Why did Leslie Cheung commit suicide?

1. This is an interview with Leslie Cheung's elder sister Look Ping Cheung on RTHK 1 RTHK 20 12, and part of it mentioned her brother's depression. The following is the copied content:

Sister: Later, he got sick. Sometimes when I am in a meeting, he will call and say, "Sister, I'm not sure, come here!" " "I don't do anything, go to his house at once. He saw a doctor at my house because he had a problem. In front of his house, three people in the media pointed their cameras at him, making him unable to move (go out to see a doctor). If he goes to see a psychiatrist and they can't see him, I have to call the doctor to my house to help him see a doctor. He has had problems for over a year. He called me several times to say goodbye, which scared me to death.

Many people don't understand his illness. There are two kinds of depression, one is clinical depression, because the chemicals in the brain are unbalanced, which is physiological; One is that everyone knows that there are unhappy things or something. Leslie was the first one, others didn't know, and said that her boyfriend had problems, the movie was unsuccessful, etc ... At first, I told Leslie, how could he say that I was depressed? I am rich and so many people love me. I was so happy that he refused to take medicine. ...

Moderator: He refused to take the medicine prescribed by the doctor?

Sister: Sometimes I eat, sometimes I don't.

Moderator: Just now, I said that Leslie's illness is physical, but you really didn't expect that Leslie's mental stress was greater because of the pressure of the entertainment circle?

Sister: I thought so at first, but after the accident, a doctor wrote me a four-piece letter. He explained to me that there are two kinds of depression in medicine, and your brother's illness is the first (physiological reason).

At that time, some people said that he was under great pressure, but he was a professional. All his films were confiscated. When he was filming, sometimes we ate at home, and he went over and said I was so tired. Then he took four pieces in the restaurant and fell asleep soon. He can distance himself. Shooting won't affect him.

To be honest, he is rich. He has a good relationship with his partner. He laughed at everything else and was very popular. Because he is famous, some people say this and that, and the media will also fan the flames when he is fine ... because no one has said that his boyfriend is in debt or taking drugs, others have laughed it off. That song is really like my way. He is a bit of a maverick. He knows what his value is. He is young but mature because he has experienced it. If you ask people in this industry, everyone respects him. He is very supportive of his younger generation. No one has ever said that he is bad. ...

2. Copy the gray "Last Meeting with Legend" from the content.

As early as last year, the media reported that he had depression. If he has cancer, a person who loves himself and has enough financial ability and courage to fight against difficulties must be admitted to the hospital honestly, and all his friends will care about him and help him. We will pay close attention to his illness, send flowers, cards and condolences, pray for his early recovery and express our love to him urgently.

However, for depression, everyone, including himself, lacks sufficient understanding. He was ashamed of suffering from depression, never admitted it, and repeatedly "strongly denied the rumors of depression." His friend made fun of him for this: "Don't you have depression?" His fans, fans, we don't care about this report at all. On the one hand, there are too many fabrications in the media. On the other hand, I don't think depression is good. I'm just unhappy. It will be all right after a while.

What disease is depression? Now we know.

Experts say: Depression is a very harmful disease, which will cause patients to lose their ability to work and study. Without active and effective treatment, depressive symptoms will recur and become chronic, which may lead to suicide. More than half of patients with depression have suicidal thoughts, and 20% of them eventually commit suicide. According to the latest data of the World Health Organization, by 2020, depression will become the second biggest killer of human beings after cancer. Patients who attempt suicide are particularly prone to commit suicide again. In addition, men are more likely than women to choose methods to ensure death, such as shooting themselves. Experts say: Pay special attention to "invisible depression". Severe recessive depression can make patients have suicidal thoughts. I talked and laughed with him in the morning, but suddenly I received bad news in the afternoon. Some people have no abnormal performance before committing suicide, and their relatives are often puzzled by their sudden suicide. People suffering from "invisible depression" seem as if nothing has happened, smiling at people and not telling people about their inner affairs, but often complain about muscle pain, headache, back pain, stomach pain, weakness of limbs and poor sleep. They just try to replace mental pain with physical pain, hoping to win the sympathy and attention of their families and doctors. Experts say: the internal change of depression is to completely deny yourself. Denying the past: I often think of some unpleasant past events and always feel sorry for others. Now negative: low self-evaluation, feeling that my work efficiency is low, and I am sick all over, which is a burden to my family. Deny the future: I think the future is gloomy and the days are like years. I am full of despair, remorse and guilt, and I think I am an unnecessary person. Only when you die can you get rid of it. There are nine criteria for evaluating depression: lack of interest in social activities and interpersonal communication; The body is obviously emaciated or the weight is obviously increased; Sleep disorders, often awakened by nightmares, wake up early at four or five in the morning; Often fidgety, arguing about a little thing; Slow action, slow speech; Often feel tired, even stay in bed for a long time; I feel that my life is worthless, I underestimate myself and lack confidence in everything; Can't concentrate, always absent-minded and slow in thinking about anything; I often think of death, have hurt myself, and have tried unsafe and dangerous situations. When the above symptoms are combined and last for more than two weeks, depression can be diagnosed.

