burning life

Inscription: when the road of life is almost interrupted, we will cherish the continuation of the present more. No matter how long the road is, we should cherish it more one day. Don't miss the wind and rain, let alone the rainbow. Filling limited time with high-quality life is the meaning of living.

Everyone has the dice of fate, and has the right to choose whether to exchange or not, and no one has the right to choose the outcome. Living means continuing to exist at the expense of life burning. Someone told me that the body is like this, and there is no need to concentrate on what to do. I don't agree with this statement. What I did was worth the cost of burning my life. After burning it, it becomes a bit meaningful. I can't give up at any time, at least I have to accomplish one goal until my life burns to the end.

Five years ago, I was diagnosed with IGA nephritis, which is the most common primary glomerular disease. I didn't care when the biopsy report came to me. I thought nephritis was similar to the situation that I usually went to see a doctor and was diagnosed with inflammation. Just pay a little attention and take some anti-inflammatory drugs. What's more, with my physique at that time, I could continue to play badminton after playing basketball, and it was effortless to turn over one or two opponents on the court. After taking the medicine prescribed by the hospital for a period of time, I found that the situation is not as simple as I thought, and the key indicators such as urine occult blood and urine protein have hardly changed. So, I thought taking medicine had no effect and I never felt anything. In this case, it must be bad to eat too much, so I took the medicine for nearly a year, stopped taking the medicine without authorization, and stopped the review. Only the annual physical examination can know the results of several key indicators. Because of this, my ignorance at that time wasted the best treatment consolidation period.

Several years have passed, and the results of several key indicators in the annual physical examination report have not changed. Until the end of 20 16, I coughed for a long time because of a cold, and then my blood pressure rose. For hypertension, I began to take antihypertensive drugs after seeing a doctor, but the effect was not satisfactory. The annual physical examination is scheduled for June 5438+065438+ 10. As soon as the medical report comes out, I will pay attention to the results of relevant key indicators again. When I saw the creatinine index approaching 200, I knew there must be something wrong. Creatinine index is a key index of renal function. By consulting a specialist, it is known that the increase of creatinine means that the glomerular damage is more than 60%, and the clinical diagnosis is chronic renal failure. With the decrease of creatinine clearance rate, when

? Seek medical advice

As the doctor said, creatinine rose rapidly. Although I took relevant therapeutic drugs, the creatinine value rose to more than 300 within two months. I listened to the doctor's arrangement, went to the hospital, and started systematic conditioning, hoping to stabilize. This is the first time I have been admitted to the hospital due to illness for more than 40 years, and I have started a long road of dealing with hospitals since then.

When I first entered the hospital, I felt particularly bad to see similar patients in the same ward and department. I thought my future would be like this, where there is dignity of life, especially when I see dialysis patients in the dialysis room, I feel inexplicable horror and discomfort. With the increase in the number of hospitalizations, I gradually forgot after watching more, and even taking injections and taking medicine became the norm.

This time in the hospital, after careful conditioning by doctors and consolidation of drugs, the creatinine value dropped by about 40 and remained at around 300, finally bringing the upward trend back to the head. Reluctantly, I stayed for two weeks. The doctor said that as far as the current situation is concerned, I can only hope to maintain the current level, and maintaining the stability of renal function is the best result. Go back and insist on taking medicine and rational conditioning. Finally, I was discharged from the hospital and had to live in it. I want to get rid of it for a long time. The environment in the hospital makes people feel lifeless and particularly depressed.

? When I came back from the hospital, I realized that this was an irreversible fact. In order to follow up on how to treat it, my family rushed for me from the beginning.

My parents went to ask the bodhisattva for blessing and divination, and later comforted me. You've had bad luck these years, so there won't be any big problems. After all these years, nothing happened. They also offered longevity incense at home and went to the neighbors to inquire about folk remedies. Anyway, as long as you can think of it, you drag your elderly body around.

My uncle and aunt asked someone to contact a well-known kidney disease expert and went to great lengths to find Professor Xia from the First Affiliated Hospital of Chinese Medicine in Hunan Province. They think that Chinese medicine will be better than western medicine in maintaining stability, so they continue to treat him with Chinese medicine.

Through the introduction of a friend, my lover learned that an old Chinese doctor had cured IGA nephritis patients, so he drove thousands of miles to visit.

My friends around me are helping to contact me. Tell me as soon as you know the treatment information, because my illness has affected everyone around me.

