The fortune teller said I was a literary star.

Poor grades are relative, and poor learning is not innate.

Dissatisfied because it is too far from your own ideal.

So what should we do? You should assess the situation, see what you want to do in the future, and break it down into small steps, so you won't feel confused.

Don't put so much pressure on yourself, it's not good. Besides, don't feel guilty. When you enter the society, a few years later, you will find that studying well is not directly proportional to working well. Education is just a stepping stone. People who may study well will have more opportunities in the early stage of job hunting. But whether you can live long depends on who you are.

Adjust your mentality, because there will be more pressure waiting for you in the future. If you can't read well, you can't force it. To cultivate your hobbies, of course, it is best to have a positive hobby, learn what you are interested in and do what you are good at, and one day you will find what you have learned useful.