Is there something wrong with my brain?

Ectopic pregnancy has been more than 2 years, and I am still not pregnant. People around me say I have a good attitude, but in fact they just think. Now I finally want to calm down and think about it: Is it really necessary for me to have children?

Why have children? For inheritance, for making parents happy, because I like children, because I am curious about the appearance of our descendants or what kind of people our descendants will become? Or maybe it's just genes that want me to inherit genes.

Prepare one pregnancy in the past two years, scientifically arrange ovulation test paper, Chinese medicine conditioning and western medicine examination. During this period, superstition of sweet potatoes will be associated with pregnancy, fortune telling and going to temples. Results Every month, I pressed the Times, then 1-2 blamed myself and my mind collapsed. A man growled silently in the room, smiled and watched the birth of his family the next day and said, Come on.

Does the husband cooperate? Cooperate, but it doesn't matter Although I don't drink, I smoke and stay up all night. My strong figure made people around me feel that it must be my problem and advised me to exercise more, but I was helpless. When I was crying during my period, he always hugged me to comfort me and told me that it didn't matter whether I was born or not, which made me feel that maybe now is his most comfortable state, and I was the only one who was worried about whether I could have children.

My health is really worse than before. Although age is part of it, I still have a lot of anger in my heart, and my eyes are probably crying too much. Now I often feel sore and bloated all over, my immunity has also decreased, and my whole body itches. The funny thing is that the family will say, "Why do you have a cold again? You are in poor health. "

My heart is not as cheerful as before. I used to feel lucky. Although it is not smooth sailing, I love all the people and things around me. Now I think I must have done something unnatural to suffer this torture. Seeing the birthday of relatives and children at home, the children of friends' families grow up healthily, and the official announcement of pregnancy in the circle of friends is jealousy and self-pity. When eating in a restaurant, I often look at a family of three. The most exaggerated time, eating hot pot, I saw a little girl eating cute at the front table, and my tears came down.

But I don't want to have a baby by scientific means. The process is very painful. If it ends in failure, the last line of defense in my heart will collapse. If it succeeds, I don't know if it will become my mantra of educating children or losing my temper with my family: how much I have suffered for this child! I don't want to be the kind of parent I don't like, but I know that if I have children like this, I will probably become such a person in the future.

I have been driving today. What will happen to me if I have no children?

You don't have to go to a first-tier city to buy a house (I was thinking about children studying before, but I have to go to a first-tier city to buy a house);

I can have more space to control my own funds without saving money for my children;

I don't have to go through the pain of finger snapping or caesarean section, and I don't have to go through the pain of breastfeeding;

I don't have to worry about children's illness, development, school and other things;

It may reduce many family conflicts caused by educational concepts;

My relationship with my former husband will be more pure and will not be fettered by children;

I can think more about the rest of my life and spend more time with my family.

I don't have to pay too much attention to social changes, and I don't have to worry too much, as long as I live in the present;

I can make myself happy and let myself drift;

As long as I feel unnecessary, I can relax, enjoy myself and cherish the people around me.