I am a little autistic, self-abased, conceited, selfish, unreasonable, arrogant, dismissive of anyone, unwilling to communicate with others, angry and haggle over every ounce.

It's good that you can find that you have a problem, but it can't be useless. You just have no confidence in yourself now. No one is perfect. Go your own way and let others talk.

You should completely change your present situation, always reflect on everything, always be afraid of problems and always want to be perfect. This state is too wasteful of energy and too tiring to be a human being.

First, see a psychiatrist. Psychological counseling, thus changing the current psychological anxiety.

Second, do some vigorous outdoor aerobic exercise. Such as running, climbing mountains, shouting, etc. To relax.

Third, often find friends to communicate, try to avoid being alone and make your mood more sunny.

Fourth, take part in more group activities and exercise your ability to deal with various problems in contact with people.

Fifth, if you have personal hobbies, such as playing mahjong, playing cards, playing basketball and even smoking. As long as you don't destroy society and family, try not to be too strict with yourself for a period of time and let go to play. Maybe you can put your problems of autism, inferiority, egoism, selfishness and inhumanity behind you and be yourself, no matter what others say or think. If you have achievements, you have confidence, and if you have confidence, you have self-esteem.

I believe that through your continuous efforts, you will soon become a self-respecting, self-confident, happy and generous person, able to handle all kinds of personnel relations and be concerned, loved and respected by people around you.

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