Yin and Yang are separated, and love is better than Shi Jian.

After breaking up with Di Feng for 99 days, I finally climbed out of the pile of death. For more than three months, I felt like a corpse wandering around the world.

I paralyze my nerves with alcohol every day. I don't want to do anything. I think you can only forget the past if you are drunk.

On the day of breaking up, I submitted my resignation application to my boss and sublet the house we lived together to someone else. I don't want to think of his memories in my mind. Even if I continue to live with him in a house with his breath, I will feel uncomfortable.

It was a lawless day, and 99 days of hell made me wish I were dead.

During this period, my friend called me countless times and hung up after saying two words. Fortunately, my friends are loyal to each other. Under my repeated entreaties, they didn't tell my parents about my breakup with Di Feng.

A year ago, I thought Di Feng and I would continue, from first love to wedding dress, but I was wrong after all.

Three months before we broke up, I took Di Feng back to my hometown to meet my parents. My father was satisfied with him, but my mother never liked us.

In the evening, my mother secretly called me to my room and advised me to break up with Di Feng. She said that she had calculated a hexagram for me before, and the eight I typed collided with the boy outside, so it was difficult to get together.

But I don't believe this evil, because I really love Di Feng, and I can't wait to give her everything I have. For him, I can give up my present job and go to the city he wants to go with him.

So I quarreled with my mother that night. It was the fiercest quarrel with my mother since childhood. Finally my mother cried, and I cried, too. When I went out, my mother said, "Anyway, I still hope you can be happy forever. Come back when you are sad. "

Di Feng may never know what happened. He doesn't know that I will quarrel with my mother for our future, and I'm not going to tell him about it.

Three months later, it seemed that I really fell in love with the fortune teller, and I really broke up with Di Feng. That night, he hugged another woman, and I was kept in the dark like a fool.

I used to hear friends say that I was cheating, and I often saw news of a star's cheating and divorce on major social networking sites, but I naively thought that Di Feng was the only good man in the world. He once said in my ear that he would always love me until I was old.

But on this dramatic side, the word derailment stung my brain like a thunder.

The same action, the same words, but he is holding another woman in his arms. After the incident, Di Feng came to apologize to me, but I refused. A broken heart is like glass, which can never be restored.

"Di Feng, let's break up." I said these words that day and held back my tears.

"F, there is really no room to retain? Will you listen to me explain? " Di Feng pleaded a little piteously.

I shook my head with my head down, but my tears were really disobedient and kept dripping on Di Feng's Nike shoes, which I gave him as a birthday present.

"F, that can let me hug you again? For the last time, as a farewell, Di Feng cried. That was the second time I saw him cry. The first time was when I went back to his home to attend his grandfather's funeral. He cried once.

He once told me that he was brought up by his grandfather, who can be said to be the most respected one in his heart. I cried for my grandfather once, but the second time was for me.

But I have told Di Feng countless times that if one day he really doesn't love me, just tell me directly and don't look for another woman to hurt me. I don't know why Di Feng made a mistake, but I'm not in the mood to listen to his explanation. Once a man has an affair, for whatever reason, this love is incomplete to me.

After saying goodbye, Di Feng really left the next day, quietly. The woman disappeared like a human being, as if it were an episode, but it hurt my feelings forever.

It is said that the best way to end a relationship is to start a new one quickly. I tried this method. I spent the first week of breaking up in a bar every day.

As long as I dress up very brightly every night, wear exquisite makeup, wear a suspender skirt and show up at the bar with my most expensive coach bag in my hand.

At first, men will come to greet me and express their affection to me, but I have met many such men. They don't really love you, they just want to satisfy themselves.

So, one refused, and the other almost fought with him. As soon as he came over, he began to touch his hands. I can't take it anymore. I gave him a wave of my hand and gave him a red cheek.

The owner of the wine bar has been advising me that this matter should be solved with money, otherwise maybe we will enter the police station by fighting. After that, I stopped going to bars.

After 99 days of hell, I don't think I deserve love in my life. A month later, I finally got up the courage to tell my mother about me and Di Feng/

When my mother found out, she didn't criticize too much and didn't say anything about Di Feng. She just comforted me and went home when I was tired. After listening to my mother's words, I immediately took my suitcase to buy a ticket home.

During that time, my mother arranged blind dates for me everywhere, and one guy after another arranged to come to my house, but I really had no feelings for these people.

After many failed blind dates, my mother called me to her room that day. The same scene, the same tone asked me if I still can't forget Di Feng.

When I heard my mother say this name, tears flowed down like spring water. I'm afraid to hear the name. I tried very hard to forget this person and forget this name. I spent so long trying not to think about everything about him, but in front of my mother, I still failed, completely lost.