In order to make the final plan, I went to the Second Xiangya Hospital to meet Professor Xie, a domestic authority who is fighting in the front line of kidney transplantation, and also a big brother next door. My hometown and I are in the same place, smiling and very easy to get along with. I am the nobleman I have met in my life. Thanks for this meeting. I'm fine now. As a smoker, I talked about my illness in the office and the characteristics of my hometown. According to his meaning, let me have a kidney transplant directly. In this case, the follow-up anti-rejection therapy has a certain auxiliary effect on the existing treatment of IGA nephritis, which can complement each other. I didn't decide immediately. I need to discuss it with my family before I decide.

? When I told my family about Professor Xie's opinion, everyone thought to treat it conservatively first, hoping for a miracle. At that time, we can only accept a kidney transplant.

? After nearly a year's treatment, every time I come home from the First Affiliated Hospital of Traditional Chinese Medicine, I drag a cart, a big bag of Chinese herbal medicines and Chinese patent medicines, and insist on drinking bitter and unpleasant potions every day. Fortunately, creatinine has been relatively stable for more than half a year.

I was already weak and couldn't stand any blow. I caught a cold in the middle of the year, which made me have complications, urinating blood directly and being hospitalized again. However, my condition was quickly controlled. When I stabilized, the creatinine rose to more than 500, and I couldn't go down, so I had to accept my fate, and the damage to the kidney was irreparable again.

? After this blow, I live cautiously, and I need to pay attention to food, clothing, housing and transportation. Even so, something happened in June 5438+065438+ 10, and there was a massive hemorrhage in the digestive tract. Due to the stimulation of long-term use of traditional Chinese medicine and IGA nephritis uremia, it is easy to cause gastrointestinal bleeding, hemoglobin drops to about 50, and physical fitness drops to about 50. After nearly 20 days in the hospital, I recovered slowly and can be discharged. Renal function was damaged again, and creatinine rose to more than 700. The doctor said dialysis must be considered.

Dialysis, these two words will appear in the dictionary of my life so soon, and I feel extremely sad. I know that once dialysis, the quality of life will be worse than now. Regular dialysis will disrupt normal life, and facing a completely different lifestyle is a lifestyle that I am very disgusted with.

Ask the doctor, if the next transplant operation is carried out, how long can it last with the current physical condition? The doctor told me that it is not a big problem to arrange the operation as soon as possible within three months, but once the related symptoms appear, dialysis must be started. Faced with such a reply, there is no choice but to take the road of transplantation.

? Donor matching

Transplant surgery is not an ordinary operation. Technically, it is not a big problem to complete such an operation in a large general hospital. The key is that there are too few donors in the operation, and it is difficult for a clever woman to cook without rice. And I know that I, like type O blood, make it more difficult for blood donors.

I came to the Second Xiangya Hospital again and told Professor Xie that I wanted a transplant. Professor Xie still received me with a smile. Think about it! We need surgery. I introduced him to the current situation, and the creatinine has exceeded 700. My biggest appeal is to complete the transplant before dialysis is needed. He took me to Mr. Jiang for a pre-transplant matching test, looked at the blood vessels, and prayed that there would be no accidents in the test. I hope it goes well. It took about two days to complete all the inspection items, and the inspection results were very satisfactory. None of them were positive for antibodies, which at least narrowed the obstacles for subsequent matching. Whether the pairing is successful or not depends on fate. Both Professor Xie and Teacher Jiang told me to wait patiently at home, keep a good attitude and pay special attention to my health. Otherwise, it will affect the transplant operation. Don't miss the opportunity of the operation.

With their entrustment, I went home and began a "long" wait. How many times have I received a phone call in my dream to have an operation? One end is dialysis and the other end is waiting for surgery. My mind is always tangled, always expecting that my dream is a "daydream" and there is really a phone call. Especially near the end of the year, I especially want to celebrate the New Year after transplantation, so that my family can spend the last year easily.

It's already February 1, 2065438. On this day, as usual, at about 7: 30 in the morning, I was about to walk into the office and received a phone call. Mr. Jiang's familiar and sweet voice came from the phone, and there was a donor with a very good match. Please think about it and give me an answer in 5 minutes. Do you need to arrange an operation? What is the consideration? I'm waiting for this moment. I didn't ask for the specific data of donors and matching. These are not my concerns. The medical staff in Annex II will examine me. What I need to do now is to reply to Teacher Jiang immediately. I'll come to Annex II in a minute. It's been a whole month since the matching test, and it's the luckiest person to end the "long" wait today.