Now, watching the media reports, we are saddened to find that he has almost all these symptoms, and the duration is far more than two weeks. He has been suffering from severe torture for more than a year.

His work has stopped for a long time, and he has never made a movie, sung a song on the stage or released a new record. The latest one was co-produced with Huang Yaoming last May, and only sang four songs, including monologues. The photo of the envelope was not taken, it was synthesized from old photos, and MTV didn't take it either. The producer couldn't find him, so he arranged for Huang Yaoming to look at his photos and sing a song with deep affection.

In the past, his life was very regular. He always goes to bed early and gets up early, and "usually falls asleep soon". But in the past year, he told many friends that he didn't sleep well, had difficulty falling asleep and kept having nightmares. He always felt that someone had dragged him out of bed, and eating a lot of western medicine and Chinese medicine didn't work. His gastric reflux is quite serious and often happens. When his friend called him, his voice was hoarse and he couldn't hear what he said clearly. When chatting with friends occasionally, he is no longer witty, but often in a daze and trance, unable to hear what others are saying. Li Bihua said he was "curled up in the corner of the sofa like a shadow".

He is no longer the radiant and confident man he used to be. He actually said to Maggie Cheung, "I really want to cooperate with you again, but I am not handsome enough to play your lover." Maggie Cheung was very surprised.

The relationship between him and Tang is no longer as close and natural as before, and the media began to rumor that their feelings were red. Neighbors often hear voices shouting and throwing things at his house. His friends later said that he would lose his temper for no reason and drive everyone away when he played cards abnormally. Finally, Mr. Tang came forward and begged everyone to come back. He offered to sleep in separate rooms with Tang, fearing that he would be hurt uncontrollably. Fortunately, Tang listened carefully to the movement in his room every night and saved him when he was taking sleeping pills. His family even used the word "never leave" when thanking Tang for his care. You can imagine how serious his illness is.

How did he spend this year with such suffering and pain? I leafed through old news and wondered what he had done since the story of "meeting an evil spirit" came out last April.

I was surprised to find that this depressed patient has been trying to make others happy.

He attended the 20th anniversary concert of his old friend Anita Mui and sang the last two songs with her as a guest. He attended the 2nd1Hong Kong Academy Awards and presented the award to Stephen Chow, the best young director.

He attended the founding ceremony of the Foundation for Ending Child Sexual Abuse, served as the image ambassador of the "Pioneer of Nursery Nursery Nursery Nursery Nursery Nursery", called on the public to donate money, and bought a number of tickets for the movie charity evening with his own pocket. He participated in the release of the "VCD English Pinyin" charity edition, improvised a check to donate to the Children's Cancer Foundation, and told him not to tell the media. He paid tribute to Yang Ziqiong and attended the premiere of Legend of Paradise. In the month when he committed suicide by taking sleeping pills, he also attended the conference condemning the support of the East Weekly for Carina Lau, and stood beside Tony Leung Chiu Wai in the first row with a cold face. This month, I also participated in the award ceremony of the performing arts motivation award and won the most outstanding actor award. By the end of the year, one thing made me suspicious, that is, he said that he wanted to come up with a commemorative album and let his good friend, benefactor and record company owner Chen Xiaobao buy the copyright of his old songs. Chen Xiaobao agreed and spent more than 2 million yuan on the acquisition. Now the value of these songs has far exceeded 2 million. Since the beginning of this year, he has accepted the invitation of twins and made a guest appearance as "uncle" in the New Year song "You are the hottest". He was very happy to be nominated for the Oscar, saying that the nominees were "all my friends, and I was very happy to win the prize. Of course, I am happier to win the prize myself. " Anita Mui turned to him for help because the record company refused to include two songs he sang with her in last year's concert on DVD. He personally intervened and finally completed it, giving us a chance to see Huayou's unparalleled performance. He also attended the China Top Ten Golden Melody Awards Ceremony and the Pepsi Superstar Awards Ceremony.