You can't forget a feeling you really gave. I cried all night with my mother in my arms. The next day, my mother sent me some tickets early in the morning.

As for the plane ticket, I later learned that my mother bought it for me at the ticket office early in the morning. She won't pay online, so she has to go to the manual ticket office and ask the staff to buy those tickets.

"Bon voyage. Don't think too much now. No blind date, no blind date. Mom will always be with you. "

"Thank you, Mom." I bid farewell to the airport with tears in my eyes and flew to the place I always yearned for.

That's not only the place I want to go alone, but also the city that Di Feng has always wanted to go to. At that time, I often snuggled in his arms, and he told me the love story of Cangyang Jiacuo and Maggie Ami.

He said that he would take me all over the country in the future, buy a small shop on the streets of Lhasa, play the guitar for me and recite poems to me every day. And once those lies are as illusory as the wind.

-2-

After several hours of flying and changing trains, I finally set foot on that sacred land. I hope this trip will make me really forget that person.

After arriving in Lhasa, I stayed in the most famous hotel there. I walk in the streets of Lhasa during the day and listen to the love legend about Cangyang Gyatso. At night, I will stay quietly in the hotel bar, drink highland barley tea and chat with friends from all over the world.

That day, a man with a guitar and a hat appeared in the hotel. He picked up the guitar and immediately sang "I can also be a wandering poet" by a good sister band. Hatefully, this song also made many people present cry. Of course, I didn't put up with poison.

Because Di Feng used to sing me the same song, which he confessed to me on my 25th birthday. He knows that I like Li Qingzhao very much and wants to express that he can also write poems for me, so he uses this song to express his affection for me.

Recall everything before, at the end of the last sentence: perhaps, I can also be a bard, perhaps, I can also be a wandering poet. Then suddenly burst into tears and became the focus of the audience. Scenes appeared in front of me again.

"F, I like you, I like you for a long time. I will read to you every day after you love reading poetry, and I will learn to cook for you after you love eating chocolate. As long as you promise to be my girlfriend, F can do whatever you want me to do. " Facing Di Feng, I agreed.

That day, Di Feng kissed me and sang this song to me on the guitar. At that time, I really thought that I would go with Di Feng all my life, but when I listened to this song again, he was no longer with me.

The next day, the man appeared again. It's the same guitar, but he changed his clothes and didn't wear a hat. As soon as he came on stage, the people below began to scream. I stared at him carefully for a few times. Except for the black spots on the skin, the five senses are not bad.

"What, I have a crush on someone?" My friend gave me a push

"No, don't talk nonsense. You know I don't deserve any bullshit love, but young man, he looks good. " He said, picked up the glass and took a sip of wine.

After a few hours, the people in the hotel gradually dispersed. Everyone went to sleep and went home, leaving only me and that man. But he also began to pack his bags and planned to leave.

"Hey, are you traveling alone? I'm Xu Yao. Do you know him? " I asked and walked up to the man.

"I'm Ma Geng, by the way, I'm not here to travel, just to fulfill my big brother's wish."

"Anyway, make friends. I'm going to the big igloo tomorrow. You wait for me at the hotel gate. " I don't know what happened to me. I have rejected one boy after another, but it is difficult for me to express my feelings in the face of Ma Geng, who I just met.

My heart tells me that he has the breath of Di Feng, and his every move is very similar to that of Di Feng. He takes his time and sings like Di Feng. Once he spoke, he was completely silent in his own world.

If I have to ask why I have feelings for him, I think it's mainly because of Di Feng, but I keep forcing myself to rule out this idea.

When I got back to the hotel, I never thought Ma Geng would come, but the next day he appeared at the door of the hotel and waited for me.

I joked, "Comrade Pony, do you really want to go out with my sister?"

Ma Geng didn't speak, just smiled. Later, in a chat with him, I learned that this boy is two years younger than me, from Sichuan, and has three brothers at home.

The eldest brother has done well in state-owned enterprises, and the second brother started his own business, and now it is also tens of millions of assets. Only he likes free life and music, and lives an idle life every day, so his hobby is nothing in the eyes of adults, so he ran out in conflict with his family.

Later, when he was singing and playing in a small town in Yunnan, he met a big brother. The eldest brother appreciated Ma Geng's talent very much, so he took out all his possessions 1.5 million and opened a pub with Ma Geng in a small town.

Two people take care of things in the store every day, and life is ok. The only misfortune is that my eldest brother got stomach cancer and died a few months ago because of medical ineffectiveness. At this point, tears began to appear in the corner of Ma Geng's eyes.

