Ye Xiaomei's fortune telling

The most novel article in the 2008 issue

This is the February 2008 issue.

It is called "Love without Road", a free bird.

Life is a dark ocean,

No ship can pass easily.

Text/free bird

This is a story about the reincarnation of a woman and a man for five generations.

This is a story about forbidden love.

This is a story about enduring love and pain at all costs.

This is love.

Some kind of animal love.

"Handsome men and beautiful women, do you need fortune telling?"

A middle-aged woman who looks like a vagabond goes straight to Ayou and Xiaoke and asks with a smile.

"No, thank you." Ayou took out a piece of paper money and sent her away.

The beggar woman stood still and sighed, "Mr. and Ms. are people whose fate has no reincarnation." I just want to say a few words of advice. Maybe it's ridiculous, it's not pleasant to listen to, just consider it crazy. "

In a previous life, Miss Yuan was especially the daughter-in-law of Yan State. Wei Taizi Dan played ancient songs only because Jing Ke praised: "What beautiful hands!" Prince Taizi Dan will cut off your hand as a gift to him and earn a hero's heart with beautiful hands. The wind is rustling and the water is cool, and the strong man is gone forever. Jing Ke went to the state of Qin to assassinate Ying Zheng, the king of Qin, but died before his ambition, with blood spattered with gold. First, he owes you a pair of hands.

Miss Er, you are the charming daughter of a rich family. You met a scholar at the temple fair and fell in love at first sight. The two met quietly at dusk under the bridge of smoke and oil. Goodbye. The next day, your father ordered you to go on a blind date, so you couldn't keep the appointment. Weisheng is so stupid. He is afraid that you won't see him when you come, but he won't leave until the river rises. He held on to the bridge post until he drowned. In this life, you owe him a life.

Miss San, you are Su Xiaoxiao, a famous prostitute in Qiantang. You are not chaste but beautiful. "I take the tanker and cross the green mane horse. Where is the knot? Under the pine and cypress in Xiling. " You used several hundred taels of silver to help a down-and-out scholar to take the exam in Beijing. After winning the lottery, he occupied another wife's room and never came back. /kloc-When you were 0/9 years old, you died at Xizi Lake. In this life, he owes you a favor

The fourth life is this moment. You know who you admire. But this life is still predestined, and we can't be together! The red rope of fate binds you two to death. This is a difficult marriage, but you will never get married! If you don't forget him, your life will be miserable

I have no doubt about your love. But miss, I suggest you leave this gentleman. Forget him and don't look back.

The beggar woman turned and left after saying the above.

Xiaoke and Ayou held hands too hard, and their joints turned white with despair. A You took off the wedding ring on the ring finger of her left hand and put it in her pocket, but it left a particularly clear impression. Confirmed that it was impossible for him and her.

An indescribable relationship. Rejected by morality. In everyone's eyes, it's just lust.

But how could she forget? ! Even a tragic fate, you can't forget it! ! ——

Three years ago, when 19 was old, Xiaoke flew to the far north alone. To see her lover, Ayu. You know, it was the first time she went out alone and flew for the first time. I spent all my money to buy a round-trip ticket, got on a rickety McDonnell Douglas plane, took off and circled in my mother's painful eyes, and flew north in the cold winter all year round. There is a strong airflow in the middle of the flight, and the stewardess will press the seat and fasten the seat belt. She closed her eyes and thought, you can't die, I haven't seen him yet! He is waiting for me. I must shake hands with him before I die! If tomorrow is the end of the world, choose to be with him until the world disappears and the stars smash.

His deep love for him is as irresistible as death. I have never had such deep feelings for the second person. This strong feeling is stuck in the gene and grows like an inseparable organ.

He and his northeast friend Lian Huawei bought a new chair specially after their arrival, and the empty chair was waiting for her in the north. At that time, he was penniless, and few people wanted to see him except the debt collectors. He bought a chair just to wait for her arrival. A 3 1 year-old man who grew up as a bandit is waiting for the arrival of an inexperienced girl.

Love for the beast. Love regardless of consequences and costs. Desperate love.