? transplant surgery

I received a call in the morning, arrived in Changsha at noon, arrived in this lucky star city, and arrived at the Second Affiliated Hospital around 1 in the afternoon. Nurses at the nurses' station on the sixth floor of Nephrology Department began to arrange a series of preoperative examinations and preparations. At this moment, my mood is still excited, because I will be born again soon, and everyone will care about the significance of this moment. Take blood pressure, draw blood, CT, color Doppler ultrasound, enema, skin preparation, and have been busy until about 5 pm before entering the operating room. My family sent me to the door of the operating room, and I watched with anxious and worried eyes as I was picked up by a nurse in a jumpsuit. I can feel that they are more nervous than I am.

? When I entered the operating room, only one nurse was dispensing medicine. She told me that the surgeon had gone to get the kidney. At first, I wanted to see the donors. Besides being curious, I am also an awesome and familiar stranger. I was about to replace the continuation of life, but I didn't see it with my own eyes and didn't have time to thank him. I lay quietly under the shadowless lamp. At first, the nurse gave me an intravenous tube. It was local anesthesia at that time, so you can chat with the nurse. She asked my name and where I came from. Before long, the doctor came in and said that anesthesia began. The nurse began to give me an intravenous drip, and I don't know when I began to fall asleep. When I woke up, it was about three o'clock the next morning. I was lying in the ICU bed, and in the dim light around me, I saw myself covered with monitoring tubes and wires. The nurse on duty told me that the operation was completed at night 10, and the operation was very successful. Now in the ICU ward.

Very smoothly, when I reached out and touched my arm through the gauze, that "she" lay there quietly. This is the blending of two lives, and it has quietly accomplished such a sacred and great thing. This moment has become a historic node in the journey of life. Take a look at the urine bag hanging by the bed, full of urine and slightly bloody, indicating that "she" has entered the role and started to work hard. I really want to shout "I am born again!" I want to announce to the whole world, at least tell my family who have been worried and concerned about me. They should have known the news before me. They should be very excited when I push out of the operating room. They must have shed the most exciting tears for me. I really appreciate your family's efforts and make you suffer!

The next morning, Professor Xie came to my bed with the medical staff, looked at my situation and said with a smile, not bad! Only then did I know that my somewhat burly brother was the surgeon in charge of my operation, Professor Tang. It took him more than five hours to finish my operation. The operation was perfect and successful.

After staying in ICU for about a week, the drainage tube of surgical effusion was completely pulled out and transferred to the general ward.

? This is the first time to look in the mirror after the operation, and I am a little afraid to recognize myself. Due to the discharge of accumulated water in the body after the operation, the body became "thin" and suddenly recovered to the figure of 10 years ago, and the chubby face disappeared. Now I seem to have a sharp chin. All this came a little suddenly, but I didn't expect the feeling of happiness to appear so quickly. It is a pity that the handsome face has slowly recovered its "full moon face" after taking the beauty medicine "Medrol".

The recovery speed is not bad. In less than two weeks, the indicators have been basically stable, and I was informed that I can leave the hospital. During these two weeks, every nurse carefully took care of and monitored me and taught me how to adjust my medication reasonably. After 10 days of the most painful urethral catheterization test, I can now walk easily and basically take care of myself.

Discharge, regular review, regular medication, and strict compliance with doctor's advice in life, with the focus on the first year, are directly related to the life span of the transplanted kidney.

The day of rebirth

Two days after leaving the hospital, I caught up with the New Year's Eve. It's been a somewhat chaotic year, which is particularly satisfying. Like a sigh of relief, the operation that weighed on the family's heart has been successfully completed, and the whole person's mind can be released, and the whole year is full of laughter.

Transplant surgery is not once and for all. After the operation, it means that you will live with the donor for life. In order to be harmonious, you need to take immunosuppressive drugs for a long time to avoid the two sets of immune systems fighting each other, so as to slow down the rejection and prevent the graft from failing. The main factor affecting the survival of transplanted kidney is chronic rejection, which is inevitable, because the chronic rejection of the graft will eventually fail. According to current medical statistics, kidneys will fail in ten years.

From then on, we must get along with "her" step by step, slowly run in, carefully care, and achieve a balance and stability bit by bit, just like learning from the West, step by step, step by step. Immunosuppressive drugs will inevitably reduce the body's immunity. In order to protect our bodies, there will be no problem. Only by further improving the resistance, keep exercising from the first month after operation, from the first 2000 steps to the next 20000 steps, and persist every day until now.

