32-year-old actress committed suicide with depression: "I'm fine" is behind "help me"

Those frustrations and burdens in life are unbearable, so let them go.

To talk, to cry, someone will feel the same way.

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Another star committed suicide.

Or because of an incurable heart disease.

Ellen Joyce Loo, a 32-year-old Hong Kong singer.

It's a pity that I have to know her in this way.

On August 4th, Ellen Joyce Loo participated in the recording of "All People Make Stars". Everything is as usual on the stage, and there is no sign of world-weariness.

On August 5, she fell from her 20-story mansion and left the world in a hurry without even leaving a suicide note.

After preliminary investigation and certification by the police, homicide has been ruled out.

Ellen Joyce Loo's production company, A Crowd of People, sent a message of condolences through Ellen Joyce Loo's personal social account, which also confirmed that the culprit that prompted her to leap forward was bipolar disorder, which she had been fighting for years.

What is bipolar disorder?

Bipolar disorder is the abbreviation of bipolar disorder, which is explained in the encyclopedia as follows:

After reading some reports about Ellen Joyce Loo, I learned that she has been actively receiving treatment and never stopped taking medicine.

But why did she finally choose to give up?

I'm not her. I dare not talk nonsense.

However, this incident reminds me of the boy who also lost to depression at the end of last year, Kim Jonghyun, the lead singer of SHINee, a men's team of SM Company in South Korea.

27-year-old, handsome, tall and straight, just finished his popular solo concert. Even before he left, he had solved everything he could think of.

He signed an organ donation, left a legacy to his sister, celebrated the birthday of all members of the group, celebrated the success of member activities and TV dramas, and then carefully wrote a suicide note.

At the end of the suicide note, the last paragraph he left to the world was:

Words are full of fatigue.

For the world and for yourself.

In the past, because I didn't understand, I seriously understood the heart of patients with depression.

Climb the post bar, browse Zhihu, read psychology books, and even dive in the largest forum for depressed patients in China.

Looking at the monologue typed by the patient word by word, my only feeling is shock.

What I saw most there was that it was all my fault.

They constantly squeeze their own spirit to satisfy others, and carry all the faults on their shoulders, even trivial ones.

When the spirit is always under heavy pressure, no one can bear it until the end.

As a result, they will lose hope in the world, deny all positive and beautiful things, and finally deny themselves.

20 17 June, Maisie, a 6-year-old girl from Britain/kloc-0, committed suicide in the forest near her home after a happy and normal day.

When the police confirmed that Maisie's suicide was caused by depression, her family, friends and no one wanted to believe it.

Not long ago, she happily planned to travel to Greece with her family in two months.

There is a note in Maisie's belongings that says "I'm fine" in beautiful fancy English.

However, when her family accidentally turned the note over, they found that this sentence became "help me".

It is hard to imagine how a girl of 16 years old sends out a sad distress signal helplessly with a disguised smile every day.

Psychologically, this phenomenon is called "smile depression".

It hides deeper, lonelier and more desperate.

I have seen such a sentence before:

No one is closer to the suffering of the world than a comedian.

Chaplin once described his feelings like this:

He disguised himself as a clown and brought laughter to millions of people, but because he knew all the baggage, he saw all the absurdity. When happiness leaves him, no one can make him laugh, and no one feels the need to make him laugh.

Happiness and satisfaction have become masks that they have to cover up for a long time.

The fact is that modern people are comedians to varying degrees every day.

Yale University once conducted a survey on depression, which showed that the depressive tendency of international students in China was as high as 45%.

Even in the past three years, the cases of college students' suicide that can be searched are endless.

Being able to reach the level of their school, the psychological endurance will not be too bad.

They know more knowledge than ordinary people, their horizons are broader, their manners are more elegant and their hearts are more open.

But they are people.

People who are flesh and blood, can cry and laugh.

It's just that outsiders are used to their Excellence and can only grit their teeth.

On the surface, I look happy. I am calm, but in fact, my heart is bad to a certain extent.

Accumulated in my heart, nowhere to vent, and finally go home irreversibly.

And celebrities and elites.

Seems to have everything, fame, status, wealth ... no one will understand their unhappiness.

They are considered to be melodramatic, overthinking and bored ... and then they get deeper and deeper in this incomprehensible atmosphere.

If the depression of stars and elites is due to ignorance of the outside world, then the depression of ordinary people is probably forced by life.

I believe you still remember that not long ago, the middle-aged man suddenly untied himself from the Huashan plank road and jumped off the cliff.

He untied the safety rope on the high cliff, glanced at the people around him and jumped down decisively.

I didn't beat my chest or even say a word, as if it was a temporary idea and a prepared farewell.

I still remember when I saw this picture, my eyes suddenly turned red.

How can a person be so silent even when he is dead, and do not hesitate to erase the traces of life?

There is a popular saying on the Internet:

The collapse of modern people is silent.

This may be because I don't want to bother others, or it may be because no one asks.

Loneliness, unable to restrain;

Sad, unable to resolve.

Everyone is too busy to cry, let alone feel sorry for themselves.

No one knows what is hidden behind the happiness of the person who smiles at you every morning, how much pressure he is under and how many times he wants to die.

We all cried silently under the quilt, or smoked awake until dawn.

Then continue to provoke the standard smile the next day and pretend that you are happy.

Those evaporated tears, no one knows if you don't tell.

But ah, we really don't have to pretend to be strong.

No one can live a smooth life, and no one can do it.

Those bumps and burdens in life can't be carried, so let them go, talk and cry, and someone will always feel the same.

Take a step back and say, even if there is no one, you can hug yourself and tell yourself:

You have done well, please don't give up!

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