I only hope that the young will return after half a year.

The memory in my dream reappears before my eyes, as if it were yesterday.

Now that I'm over 28, I'm still doing nothing. In the lonely and cold night, there will always be a person crying secretly.

Regret it?

It is false to say no regrets.

Want to go back?

It's true that I want to go back.

Unfortunately, neither is possible in this world.

Time is gone forever, and the past can only be recalled.

I am a child in the countryside, not smarter than others, nor better than others.

Influenced by the family environment since childhood, I may be somewhat withdrawn, but I still want to be a hero and an upright person.

However, reality and dreams often conflict.

I finally lived a life I hated, and I became a coward.

My grandfather has four children. My father is the only son in the family, with two sisters in the upper class and one sister in the lower class. He has been taken care of by his family since he was a child and will not suffer a little.

It is said that the flowers in the greenhouse can't stand the wind and rain and will be beaten.

My grandfather died young. In my present memory, he made a bamboo whistle for me, played the flute and I accidentally burned someone else's haystack because I was playing with fire. I cried and was carried home by my grandparents. But now my grandfather's face has long been forgotten.

After grandpa died, his father became the pillar of the family and his younger brother was born. Because of the family planning at that time, the birth of my younger brother added another layer of frost to the already poor family, and my father's burden became heavier and heavier, and his temper became grumpy.

Drinking and playing cards, and quarreling with my mother from time to time have become commonplace.

At that time, I could only hide in the corner and hold my brother shivering.

From then on, I hated my father.

Hate why he can't make this family live well.

Later, I went to primary school.

Mom and dad are also busy with different things.

Pulling stones, planting sweet potatoes and watermelons, we make every effort to support our families, provide our tuition fees, and of course sometimes have conflicts with our mothers.

I had a good time at school.

I thought our family could develop in a better direction, but in my fourth grade, a great event happened, a great event that changed me, my father and our family.

My father hurt his eyes while pulling stones in the quarry. At first, it was fine. Later, due to delayed infection, he had to have his eyes removed.

What are eyes? The window of the soul.

No one does not understand the importance of eyes, but my father has lost an eye forever, which is unacceptable to ordinary people and my father.

At that time, my father gave up on himself for a long time.

Those years were really hard.

Why can my father bear it? It should be because of our family that he survived strongly.

This situation continued until I graduated from junior high school. Later, all the young and strong people in the village went out to work, and my dad followed.

My father and I can only meet once a year, then my mother goes out and my brother starts school. In order to support them, parents went out to work one after another.

I go to high school, I go to college, and they are all working; Until now, they are still working.

I often wonder why I can't work harder and give them a rest. Why can't I do it, because there are so many successful cases in this society?

Am I really stupid and incompetent?

Whenever I give up on myself, I still can't bear to think of this home.

Because I am still single and go home every year, they have one more thing for work, blind date.

I remember 18 years, I almost quarreled with my mother because of blind date.

Later, things didn't work out, and my mother comforted me that fortune-telling had to say that I got married late.

Whether it is true or not, I really don't want their parents to work hard for me.

Sometimes I really want to work hard, but I often dare not let go because I care.

It's not that I didn't try hard before, but that I gave up, because I didn't get it for nothing.

13 graduated from university.

12 in the second half of the semester, I went to NJ for internship with my classmates.

I can't say cheating, I can only say that I'm not prepared. As a result, when I got there, my classmate was recruited by the company that the school applied for in advance, so I had to live in another classmate's residence. In order not to disturb my classmates, I am looking for a job alone in a strange city.

Then I went to Qiaobei to do real estate, and I will go to Qiaobei before, because their company met a condition and provided me with accommodation for three months.

At that time, the salary was very low, 1000 was a little more.

It is said that a week is a rest day, but on the rest day, we need to update the housing and customer data. This kind of busy work lasts only an hour or two. We usually go to work from 9: 00 to 9: 00 in the evening.

In the end, I didn't insist and went back to school despondently.

I stayed at school for half a year, and then got a job in the local city where I studied with my roommate.

Responsible for sorting and distributing.

I worked in this job for more than a year, and then I resigned on National Day the following year, because I didn't think I would get ahead in a warehouse.

