I have some energy.

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This is an exercise, an exercise about magic.

Sometimes you have to believe that you have some kind of energy. Some kind of ability that cannot be easily displayed may be supernatural, or it may come from the unspeakable ability in the body.

I have always believed that kindness is the essence. Be kind to all beings and lead yourself back to where you should go. I wonder if it will cause some anxiety to others.

My mother-in-law has been offering sacrifices to the Buddhist shrine since she married her in-laws. On the first day and fifteenth day, the home will be shrouded in a faint fragrance fog. Although I have no faith, I have always respected my mother-in-law's faith.

I remember the day when my eldest son died of illness and was ready to be cremated. It was early morning in winter, about six o'clock. This is the first time I have slept after a few busy days. Maybe it's almost dawn. I'm still sleeping. Suddenly, a boat drifted into my dream along the river. Behind the boat is a green hill with three peaks. On the boat stood a monk in a cassock, floating from a distance. When the ship approached, several golden lights shone, and I couldn't open my eyes. See clearly in an instant. It's big.

The night before, when his mother came to see him, she asked for a dream in front of his coffin. He gave me a peaceful dream. Before that, I didn't object to faith, but I never came into contact with it, and I didn't have any ideas about faith. However, he knows that in this family, although all the others are close relatives except me, they can't understand where the children's real needs are, only know that everything is solved with money. I think only I, who is not related by blood, know him best.

This is my first contact with the issue of faith. Then there is a more interesting dream.

It was about three o'clock in the winter morning, and I was still sleeping, as if I were taking my daughter somewhere to play and walking halfway up the mountain. Suddenly, the Buddha patted me on the head, and my brain suddenly woke up, as if I knew something, and a golden light flashed behind my head. I thought at that time, I want to worship Buddha. Halfway up the mountain, you have to worship other people's buddhas. Wake up from a dream, I don't know why. Go to my mother-in-law's house to discuss with her in the morning.

I remember discussing it with my mother-in-law. In the morning, I put my daughter on the bus. I went to my mother-in-law's house to prepare breakfast for them. My father-in-law came back from walking outside and bought breakfast. Mother-in-law hunched her back and sat on the bed. There was a faint smell of friendship cream in the room. Father-in-law's bedding has been folded, and mother-in-law's bedding is still on the bed.

I told my mother-in-law a dream that I thought was very clear. When I told her a story, she kept her head down and rubbed hands with each other. She stopped listening to me, pondered for a while and said, "I gave it to Lafayette, and after a hundred years, you will give it again." Isn't that the Buddha who was invited halfway? " Mother-in-law is a smart person and accepts new things quickly. The relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law is always conservative and modern. She is very old-fashioned, but she considers my feelings. She wants me to continue her sacrifice, but she doesn't force me to do so.

At that time, I didn't think much about the next thing, so I passed.

A year before her mother-in-law died, she had been living in her sister's house. After her mother-in-law left, Buddha lived in her sister's house. I wanted to invite her back to fulfill my mother-in-law's wish. However, I am still a little timid. Usually pay little attention to the lunar calendar, only know the full moon, fifteen. If you don't know the lunar calendar, it is easy to forget the incense. Husband is a policeman, he said, if you don't believe it, you won't believe it. If you believe it, you should believe it all. Don't cause unnecessary trouble because of poor care. For me, sacrifice is dispensable. Those are formal support, so it is better to follow the kindness from the heart and be kind to the heart. All life-oriented principles require you to help yourself within your power. Always better. I kowtow and bow every day, burning incense and chanting, but what I want is my own self-interest.

When I visited Linggu Temple in Nanjing the year before last, I put incense sticks on it. When we climbed the stairs, before we reached the temple gate, the monk selling incense at the gate pointed to me and said that the patroness was Wang Fu's life, with a kind face and a kind heart. In August, if you borrow money, don't lend it. If you go, you won't come back. In October, you will make money.

The phase is born by the heart, and the life is decided by oneself. I never tell fortune, and I don't want to know the unknown in the future in advance.

Bought incense, entered the temple, put on incense, and worshipped Buddha. When I bow down to the Buddha, my heart is empty and there is no messy prayer.

One day at the end of August, my husband called. Our mutual friend wants to borrow a large sum of money. My head buzzed, and the forgotten prophecy really appeared. The friend who borrowed money was locked up in the police station. She called to borrow money to help her out. She had such a big accident, let's not tell her husband. My husband was soft-hearted and wanted to send money, but I decisively refused. First, it must be a scandal for her. It's illegal, otherwise she wouldn't be put in the police station. Second, if you are waiting for money to save people because you are sick, you must help. Third, friends who haven't contacted for a long time suddenly contacted, but borrowed money because of the scandal. She kept calling, so I turned off my phone.

As for 10 to make money, it is inevitable. I wonder where the monk saw it.

A few days ago, because my daughter volunteered to quarrel with her husband, she went to Dunhua to burn incense with friends and children. In my subconscious, I have expectations and expectations for incense. However, after I put on the incense, I knelt in front of the Buddha, folded my hands and looked up at the Buddha through the lingering incense mist. With Buddha's smiling face, accept the grace given to me by Buddha. My heart is still so quiet, there is no prayer. However, in a trance, I saw the Buddha's eyes rolling in his smile. My heart is beating.

Many people say that I have Buddhist karma. However, I think I should follow my heart and seek a rational free will. Don't do anything and don't forget to move. The body follows my heart, and the heart follows my will.