"Do you admire your big brother?" I asked anxiously.

"You know what? He treated me like a brother. He helped me when I was most helpless and always supported my music. We are both bosom friends and brothers, "said Ma Geng's affectionate eyes. I know big brother is very important to him.

"Xu Yao, let me tell you a story about my eldest brother and my sister-in-law."

"Well, well, I'm willing to listen."

-3-

Eldest brother once loved a woman, my sister-in-law. Every time he mentions it, his eyes glow. I can see that he misses his sister-in-law very much. Once I asked him why he was not with his sister-in-law. As soon as he mentions it, he will cry and say nothing. Once I had a drink with my eldest brother, and he didn't tell the story of him and his sister-in-law until he was almost drunk.

Sister-in-law is a particularly beautiful girl. In order to pursue his sister-in-law, eldest brother specially studied musicology, cooking and poetry. All this is because my sister-in-law likes these things. Sister-in-law was moved by his actions and agreed to the pursuit of eldest brother.

They lived a very comfortable life after being together. Although eldest brother told sister-in-law, women are responsible for beauty and men are responsible for making money to support their families. But my sister-in-law is an independent person and has her own stable job.

Both of them go to work during the day, and whoever goes home early at night cooks. There seems to be a tacit understanding between them.

"Yao Yao, if you are tired from work in the future, don't go to work. You are only responsible for beauty. As for life, I will definitely try to make money to support you. " Di Feng once told me what a familiar word it is.

I feel as bad as a knife when I think about it. Ma Geng saw that my face was a little wrong and asked me if I wanted to go to bed. I shook my head and he continued.

Of course, my sister-in-law also loves my eldest brother very much and took him to see his parents. It used to be a good life, but once my eldest brother went to the hospital for examination because he was not feeling well and found that he had reached the advanced stage of gastric cancer.

In order to prevent my sister-in-law from suffering with him, eldest brother deliberately got drunk on the grounds of gathering with leading colleagues and asked her to pick him up. When my sister-in-law arrived, eldest brother held a waitress and deliberately put on an act to make my sister-in-law misunderstand.

Seeing this, Sister-in-law really thought that Big Brother was cheating and made up her mind to break up with Big Brother, so the relationship between Big Brother and Sister-in-law ended.

After breaking up, my eldest brother came to Yunnan to travel, and I happened to meet him. My eldest brother also said that the place he wanted to go most was Tibet, and he had promised his sister-in-law to take her to Tibet before. Although separated from her, eldest brother believes that he will see her again one day.

Because he once said to her, "If one day she leaves, he will go to Lhasa and wait for her until the end of his life." This is their agreement. But before he finished all this, he was killed by the disease.

"Yao Yao, will you let me hug you again?" Di Feng's voice has been lingering in Xu Yao's ear, and this story told by Ma Geng is more like her love with Di Feng.

"Pony, what's your brother's name?" Xu Yao asked anxiously. She hoped Ma Geng's answer would surprise her. She was scared, but she wanted to hear the answer.

Di Feng.

The words sound just fell and Xu Yao was like a body blow, and the whole person suddenly became stupid.

She once hated that man, hated him for supporting her, hated her for hurting herself, and tried many ways to forget him, but it was his figure that could not be erased. But she hates herself more, hating that she didn't listen to his explanation, hating that she abandoned him because she didn't understand the situation, and hating that she buried her love.

Xu Yao kept sobbing and crying, and Ma Geng was at a loss. After a while, Xu Yao finally spoke.

"Pony, why do you want to sing" I can be a wandering poet "by my sister's band?"

"My eldest brother taught me. My eldest brother seems to like this song very much. Every time in the dead of night, he will pick up the guitar and sing this song, but he never sings this song in front of outsiders during the day because he says this song can only be sung to his sister-in-law. "

"Di Feng, can I ask you something? Can you just sing the song you sang when you confessed to me? " Xu Yao coquetry to ask Di Feng.

"Well, this is your exclusive song in the future." Di Feng held Xu Yao's head, kept stroking her hair, and answered softly.

It turned out that he always remembered it. For so long, she didn't know that he loved her so much. She misunderstood and missed it. She doesn't want this to happen again. He's gone, but his soul is still there. She must not miss being with him this time.

Xu Yao stopped crying and got up and said to Ma Geng, "I want to rent a small room here and live here." Ma Geng was a little puzzled by Xu Yao's sudden decision, but he didn't say anything.

"Pony, let me fulfill your big brother's wish."

At sunset, Xu Yao's figure is getting longer and longer. The sky in Lhasa is beautiful and the air is fresh.

Di Feng, I will realize your wish in the future, because you are here, so I will stay here until the end of my life.