The feeling of destiny takes a hand makes people helpless.

I don't like the familiarity of "as if it happened in an instant"

The feeling of deja vu.

I've never felt this way about anyone. It's all something that happened somewhere before, a moment or a feeling. I have experienced it.

But I haven't experienced it. It just feels familiar

I don't like this feeling, because it makes me feel depressed. No matter what I do, my ending is doomed. I don't like it.

1

When I was a child, my fortune teller told me that I would be admitted to Tsinghua Peking University and become one of the best talented women in our region. When I was a child, my academic performance was always good. When I was in junior high school, I began to want to play the devil's advocate. I don't like my good academic performance because of my life, not because of my hard work and intelligence. It is the discipline of parents, the cultivation of teachers and my life. I don't rule out these factors, but I can't deny my efforts because of them. So, I dropped out of school at an early age.

The fortune teller never wants to see me again. When we met later, we nodded awkwardly and the people around us didn't say anything.

I stopped asking him to tell my fortune. I didn't ask him what would happen.

He will know the consequences soon, and he doesn't have to calculate them.

2

Later, I spent a long time in the society, and I also wondered, what would happen now if I hadn't dropped out of school?

Probably still in college, after class, spending parents' money, everything is discipline, no freedom.

Think about it this way or forget it. Go on, bite the bullet and move on.

What often makes me feel inferior now is that in this world of grabbing a lot of masters and doctors casually, I only have a diploma from junior high school. Every time I look for a job, I feel guilty when I ask about my education, but I always follow the next sentence. Personally, I don't think education is that important, but it depends on my ability.

Probably because most of the jobs that people with low academic qualifications can do don't need much academic qualifications, so fortunately, I can usually find a job. But the level is not high.

Later, I tasted some human sufferings, saw some human feelings warm and cold, and began to believe in fate slowly. Up and down five thousand years of cultural heritage, or a little credibility.

Everyone likes to live a good life, and no one wants to live a bad life. I will also start to pay attention to some quietly and find that some things are really accurate. I began to doubt life.

If everyone's life is predestined at birth, we live only to complete the agenda. What's the point of living like this, living like this? This kind of life is unfair.

Why do some people have a good life and some people have a bad life? Why is the feud in the past life related to this life? In this life, everyone should be equal, right

Don't struggle if you are suffering. Anyway, you are miserable, and no matter how hard you try, you can't get what you want.

Lucky people don't have to struggle. Anyway, if you are lucky, you can get what you want casually.

Isn't the world a mess?

But what about life? Is it allowed or not? Believe it or not?

three

People who have read my face and palm tell me that I have lived a rich life. Bitter before sweet, all the blessings are behind.

This makes me feel at ease.

But I also doubt myself, will people like me really have money?

You and I both know how difficult it is to make money and how difficult it is to survive. Besides, people who have nothing like me have a lower starting point than others.

There are so many people in this world who are better, smarter, harder and harder than me. If they can't get happiness and wealth, how can I get it? How can I feel at ease?

four

According to the fortune teller, I should be admitted to Tsinghua Peking University, then continue to study, then marry a good man, and then work together, and a good day will come soon.

But I stopped studying, so I chose to drop out of school.

Now, I am still doing a grass-roots job that is not taken seriously, and my salary barely supports my life, largely because I really spend money lavishly.

I have been out of society for more than 4 years this year. No savings, no lover, no background, no future. Even often doubt life.

But today, I have a feeling of deja vu, where it happened, which makes me a little depressed. If I go around such a big circle and spare such a long and difficult road, the ending is still the same, then I am not blind for nothing?

I want to get rid of the bondage of fate, but I hope to get his result.

After four years of hard work, my salary is now twice that of girls of the same age. This is the result of my efforts step by step, not my fate.

Next, I will follow my heart, refuse to accept fate, and struggle hard. Anyway, this is the ending, so I'll toss it hard.

Anyway, that's it anyway. !