Reflections on Xie Zhiqiang's Reading Father

In Liang's mind, his father is the head of the family, has absolute authority, and lives by selling his physical strength. He is a benefactor and a person who scares me. Because of his absolute leadership position in the family, his words and deeds affect everyone's life trajectory. His rough beating and cursing made me stutter to middle school, and also made me understand what a man's dignity is. A tolerant and patient mother will always be like a gentle sheep in front of him. A strong sense of self made him rather believe the fortune teller's theory of "killing women" than listen to the doctor's sincere advice, which eventually delayed his sister's treatment opportunity and led to her early death. It is precisely because of his harshness, rudeness and ignorance that he is bent on thinking that his future brother went crazy before graduating from college ... These broken memories, even with a painful feeling, are deeply imprinted in my mind and cannot be erased. But this doesn't mean that I don't respect my father. I don't love my father. He also has something to respect. For example, he is a strong man in Shandong. He doesn't sigh, complain or beg. His life principle is "Everything is Dont Ask For Help". His spine is as strong as a mountain, and a person silently bears the livelihood of a family of six.

It is such a contradictory father who combines majesty, rudeness, ignorance, stubbornness and responsibility, which makes Liang love and hate, sympathize and pity, and makes their father-son relationship much more complicated than ordinary people.

The book once said: "In the father-son relationship, its essence is undoubtedly the diluent that dissolves the affection of bone and blood." It peacefully distorts the most natural ethics of human nature into the most absurd debt. Poverty is cursed, not only because it causes material debts, but also because it causes spiritual and emotional debts. "Maybe this article of Liang is to redeem his father's share of the debt!

It is natural for a husband to take care of his wife and children and take up the obligation to support his family, but Liang boils down to whether it is the mother and brothers who are "eating" their father or they are eating "willfully". As the object of being eaten, my father didn't complain at all, which made me, as a child, consciously think about my father's situation, understand his misfortune, and be compassionate at the same time. The stuttering incident undoubtedly left a deep shadow on the author's mind, but how strong can a child be afraid of his father! Therefore, the last sentence just now simply encourages children to eat, which makes the author see that the father also has a kind side. You know, in that poor era, a full meal was already a luxury, and encouraging eating was undoubtedly the progress of food. But that's how he endured it silently. Even if I was misunderstood by my children and saved money, I didn't want to take it out to build a house for my son to get married. When he was angry, he just sighed helplessly, that's all. Poverty has put too much pressure on my father, and because of poverty, my father, as an ignorant old farmer, has always been resented and despised by the son of an intellectual. When he found out that his son had treated his father like this, who could understand and share his painful heart? Who will cure his rickets?