Since then, I have never found a similar love, nor did I commit suicide like the first time. Yes, 19 years old, no money, no reputation, no aging, no decadence ... It is because there is nothing that you can give everything.

I can't think of the future.

It didn't crash. He and his friends came to the airport to meet the girl. Two handsome men, with average height and neat short hair, both dressed in black fur coats and dark blue jeans, looked radiant and full of interest like children. The three of them huddled together to eat northeast bone soup and sing. At this time, Hua Lian met Xiaoke for the first time, and Ayou met Xiaoke for the second time.

In KTV, A You sang Jeff Chang Shin-Che Shen Che's Bai Yueguang.

Bai Yueguang/Somewhere in my heart/But it's so cold/Everyone has a sadness/I want to hide, but shattered glass/Bai Yueguang shines on both ends of the world/I don't care about it/I can't wipe away your tears at that time/I can't forgive you because the road is too long/I can't say you are hurt/I want to forget, but I can't help but recall/I stumbled all the way in exile and your bondage can't be released/.

The tune is bleak and gorgeous. She's hand holding the microphone is also slightly cold.

Back to Lianhua single men's apartment, a room to rest. The shower suddenly broke down. Ayou came in with a basin and helped her take off her shoes and socks and wash her feet. This is the first time that she has been exposed to barefoot by people other than her parents.

She cried and couldn't sleep. He pumped hot water, squeezed towels to wipe her face, and he ordered like his father: blow your nose. But she couldn't stop crying. He had to cross her and walk to his room.

On the narrow single bed, she curled up on his naked and hot chest, like a wet kitten.

Lovers are tortured by lust. His kiss made her so eager. He kissed every inch of her skin, from hair to toes. He was shaking all over, and he said that he had never been tortured like this. The little girl crying in her arms, her skin is as smooth as a sad mermaid in the deep sea, so she can't bear to get her hands on it but can't let it go. She is simply a demon. Pity the devil. People want to tear her apart, but at the same time they want to protect her, even if they destroy themselves. ......

Outside, it's fifteen degrees below zero in winter, and the frost makes a blue pattern on the glass. The light of the street lamp hit the ceiling, and everything in the room was dark and quiet. This night is eternal. This is beyond comparison It's like a moment frozen on a canvas. Boundless blue.

In the next room, Lianhua buried his head in the bed and found himself in pain. For three months, Xiaoke has been calling him big brother and playing the coquetry on long-distance calls, but he never treats her as a little sister. It was not until we met tonight that Lotus was more sure that she had a crush on her.

Hearing the footsteps of Ayou holding Xiaoke into his room and their depressed breathing, Lotus felt a dark hole in her heart.

The next day, the sun rose as usual.

Three people go skiing together. Xiaoke couldn't help laughing when he saw a ski resort with a pulley car paved with snow on the hillside. Put on long skis, slide down from the top of the slope, the wind blows in your ear, close your eyes, as if flying. Two handsome guys, one left and one right, take care of the little princess in the middle.

Xiaoke seems to have a song in his heart. The boy is on my left, the boy is on my right, the boy is in front of me and the boy is behind me. It's just that there is only one person in my heart.

Xiaoke and Ayou are sitting on a funny dog, pulling a sleigh and playing on the frozen lake. Not far away, Hua Lian ran into an old horse like crazy and spread his hooves on the hard cracked mud. He only saw their laughter, not their tears. They don't know that the tears in his heart have become a frozen river.

Back in the taxi, Lotus consciously sat in the co-pilot position, while Xiaoke and Ayou sat side by side in the back seat. Afternoon sunshine quietly sprinkled on the snow, through the rear window of the car, reflected on their hair and shoulders.

The hands of two people hanging on the seat touched and then hugged tightly. In this way, the entanglement between fingers has made the lust in the body burn to the commanding heights. Xiaoke flushed.

Xiaoke began to cry again. Crying is all pure falling. Ayou's son has just turned one year old in another city thousands of miles away. His wife has an incurable disease. I borrowed money from my brothers for the Spring Festival this year.

Know that this is the end of the north, the end of lovers' love. But it can't be resisted or stopped.

Luck has changed.