The Pepsi superstar award ceremony in March was his last stage. The media reported in advance that he was in poor health and would not go, but at last he appeared and the audience cheered. At this time, his voice was too loud to sing, and he said on the stage, "I don't know what to say." As the first generation Pepsi superstar in China, I am very happy to see so many people performing with friends tonight. I will melt you with love. I was invited to attend today's meeting. Although I don't sing, I like your cheers. "

This month, he did an unusual thing, which we just learned: he asked the bank account number of his maid and quietly saved several times his salary.

The last message before his death was this: "This year, the large-scale charity night of end Child Sexual Abuse Foundation has been scheduled for April 12. Brother Leslie Cheung took the lead in donating100000 yuan. On his birthday last year, he told the guests not to give gifts, but to send cash, and then all of them were donated to the Foundation to End Child Sexual Abuse. " (Oriental Daily, March 2003 12. )

Some media have reported him, saying: stars are empty in spirit, weak in will, poor in endurance and prone to suicide. We can't comment on other stars, but his departure is by no means because of spiritual emptiness or weak will.

The reason why all walks of life in Hong Kong are so shocked by his death is that he is too unlikely to commit suicide. There are hundreds of stars in the entertainment circle, and no one is as famous as him. His life is not smooth, and everything is tangled, with too many blows, too many setbacks and too many grievances, so that there is an old saying in Hong Kong that "even Leslie Cheung has to endure for ten years".

But he endured, he fought, he refused, he worked hard, he put caution to the wind, and he gritted his teeth and walked on step by step. His strong personality has long been heard inside and outside the circle. Not many people dare to compare with him.

Since childhood, his life has been very difficult. At that time, what he longed for most was family happiness, but his parents were indifferent, his brothers and sisters were alienated, and he lacked care and happy memories from childhood. My father only goes home for a few days during the Chinese New Year and gets drunk every day. My own brother actually grabbed his life buoy when he was drowning and put it on himself, making him glug and sink. He grew up alone, but instead of being cynical, he said, "The broken family makes me feel that I should cherish myself more." His father is seriously ill, and he loves studying. He had to interrupt his studies and go back to Hong Kong. He struggled to survive by selling sneakers and jeans. He only earns 800 yuan a month, but he insists on "hardening his neck" and refuses to ask for money from home. I took part in the Asian singing competition and finally won the runner-up in the singing competition, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't become popular, which surprised people today. He himself said, "Not everyone is just starting out, but they are all as red as Feng Ting, and I sometimes run around." However, I still cherish the stage of Shaolin Temple. After setbacks, success is sweat, not sweat. Now everyone says that I have a good working attitude, which is actually linked to the years I have honed before; If there is no former me, how can I cultivate the current ethics? "As we all know, the hat-throwing incident has greatly stimulated him. He said in "No Interview Tonight": "Maybe at that time, my image was not flattering and avant-garde, just like David Henry Hwang said to me at that time:' Who dares to wear vest jeans to sing on stage?' Plus I shaved my head in a TV series, which is very strange. I only have a suit and a navy hat, standing on the stage and singing. After singing, he took off his hat and flew down, booing. -I was booed when I came out, and I was booed when I threw my hat out. Looking back, wow, a hat flew over. Why is it so familiar? Look, it's yours! It's not finished yet. When I got home, there was a message on my mobile phone:' The file has been closed. Please read more books. Aren't you ashamed enough? Wow, how sad! "But it is so sad that he still sings." At that time, I gritted my teeth and survived this painful day. I keep telling myself that I must stick to it and don't show it to others. With this belief, I strictly require myself to be very serious, meticulous and go all out in any performance, not to be late for work and not to leave early. Until now, I still adhere to this professionalism. "

After six or seven years, he finally became famous and won the prize, but he was satirized by Cai Fenghua: "A temporary glory does not mean eternity." The media caused a sensation, competing to see his reaction. He said simply, "Talking is better than nothing." Then use your own practical actions to turn that prediction into a big joke. Five years later, he was naturally selected in the "Top Ten Red Men in the 1980s". The host commented: "Although' the brilliance of an instant does not mean eternity', Leslie Cheung exudes eternal brilliance in an instant." At that time, everyone didn't know that ten years later, at the age of 44, he still won the "Top Ten Red Man Election" and was still the champion. His confrontation with Alan Tam in the music scene has become a classic scene in the history of Hong Kong entertainment. At first, his influence was far less than that of superstar Alan Tam, and all awards were overwhelmed. Finally, when he was able to compete with Alan Tam, his fans quit, cursing, cursing, paper coffins, mingbi, dead cockroaches and threatening letters kept giving him. He just pretended to be relaxed, and even put away his family's money for friends to see: "These fans are really lucky, and I'm afraid I can't make any money. Give this to me. "

