What is the experience of not getting married?

I may be a celibate. I remember being asked by my deskmate "What do you think of the future" when I was immersed in the college entrance examination. At that time, I blurted out, "I want to die alone." The original judgment is upheld and the viewpoint remains unchanged. Every time I talk about friends, I am curious: Why? Why do you have such an idea? Why would anyone want to die alone?

Of course, when I say die alone, I don't mean die alone in the true sense. I mean no intimacy, no love, no marriage. The reason is that the family I come from accounts for the vast majority. But it doesn't matter. There is no need to blame what I was born with. All I can do is face it and try to change it. But if there is no way to change, I will let go and choose to accept. And my family seems to be used to it.

Some people say that there is nothing wrong with a person, and he is happy and unrestrained. Don't comfort me, I know I'm cool, and I also know that even if the world is open now, it's hard to control others' mouths. Now I am still young, but in a few years, there will be a lot of gossip, so forget it, but every word is difficult, so be prepared.

There are many practical problems that you must consider. What if you get sick and no one takes care of you when you are old? What if someone sees you bullying you by yourself? In this way, there is nothing wrong with marriage, as long as it does not fail, it is really a long-term meal ticket.

It is difficult for me to judge whether one person is lonely or two people are lonely, which is better and which is more pitiful. The only thing I can make clear is, don't get married just because you are old, or because everyone around you is married and your parents are forcing you to be so tight. Just find someone to marry. In short, don't get married just because you want to, because according to the deviation of survivors, you are likely to regret it later.

What kind of experience is it to decide not to fall in love or get married? How to answer this question? I think my life has just begun. It has just begun, and the morning light is coming. Maybe I'm just a single person who is not too firm, brave and outstanding. I still believe in love, but more or less I don't think it will happen to me.

Probably celibate is also a pessimist to some extent. Although I don't have an answer now, you can rest assured that if I really die alone, I will leave my answer in this world, even if I am old enough to tremble every time I write two words.