The projects jointly developed by Ayou and friends have attracted attention and investment. They registered a company in a big city in the north. In two years, the company's assets rose rapidly, exceeding 30 million. The partner couldn't guess the reason, so Ayou suddenly proposed to attack the southern market, and went to great trouble to uproot all the companies and transplant all the people to the south. Small city.

The industry he is engaged in is related to the company where Xiao Ke works. Ayou intended to let Xiaoke into his company, but Xiaoke refused. No one knows about their relationship. With his unique and sophisticated skills, he supported Xiao Ke on many key points. But never say it in front of her.

Ayu's career has reached an unprecedented peak. Market sales performance has become a myth, and in the south, he has also become a upstart in the industry.

To celebrate, they drove to Suzhou. Vehicles are running on the inaccessible roads, the fields are cold and the moonlight is bright. She whispered to Xiaoke about the secret of Lotus that he knew. Hua Lian loves her secrets. Three years have passed and she is 22 years old. Ayou and Lianhua are both 33 years old, but they are still single.

They stayed in the most luxurious hotel in Suzhou. The big round bed is wide and boundless, like a calm white ocean. The folds on the sheets are as strange and gorgeous as butterflies with broken wings. It seems to mean something, but it seems completely meaningless.

Ayou's body is like a teenager, white and thin, as pure as a dove, but as strong as a lion. Clever fingers and fiery body ... these are still very charming.

"Who am I in your heart?"

"Love."

A lover who has no real sex life. Platonic lover.

Lover. The meanings of these two words began to become more profound and extensive. But actually Xiaoke prefers to call him a lover. The only lover. Because I know that I will never love another person as unreservedly as I love him and put all my eggs in one basket. Such love is irrational. It will make people persistent to death. At the same time, it is also the most stupid, shameless, hurtful and reviled. Love.

Midnight, still not asleep. Ayou lit a cigarette, and Xiaoke rested her head with long hair on her chest. It is a blue night outside the floor-to-ceiling window.

Ayou talked about last year in Qingdao, and one night he had a whim to go swimming at the seaside. Three of their friends said they were leaving, drove to the seaside, took off their clothes, put on their underwear and jumped into the water. At that time, it was still very cold, the night was dark and windy, and the waves swept them far away from the shore. I can't see anything, it's dark. Only the big waves came crashing down, causing their teeth to fight and their tears to blur, but they could see nothing and didn't know where to swim. ......

Xiaoke looked at the ceiling and listened quietly, feeling that his chest was impenetrable because of panic, because one night a year ago, his fear also deeply spread to her heart. Ayou was a bad boy since he was a child, and he was a notorious villain in his hometown. When he went out to collect debts alone, he also cut each other's ass with a knife. But he said, Xiaoke, I was really scared that night. I have never been afraid, but I was really scared that night.

Xiaoke did not shed tears, but shed blood for his fear, in his heart.

Life is a dark ocean, and no ship can easily cross it.

Ayou bought a 1 carat diamond ring and gave it to Xiao Ke in a dark blue velvet box. Xiaoke didn't wear it on her hand. She wore the ring as a necklace on a silver chain. The sparkling diamond is hidden under the clavicle, like a secret displayed on the chest.

Dive deep into the ocean. The bright sunshine on the sea can be shared with many people, but the darkness, loneliness, fear and sadness in the depths of the sea can only be tasted by one person alone. It's an eternal secret, because it's an unspeakable secret if it's given to only one person.

One day, we will all become pages and fragments of history, not fresh and greedy young beauties. The annual rings of the years will ruthlessly run over the limbs and completely destroy and smash youth. Only the desires in the body will keep youth forever. This plain life will one day become a beautiful work on the old canvas. All our love and yearning for our lover will be sealed in a black jar and float on the ocean after the shipwreck, becoming a gift to survivors and fishermen.

He once said that he would marry her. If she marries another man, he will go crazy. He will send a wreath at their wedding.

She is still a proud princess, and she thinks she can control this love storm. She thinks he is just a mentor of desire. Her selfish and indifferent heart can bear joy, love, pain or parting after love. If there is no parting, it must be her. The princess will definitely make the knight sad.