So I came to NJ again with my dream.

I follow a boss named Run Yun Fei to promote app. Later, the company changed the project and started credit. How many orders are opened a year, all of which are small orders. Then the company was dissolved and I lost my job for the first time.

Stay in NJ or go outside.

I hesitated for a month. While I was hesitating, I chatted with a classmate and he invited me to visit him.

It doesn't matter whether I go or not. I went there and stayed with him. Later, I simply found a sales job in his factory and did it.

During that time, I really worked hard to find customers, run away from customers and talk about projects.

But in the end, because I failed to bring benefits to the company, I talked to my boss and left with dignity.

I can only go back to NJ again, where the dream began.

This time I am doing finance.

Single rest, nine to six, incredibly have to work overtime after ten o' clock, three years, and wasted three years.

Later, I insisted on not touching finance until now. . . .

It is said that there are many roads in life, but I feel more and more confused.

Sometimes I fall asleep and want to cry when I wake up.

It doesn't make much sense to lament the injustice of fate or regret that you didn't work hard.

After all, as long as you are alive, you still have to go on in the future.

In the morning, I watched a news.

This is the paper "Thank you" by a doctor of Chinese Academy of Sciences.

I walked a long way and suffered a lot before sending you this doctoral thesis. Twenty-two years of study, it's hard to be muddy all the way ... "

Some netizens commented: I was in tears after reading it.

I watched it several times in the morning.

Really, after reading it, I found that people are so bitter that they can persist. Who am I to complain here?

The full text of this article is as follows:

In the first half of the paper, the author introduced his family background. Mom left home, and dad was away, which is not the most painful.

The most painful thing is where you will go, as the author said in the article.

His father died in a traffic accident, and so did his mother-in-law who lived with him and took care of him for seventeen years. The old dog Xiaohua didn't know when and where to end up, and the computer enlightenment teacher and his wife died one after another like his brother. There is no more pain in this world.

People's feelings are hot and cold, and where will you go? Of course, it makes people miserable and helpless, while poverty may make people lose hope. The whole family is human. Doing homework or reading books under kerosene lamps is the happiest thing in the evening. If it rains, the procedure is to sew the bamboo shell with a plug to prevent rain. Before high school, the main sources of income were catching Monopterus albus at night, fishing on weekends, raising pigs and renting buffaloes. In those years, I measured ten kilometers of rice fields and rivers in Fiona Fang with my feet countless times. Being chased by dogs and snakes, he fell into the water in the middle of the night and fled home in the dark because there was water in the battery; It is inevitable that the eel will be sold by his father without paying tuition fees, and then he will buy meat and wine.

The suffering behind people can still be overcome, but the dignity in front of people is extremely fragile. In class, I am often called out of the classroom for an interview by the teacher because I am in arrears with my tuition. It's wet in class on rainy days, and there may be mud behind your ass. Walking barefoot on the hot road in summer. In winter, I wore shabby clothes and shivered through the long corridor to get my exercise book. These may be the last straw to crush the camel. If I hadn't always taken the bonus from the podium after the exam and posted a wall of awards to satisfy my final vanity, I might have given up long ago. "

Pain, helplessness, poverty.

The author thought about giving up, but he didn't give up in the end.

It is really hard for us to imagine the pain and great courage.

After all, the author walked out of his own world and broke into a new world by his own efforts.

I like the last few sentences of this paper best.

"The ideal is not great. I only want to live to be over 500 years old and come back as a teenager. I hope I can have a chance to know the world again and live up to the hardships I have suffered in my life.

Finally, if you can do something to make others' lives better, you will make money in your life. "

I only hope that the young will return after half a year.

Touched the hearts of many people.

I hope we can re-understand the world like the author and do something to make others' lives better, so that we can make money in this life.

Although we are just ordinary people, or we may not be able to make some achievements through hard work, we have a clear conscience as long as we have tried and done nothing.

We live in this world not to work hard, nor to live hard, but to do something that really benefits ourselves, others, the world and life.

We are not great, but we still have our own bright spots.

Believe in yourself, believe in the future and believe in life.

Because we are different, everyone has his own ideal.