What are the unknown reasons behind Zhang Ailing's preferring abortion to having children?

On July 5th, 1956, Zhang Ailing's second husband Yala received her second letter. After receiving the letter, Yala fell into chaos. What can make a man so entangled must be a major event, and the major events in the world are always related to life and death. It was an important event involving life and death mentioned by Zhang Ailing in her letter that made Yala react so much: Zhang Ailing was pregnant and the child was his.

This year, Yala was 65 years old and Zhang Ailing was 36 years old.

Sixty-five years old is not a small age for anyone. If Zhang Ailing really gave birth to this baby, in China's view, this baby will even be called "Yala's old son".

At that time, Yala had been divorced for many years, and her ex-wife gave birth to a daughter as big as Zhang Ailing. In this case, it is still unknown whether Yala's daughter will accept this younger brother and sister who is dozens of years younger than herself. But this should not be Yarra's main consideration. What Yala values most is whether Zhang Ailing is willing to give birth to this child.

I don't know how Yala wrote back at that time, only that Zhang Ailing chose to abort the fetus in the end. The world has speculated that Zhang Ailing's abortion is most likely because Yala refused to have this child. After all, logically, most women don't want to have an abortion. Especially when Zhang Ailing has decided to marry Yala. Most people hold this view. Today, the world still thinks that Zhang Ailing's abortion was the result of Yala's persecution, and some even spread the rumor that Yala said that she would not marry Zhang Ailing if she didn't have an abortion. Some people think that the economic conditions of the two at that time were not allowed, and considering Yala's age, Zhang Ailing gave up her children. Others think that Zhang Ailing had an abortion because she was afraid that Yala would get old and her children would suffer from some possible diseases. Guess, there are various versions, but no one can guess: all this is Zhang Ailing's own choice.

Zhang Ailing has always been a woman who is detached from the secular world. Call her "the most awake and lonely person" or "a lonely flower left in the world" In a word, she has never been like others. The biggest performance of Zhang Ailing is that her expressions and actions often make people feel that she is a bit unreasonable and even cold. "Killing children", a seemingly heartless and even inhuman thing, happened to Zhang Ailing, whose ideas were never like others. Actually, it's normal. It's not that Yala doesn't want this child, but that Zhang Ailing doesn't want it herself. Little reunion, an autobiographical novel written by Zhang Ailing in her later years, is a clear proof. In little reunion, Zhang Ailing named herself Jiu Li. There is a shocking description in the novel, which tells the details of Zhang Ailing's abortion:

"Nine miles saw a male fetus in the toilet and felt terrible to the extreme. He pulled the motor button and the fetus disappeared in the choppy waves." It can be inferred from this description that when Zhang Ailing had an abortion, the fetus was already formed, and the sex can be seen. Usually the naked eye should see the sex of the fetus, usually after the fetus is four months old. This means that Zhang Ailing has been hesitant about whether to have this child for some time. This hesitation also means that Zhang Ailing has not reached the acme of cool thin, and she has feelings for this child. Why else would she struggle for so long? No matter how tangled her heart was, she finally gave up this life that tried to come to this world through her. The reason why she finally decided to give up this innocent life is also revealed in her autobiographical novels.

There is a classic dialogue about children in little reunion. When Zhang Ailing was asked if she wanted to have children, she seemed to say with a faint smile:

"I don't want it. I don't want it at the best, even if I have money and reliable people. " At the end of the book, Zhang Ailing also said for this passage:

"She (Jiu Li) has never wanted children, perhaps partly because she thinks that if she has children, it will be bad for her and will avenge her mother."