But she didn't expect that God gave her goodbye, but she didn't have time to say goodbye.

She didn't expect that she would rather endure pain than separation.

Everything came too fast, like a disaster from the sky.

A month after the secret holiday, Ayou and Xiaoke Company were invited to attend an international business negotiation meeting. Knowing that Xiaoke was present, Ayou took a big leave from his salesman and went to the meeting himself.

The plane crossed the blue ocean and flew smoothly in the cabin, and the passengers were laughing. Suddenly, three men took out their guns and aimed them at all the passengers, and took control of the cab. I was hijacked. The gangsters demanded huge sums of money from the airport and the police through pagers. After being rejected, they decided to kill a child to intimidate.

Ayu stepped forward to stop the gangsters' atrocities. The gangster shot at him, and he didn't have time to think about it. He flew to his chest like lightning.

Bang. Blood beads float weightlessly in the air. Her hair smells good. There was a smile on his lips.

Don't regret until you die.

We love each other, we hijack. Stand up and die for some hopeless persistence, crisp and neat. Life is so absurd, and God has cruelly given human beings the right to be presumptuous and willful.

When he opened his eyes, he saw the endless black Wang Yang. The sky is deep purple, like a ripe grape. He was lying on the back of a fish, a huge blue sea fish with a back as wide as an island. The wind brought the fragrance in her hair and her smiling eyes. She stood by the fin and smiled as peacefully as a Buddha.

He thought he was dreaming, but she told him that this is the sea of death and the fish in hades are riding at his feet. This is the last farewell between them. She told him not to be sad, because she died of adolescent impulsiveness, tyranny and innocence. This has nothing to do with him. He is just a medium. It could be him, or it could be any man she fell in love with, the first person to be called his man. It is her long-cherished dream to die in youth and love. Everything has nothing to do with him.

Ayou got a fright. He shouted that you lied to me. You lied to me. You lied! This is just a nightmare. When I wake up, Xiaoke, we must lie on the beach by the sea!

In the nightmare, a three-eyed ghost bird flew into the purple sky, picked him up, roared into the sky and disappeared into the depths of the tunnel from hell to the world. He was allowed to live.

Xiaoke stood alone on the back of the ghost fish. The fish began to rise and fall, crying for the little soul attached to the fish's back. Tears fly in the sea of death, with a fragile but beautiful shape and a faint light, rising to the sea.

The empty beach on the seabed is white and delicate, and the waves breed ripples like fish scales.

The Pluto, dressed in black, separated from the sea, rolled up huge waves and strolled in front of her. He was deeply fascinated by the girl's cold and gentle soul. He asked for a kiss in exchange for cutting the red rope on the tail finger of her left hand.

To Pluto's surprise, he was rejected by her. She only asked the keeper to let him forget her and meet again in the next reincarnation. She still wants him. She can't stop loving him. That kind of love was so strong that it went straight to the bone marrow and swallowed up all her soul.

Hades was a little surprised. He has always believed that human beings in the real world are the most affectionate and heartless generation, with no faith, no religion and only self-experience. It is easy for them to fall in love with one person and forget each other. Because they have never experienced the panic of war, famine or epidemic disease, rich materials make their spirit extremely fragile and can't bear any injustice and harm. Abandoning others before being abandoned is their ultimate weapon to protect themselves. Their emotional world is as bright and erosive as the vast night sky, which needs countless fireballs to decorate.

But Hades said: charming girl, in your heart, although impulsive and forbidden, I saw a bright and dazzling star that never fell. This is all your love. So powerful. Almost let my dark underworld shine into the world.

Ayou woke up in the hospital, and the bandits who hijacked the plane were lured to justice by the police. Xiao was the only person killed in the hijacking accident. The police launched an investigation. They showed him a picture of Xiaoke, but he didn't remember it. The young policeman was surprised: "He was only hit by a stray bullet in the shoulder, but his head was not broken. How can he forget her? " ? She died to save him! "The older policeman raised his hat brim and sink a track:" That girl is only 22 years old. Let it all be a mystery. "

Yes, there are a lot of unrequited love in this world, which can't be published, and they sink at the bottom of the Atlantic Ocean, waiting to be eroded by seawater and swallowed up by fish together with the treasure lost on the pirate ship. You can burn all your limbs to love a person and light a spark just because he can find embers and warmth at the dock of life. Wait for him to die.

