birthday and said she would do the math for him. I gave it to her at that time, because I didn't believe in these things and felt that my fate was in my own hands, and others couldn't figure it out.

Later, I also asked my mother about the fortune-telling. I joked, "Grandpa is so powerful, don't you think?" Mother said, "Your grandfather should be old and confused, and what he said is wrong." I laughed it off and didn't think much.

Now it seems that grandpa's calculated results should be bad, right? Especially this year, my husband and I are both animal years, and he is still the third year with a five-year survival rate. ...

I began to worry again, and I couldn't sleep directly at night. I really can't help but suggest to my husband: should this review be advanced? He didn't think it was necessary. You shouldn't feel anything strange in your body.

The semi-annual review is two months away from the next review. The closer I get to the review date, the more nervous I get. But this time, I look forward to getting the test results as soon as possible. I am looking forward to seeing that all his indicators are normal in black and white, so that I can feel at ease.

I can't sleep at night, and when I close my eyes, I think of countless possibilities. What would I do without him? What about the baby? What about the two old people at home? I haven't been so anxious for a long time. Am I thinking too much?

I always keep myself busy at ordinary times so that my brain won't stop thinking, but this time I can't calm down. ...

It's already dawn. After going out for half an hour, it began to rain. Is this appropriate? In a blink of an eye, it was dark again and heavy rain was coming.

When I got home, I saw a familiar sentence from friends in the group about the law of attraction.

After reading it carefully for several times, I suddenly realized that my consciousness was wrong and my worry was unnecessary. I shouldn't think about what hasn't happened yet. A sentence comes to mind, "worry is a curse, and belief is a blessing."

I want to believe in all the efforts made by myself and my husband for life, that God will not treat us badly who live seriously, that all efforts will not be in vain, and that life will get better and better.

This morning, it was dark and thunderstorm. But all this will soon pass, the sun will shine high and the rainbow will cross the sky.

Believe in yourself, bless your life and cherish it more and more!