Three months after the operation is especially critical. I live in Changsha directly and have a review once a week. Every Monday is like catching an exam. When all the results come out, I will read the report. Every arrow is like a big red cross on the test paper, which stings sensitive nerves. Every time Professor Xie comes to the clinic, I am like a student waiting for the teacher's comment. I've been looking forward to that sentence, and the result is good. There is no need to adjust the medicine.

Because I am sensitive to sulfanilamide, after taking sulfanilamide after discharge, the creatinine increased from about 140 at discharge to more than 170. Seeing this result, I am not worried. Fortunately, as the professor said, it will come back gradually. For three months, the drug concentration has not been very stable. In the same period, my patient has been rechecked every two weeks, but I still need to recheck once a week because of the unstable concentration. In fact, after the data of these inspections, we can understand that everyone has such a process, which is only a matter of time. Anxious for a long time in tangled doubts.

Three months later, I returned home from Changsha and started working. Life is no longer single, except for exercise, I always go to work normally. At work, my colleagues take good care of me. They are all easy jobs, without any pressure, and they are completely competent. Every time I go to the hospital for reexamination, the results are getting better and better and more stable. Since then, my life has been as colorful as ever. On weekends, although the diet is still restricted, it can't limit my interest in cooking. When I cook, my family can feel endless happiness from it.

I know that the reborn life is hard to come by, and the reborn life is more limited. Kidney transplant failure will always come, but I won't be afraid. It's just that I will try to make the future go further. She and I will go further hand in hand. My life is burning, but I can't let her burn in vain. So I opened the official account of WeChat, trying to record my life after rebirth in broken words, and finally I will leave something behind, because of this.

A moment of shock

? Near the half-year mark, I'm planning to wait for the half-year period to return to the attached system for inspection, and then let Professor Xie have a good "test", and then arrange a wave of trips depending on whether the results are excellent or not. All the plans came to an abrupt end on the morning of 17 1 day, and I was at a loss when I learned that the creatinine in the blood test had risen to 195 in the morning. Is it a rush? After a brief communication with Professor Xie, I immediately went to Changsha. All doubts and concerns can only be clarified after the attached inspection results come out.

It was already late at night when the dust arrived in Changsha. After finding a hotel to make do with one night, I came to the second affiliated hospital early in the morning to register, queue up and draw blood. I have been waiting anxiously all morning.

It's almost 1 1 in the morning, and I announced my "report card" with an anxious mood, which once again surprised me instantly! It's basically a perfect score. Excited mood, let all the worries in my mind disappear at once, and shout at top of my heart, which is fucking normal!

In the past 24 hours, the fears and worries buried in my heart, the heavy anxiety, are really heavy and unbearable. Finally, a close call. As the patient said, every baby with a kidney is so scared. Many accidental mistakes are encountered by us, and sometimes we are full of doubts and fears about something because of the limited knowledge.

All this, because of respecting and cherishing life, has become unusual, and it is a hard-won opportunity for rebirth, for fear that something will go wrong inadvertently. Life is more important because of gratitude to the most familiar stranger and the responsibility to have this gift; Because family members and medical staff have paid more for themselves than they expected when they were born into this world.

Let all the unhappiness go with the wind. A heavy rain directly cooled the hot Changsha. When I came to the clinic office in the rain and told Professor Xie the news, Professor Xie said with a smile, that's great! I think the previous results are wrong. This 24-hour journey, running up and down, is worth it! Get this peace of mind, suddenly excited, a little surprised by this farce.

? Go ahead indifferently

? Because of fate, I met "her"; Because I have family and friends, I never give up; I am grateful to the professor and the medical staff of the affiliated middle school for giving me a new life. Rebirth for half a year, for myself, for "she" who has never met, has taken an important step towards success in life. For the future, I will still cherish Do not forget your initiative mind, be grateful for the rest of my life, and live as gorgeous and beautiful as fireworks for myself and people around me!

Life is like an exercise. I have traveled all over Qian Shan, and faced life bravely step by step, and I have come to this day. Some people say that the beauty of life lies in a healthy body, and I will continue to write about the beauty of life with this kind of incomplete beauty.

There are still many things I want to experience and complete. With "her" and respect for life, I know very well that the days ahead are limited. However, because of this unknown, I have unlimited possibilities. Under the guidance of all doctors, I look forward to creating miracles.

First of all, try your best to extend the life mileage. Only in this way can you really comfort the efforts of familiar strangers. With the expectation of the future, I will go to see the great rivers and mountains and experience the trip to the northwest that I have not put into practice before, so that the rest of my life will be more meaningful.