1986, the competition between him and Alan Tam reached a fever pitch, and the fans on both sides were so quarrelsome that they almost fought as soon as they met. Watching the video of the Golden Melody Awards Ceremony, he won the Golden Melody Award for "Who resonates". When he won the prize, the audience was already very noisy. The audience even booed and shouted when he came out to sing. In his own words, "He hissed like a dog", but he still stood there laughing and singing. "I thought into the microphone: I want to sing some good songs. I stand out as a guarantee of performance. I'll always sing to you at my best, and you boo me? Either, I will put up with you and return to the background after singing. I have plenty of time; Either, my mother will cross you, and then I won't do it! ..... Why can I do it now? It was only later that I realized that if I quit this business, I would go on honorably by myself, and no one could drive me away! "

Finally, he stood out and finally became famous. Finally, he was able to "walk with honor", but he announced his retirement from the music world. No one wanted to believe him, and he was called "Fighting Numbers". As a result, he gave 33 farewell concerts that could have been held for more than 40 times, which was in line with his age at that time, and admitted that "the competition for the number of fights is meaningless!" Seven years later, when he announced his comeback, he was scolded for "slapping himself." He turned a deaf ear: "I love singing, and everyone loves to listen." What's the matter? There is no harm! " Ming Pao agrees: "Artists don't have to mind saying goodbye publicly. If there is no market value, you have to say goodbye in never say goodbye, and it is the market that says goodbye to you; Market value, widely expected, constantly lobbying, constantly proposing, meeting all your requirements and pulling you out. This world, especially the entertainment circle, is very realistic. " Sure enough, with the passage of time, in the face of his later extraordinary achievements, the noisy media finally had nothing to say.

Speaking of his film career, there are so many grievances. In the past 25 years, he has acted in 56 films, including Rouge Kou, Around the World, Farewell My Concubine, Golden Branches and Jade Leaves, Times have Changed and Spring Breeze. My efforts and acting skills have been appreciated by so many people, but I always miss the prize. I only nominated the best actor for 13 times in the Academy Awards and the Golden Horse Awards, and only won one award, but I didn't participate that time. As for Farewell My Concubine, although his performance is amazing all over the world, he is not qualified to participate in the film festivals in the three places because of the complicated background of film production. The acclaimed Rouge Kou lost to Sammo Hung of Seven Little Happiness by one vote at the Academy Awards, but he didn't say anything. Cheng Dieyi lost again by one vote at the Cannes Film Festival. He laughed it off and never mentioned it. The only one who expressed dissatisfaction was the 34th Golden Horse Award, in which He Baorong, who was nominated for Early Spring, weighed the strength of his opponent and thought it was time. However, it doesn't matter if he loses, it doesn't matter if he attends in a dress, and it doesn't matter if he loses. It is unacceptable that his number of votes is actually zero.

His love is more bumpy. It's not that he has never loved a woman, it was love at first sight, but his proposal was rejected. Fall in love with another woman, and be cheated out of everything. Fall in love with the same sex again

After more than 20 years of deep affection, heterosexuality has long been a model of love, but what they have suffered is a long story.

Reporters followed him everywhere, took pictures of him and asked him under various circumstances. He always deals with the past calmly and humbly. He said: "The market is so bad and the employment rate is so low. Must the paparazzi have something to do? As for myself, I am harmless, I am happy and my friends like me. What can I ask? " "I'm not gross, what does photography have to do, but aboveboard, don't be so secretive, so low-level. They can't see the light, not me! " Every time he appears with Tang, the example will be photographed in the headlines; When he and Don didn't show up together, it made the media suspicious again. An assistant and a driver were reported by the media as their new lovers. He was annoyed at this: "How should I respond?" I only don't respond! ""If I care about these things all day, I will die! "Because of his sexual orientation, too many achievements are easily erased. 1997 concert, the media only remember Tang and red high heels. The reporter asked him why he dedicated The Moon Represents My Heart to Tang. He was very unhappy: "This is a deliberate rendering. The most important thing is to sing it to my mother, because she was in the terminal stage of cancer at that time, and I know it was her last concert. I have solid evidence. That album is still on sale. You can listen to it if you don't believe me! I feel that I have arrived at the Yue Fei era and always give people unwarranted charges! " The reporter still chased him and asked him: "Then you thank Mr. Tang. Is there any special significance?" He generously replied, "Of course! Of course I want to thank him! He has been helping me since I debuted. I don't thank him, thank who? " Let the reporter be speechless.