A year later, Ayou and his family went to Australia.

/kloc-One summer after 0/3, he took his wife and a pair of children on vacation in Hawaii. My daughter who grew up in Australia received a multicultural education. She read Gone with the Wind and watched Zhang Ailing. She asked her father to change Zhang Ailing's novel Heart Sutra into a cartoon. He seems to remember a little. This is a story about his daughter falling in love with his father. The daughter said that she was born to paint, and she must be rich in cells of Picasso and Van Gogh. She thinks she is a peaceful madman, only 0.5 cm away from the mentally ill. The father smiled and said that his daughter was a real genius.

The daughter took out a photo and said it was a birthday present for her father.

Suddenly the tide rose, the sun went down and the purple moon rose. The sea is dark and boundless.

The picture shows him and her, Ayou and Xiaoke. /kloc-One afternoon in early spring 0/4 years ago, they had a tryst in Suzhou City. In the mysterious landscape of Guanqian Street in Suzhou, tea tables and rattan chairs are scattered in the shade, and tired pilgrims or tourists rest in twos and threes. He sat with her at the open-air round table, and a beggar-like wandering woman told their fortune, where Xiaoke told them about the troubled times marriage that he could never combine.

His body was hit by roaring memories, and all the memories about Xiaoke came like a flood, and the sea tore the bank. The soul was stabbed through a big hole and torn to pieces.

/kloc-The girl who died for him 0/4 years ago is now the daughter standing in front of him. He is not sure, because he used to be his lover, and today he is his daughter for a hopeless love cycle, or because she always wants to be his pet, his blood organ, his squirming sperm, his benefactor, lover, and the birds who lost their hands and wings in the first four generations?

He's not sure. Life is like this.

After many years, about 30 years, he was old and his wife died.

He sat alone in the living room, and the sun shone all over the floor through the glass window, as if he had told her I love you in the moonlight that night when he was a child. He's too old. Although the traces of Ying Ting are still in his bones, he is already an old man in his twilight years. Those hands and wrinkled skin are like dead leaves.

There is a picture of his daughter sent from Egypt on his knee. She is a middle-aged man in her forties, and she is no longer beautiful. But there is an eternal beauty in her eyes that only he can see. She left home at the age of 25 and wandered around the world, never telling her parents about her marriage. He learned from some friends that she had never been married. As a virgin.

In a trance, he remembered the crazy words about reincarnation said by the female beggar in the mysterious view and the cruel legend about reincarnation. In the first four cycles, he never took away her virginity in almost every life. She kept her virginity for him. An old virgin is like Joan of Arc who was crucified and burned to death.

He shed tears in the sun. What a child. He used to be a bandit. He almost killed someone, and he was almost killed a dozen times. He had a hard heart and wanted to become a monk. But I can never run away from her. His lover, his daughter, his cruel and crazy child that day.

Sunshine is still young and almost eternal.

He loves her as he did in his previous life. He and she are both children of the earth, both born in the deep and dark womb of Mother Earth, and have the same frivolous and manic soul. He can't struggle.

She loves him.

Love has faded, like frozen Wang Yang, still deep, but dead and silent. This is a disease. The lack of love. There is nothing more loving than this, and the black hole in my heart can never be bridged.

His smile is in the warm sunshine in the northeast-;

He rode his bike in the scorching sun.

He said he would escort her until she mastered all the work points-

It all seems like a lifetime ago. Light like the bitter fragrance of lotus.

This relationship can only happen once in a lifetime.

The wind is rustling and the water is cool, and the strong man is gone forever. His name is hidden in these two poems. This is their first life. The eternal love affair since the Warring States Period.

No matter how hurtful and heartless the other person is. She will stand in front of him when someone shoots him.

Because she is selfish and indifferent, so cool that she is hardly like a human child. Can't stand tomorrow without him. So, she is willing to stand up and die.

Waiting for the afterlife and becoming his favorite little daughter.