The "Enthusiasm" concert in 2000 caused an uproar. Under the arrangement of some media with ulterior motives, the exquisite works of the world's top fashion masters, their stunning dance beauty, sound and lighting design, his own investment, his dedication at all costs, his unparalleled musical skills and the infatuated audience have all been ignored, all of which are "long hair", "skirt", "exposed bottom", "self-touching" and "self-touching" He was asked to make a series of changes in clothing and styling, which made-Paul jean paul gaultier feel that "Hong Kong people don't know what this means" and announced that he would not design clothing for Hong Kong artists in the future. This time, he was really angry and vented at the concert: "What do you think of my style?" Don't say I'm a beautiful girl. I am the most annoying person in the world. Call me beauty and I'll turn my face! A friend called me recently, and he said, I'm not sure if my image is good. I asked him, do you want to see me in a dress and tie? If so, don't come to my concert! I asked him to check for himself to see if he was old! "For unfair media, he is even more merciless:" You can't put words in my mouth! This is my life, how dare you judge me! "..... physically and mentally exhausted, his concert is still going on, and his attitude is still tough, but under the warm cheers of the audience, he will bow deeply again and cry and say," In fact, over the years, there have been many right and wrong around me, and I have tried to ignore them, but artists sometimes just can't ignore them. I thank you for not changing for so long and supporting me for so many years. Thank you very much. "Even so, when the reporter asked him if he had any regrets in his life in an interview that year, he replied:" How dare you say the word regret? I think it will be a blessing. God is kind and tolerant to me, and I will be a positive person. I have sound limbs, a kind heart and a successful career. In this world, having health and happiness is actually more important than anything else. "Such a person, such a heart.

3. The copied content comes from my sister who stayed up late, which is a shortcut to go home.

When searching for the word "Leslie Cheung" in Baidu, the mystery of Leslie Cheung's death first appeared. A line of black words is shocking and makes people feel sad.

On April 1 day, 2003, he jumped off the 24th floor of the Culture Hotel, ending his magnificent life, and also brought the world pain that is still difficult to heal. People in cultural circles described his death as a "national event". "People's mourning for him is not only the memory of an artist, but also the infinite regret for the destroyed works of art."

That is, since then, speculation about why he chose to leave people in such a dramatic way has never stopped.

The director's dream is broken, his feelings have changed, and he can't accept that he is old, psychologically fragile, haunted by evil spirits, and so on. Many TV stations have analyzed their own memorial programs, and some irresponsible TV stations have hearsay, combing some biased views and his screen image, and come to the conclusion that he is depressed, not strong enough, unable to solve problems when encountering difficulties, even on the road.

It happened that this view spread the most widely, including now and so on. People think that since they have played so many tragic roles and performed so well, how can they not interfere at all? Coupled with his bumpy childhood experience, lack of loving growth environment and emotional daily life, it is bound to develop in the direction of tragic figures.

After a person has left, there is no way to defend himself. Often, unofficial history runs amok and has different opinions, which is not what people who love him want to see.

Li Xiaotian said that since his death, everyone didn't want to talk about the reason, which was so sad. That's understandable. For his friends, they all know him too well to believe those rumors. No, it's already the biggest loss and punishment. It doesn't matter what the reason is.

But for this world, what can you do if you don't talk about it? The rumor is so fierce that too many people misunderstand him.

Talking about him in Weibo a few days ago, someone said, "Why doesn't such a good person want to live?"

No, it's not that he doesn't want to live. He's just sick.

It's that simple.

Although there is a melancholy, sensitive and willful side in his character, it is only a background color. In fact, he is a very strong person with a strong will.

Musicians always remember that when they wish, the best Leslie Cheung is a handsome Leslie Cheung. "What beauty, demon, amorous feelings, inch, blame men, rebellion, all is not. Remember, he is a very handsome man. " This chic is not persistent, but "his chic has the demeanor of a big brother."

Japanese geisha actor Takesaburo Sakamoto said that he is a careful and reliable person. "When talking with him, you can feel his strong attitude towards life. Of course, he is also a person with strong beliefs in his work. "

Suicide is not his own will, but a means to bring death. Because depression is a fatal disease, according to relevant statistics, as of 2009, among more than 26 million patients with depression in China, 10%- 15% will choose to commit suicide, with the total number of suicides reaching nearly 4 million and 2 million people attempting to commit suicide. Death caused by depression, like cancer patients being hollowed out by cancer cells, is the result of the deterioration of the disease.

At that time, we knew so little about depression that we didn't even know him. When others reach middle age, in fact, many things that were hard to think about in those years have already been opened. He is in the most free and easy stage of his life, with a lot of money, things he wants to do and people who love him. He is so perfect that he can't wait to stop time and move on.

Japanese friends recalled their association. When talking about many sad and difficult things in life, he looked at the flowers on the table and said, "But I think God has given us flowers in our lives, so we must thank life." Take these as happiness, and you can spend any pain and sorrow ... "

This is his consistent attitude and a weapon to protect him in the dangerous entertainment circle. His illness is very dangerous, which is caused by the imbalance of chemical hormone secretion in his brain. This has nothing to do with the suppression of his character or the external attack. He just arranged his dream of directing. Suddenly, with a bang, it was like the string broke, the pendulum suddenly stopped, and all the vitality and fighting spirit in his life were gone.

For patients with depression, there is only a thin line between life and death, and they are on the death line every day. Why do you get sick? It's hard to find the exact reason, just as cancer patients can deduce some pathogenic factors after they get sick, but they can't be completely prevented from the beginning.

This is known today, but it was far from such a scientific atmosphere at that time. Chen Shufen, his agent, said, "It's hard for him to believe that he will get this disease because he has everything. Now he has chosen his favorite job. How can such a person have depression? No one else will believe it. How is it possible? " Others don't believe it, and neither does he. He has been strong for half his life and is an out-and-out perfectionist. How can a person who cannot allow himself to be fragile, tolerant and slack accept that he has lost the most precious "vitality"?

He refused to admit defeat and worked hard. At first, he didn't even want to see a doctor or take medicine. Until his illness developed rapidly, he lost the most important self-control. "There is no way to control his emotions, hands and feet ..." At that time, he was seen eating with Mr. Tang. He helped Mr. Tang with the food, shaking his hand all the time, picking it up and falling off, and clamping it again and again.

He is unwilling to admit it, let alone show his illness to others.

When recording the cross-border album in 2002, he was seriously ill, depressed and hoarse, but he only claimed that his gastric juice was back, trying to cover it up. Even Chen Xiaobao, who cooperated with him, thought he was a minor illness and neglected to take care of him.

When they talked for the last time in 2003, Chen Xiaobao didn't recognize his voice at all. After talking for a few minutes, he was still skeptical, thinking that someone was pretending to be Leslie Cheung to tease himself. He promised Chen Xiaobao that he would finish the record he owed him anyway.

At that time, he was miserable, his throat was swollen like a red apple, and his voice was completely inverted, let alone singing. In severe cases, he can't even speak. Occasionally, if he is better, he will do what he promised others to do. His last album was recorded intermittently for a long time. In June, 2002, he attended the ribbon-cutting ceremony of the new store in Dunhill Road. He just laughed and didn't talk. On March 8, 2003, he attended the Pepsi superstar concert, and his life appeared in public for the last time.

Why did you choose to jump off a building? It is because it is the most thorough, vicious and impossible to turn around. He committed suicide by taking sleeping pills in 2002, but he was rescued again. He probably didn't want to waste the grief of his loved ones.

We don't know. All the tickets we got were one-way tickets. We will sit at the finish line together, and no one will get off the bus unless fate calls your name.

However, if there is another way to go on earth, why did he choose to take a shortcut home? He has never been opportunistic in his life. He has always been down-to-earth and conscientious in his work. It's not that he wants to take a shortcut home, but it's the only way to let his soul get peace.

He said, "I'm a well-behaved person and I haven't done anything wrong. When I return to China in a hundred years, I will go to heaven. " "heaven is a place full of love without pain ... aren't all the little angels in heaven in fairy tales people who know how to sing with poems and songs?" When he was on the earth, he liked reading poems and was good at singing. He has already become an angel on earth, and he will not let go when he returns to his hometown.

He died of illness. The world should remember not to add irresponsible speculation to his death. Why and how a person dies is an important thing, because death is the end, but what lasts longer than the end is the truth of human reputation and existence. This is not only a comfort to him, but also a way for us to repay the beauty he has given the world.